tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-86859205846089900992024-02-07T04:37:21.391+01:00She's Losing it...Striving For A Healthier Tomorrow...
Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.comBlogger493125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-3144992594692155682018-11-03T20:39:00.002+01:002018-11-03T20:39:54.241+01:00been ages... I don't think anyone is following this blog anymore - but for those of you who do - I reached my goal weight last Monday and figured I would pop in with a progress picture.. <div>
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There is a little over 2 years between the pictures.. </div>
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I just want to say even though I am not active - I am still lurking.. Reading.. Sending you all love and prayers.. Thank you for all the support you have given me through the years.. </div>
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Lots of love </div>
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Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com14tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-19926225382172747542017-11-26T20:20:00.001+01:002017-11-26T20:20:58.544+01:00Been a while.. Hey guys..<br />
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It's been ages.. I still lurk around, and read your blogs..<br />
2017 is coming to an end, and I thought I should pop in and give you an update.<br />
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At the end of 2016 I made the decision of contacting my doctor and ask for help with my weight, if I hadn't manage to lose and keep off 10 kg (20 lbs) ..<br />
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Needless to say I didn't..<br />
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Being on and off diets, specially diets like keto, I kept yoyoing so much, and by fall 2016 I had reached my highest weight ever.. I was up to 126 kg / 278 lbs and I hated every moment of it..<br />
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I met my doctor mid January and I had a good long talk with him.. I finally got the help I needed and restarted my weight-loss journey.<br />
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Today I weigh 74 kg /163 lbs.. Which means during this year I have lost 52 kg/ 115 lbs .. I still want to lose some more.. my goal is to maintain around 55-58 kg / 120-127 lbs.. build some strength and just live..<br />
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Here is a photo I took on my way to work, that shows how far I have come this year.<br />
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For the first time in my life, the end seems near, and my goal achievable..<br />
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<3Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-18080187946051271392016-06-26T15:25:00.000+02:002016-06-26T15:25:01.805+02:00More fasting!So I ended my last fast on Friday, and took a little time feeding.<br />
I had my last meal last night, and now I am back at it.<br />
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During the last fast I lost 9 lbs, I have gained 1lbs after the "feeding" time. So all in all it was a 8lbs lost for 4 days!!!!<br />
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This week I am due to have my period so I might not be able to stay at it as long as I want - but there is always hope. I will make sure to update on how it goes, and how long I stay with it!<br />
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Fast is still going on.. I have been having coffee and water, tonight I am feeling a tad hungry, but I am planning on keeping it it. :) </div>
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I hit 3 days around 5 PM today </div>
Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-46732212549446111022016-06-22T20:41:00.000+02:002016-06-22T20:41:16.618+02:00So I have consumed less about 800 calories since Sunday night, where about like 700 of it was from my dinner on Monday..<br />
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Not feeling hungry at all.. I think I might just keep going..Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-77195461002778168382015-09-22T11:30:00.003+02:002015-09-22T11:30:45.070+02:00Been a while! I know I have rarely been on blogger.. I do miss you guys, and I do check in to get updated on your blogs (even though I am kind of behind)..<br />
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I have been busy, and I am glad to say that it has been really good! My new therapist was probably just what I needed.. She and I clicked, and my whole state of mind has changed a whole lot. I actually have my last session with her this Thursday.. And I have been off my anti-deps for 2-3 months now.<br />
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I did gain almost all of the baby weight back again but I really don't care right now. I am improving, and the weight is coming off. I got me this LCHF/nutritionist who made me see all the mistakes I was making on keto and ever since things have been good.<br />
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I have so much energy, and it helps keeping my mood steady. I have also started working out. I am only using the elliptical I bought before I got pregnant, but I have gone from barely being able to do a couple of mins, to do 3 full intervals <a href="https://instagram.com/p/7zo418Lo8q/">(about 20-24 mins</a>) and I couldn't be prouder of my self :) And ladies get this: My body fat percent has gone from around 59% to 47%!!!<br />
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I also turned 33 around 3 weeks ago :) Seems like I am finally getting hang of this.. you know.. Life.. in my 30's :)<br />
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Anyways I just wanted to check-in and say that I am still alive..<br />
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<br />Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-43681622961341217412015-07-05T21:04:00.001+02:002015-07-05T21:04:12.051+02:00I'm still alive..<br />
Life has been busy.. But I am here.. I do read blogs, and I do try to comment but I have always been suckey at that and you know it..<br />
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I am however way more often on Instagram.. If you want to feel free to follow me there (it is mostly food pics lol) - anywho, my username there is <a href="https://instagram.com/sheslosingit82/">sheslosingit82</a><br />
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<br />Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-21309378505356518572015-05-20T10:28:00.000+02:002015-05-20T10:28:12.648+02:00Our home! (Finally some pictures)So we have been living in our new home for.. hmm.. 6 months ish?? - And I know I promised I would post pictures, and I have been waiting for the right moment to take them, but lets face it, with 2 kids under the age of 3 our house is just a huge playground. It is messy, full of toys but it is our home. I still haven't had the time to put up pictures ect, but here it goes :)<br />
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So first ... This is how the place looked like when we bought it:<br />
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The view from one of our windows, you see the bridge? It's the one that connects Sweden to Denmark :) </div>
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Living room!</div>
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So as you see we redid everything :) I am not happy with the woodwork, they did a really bad job on the door-frames, and the wood floor in the hallway and the kitchen.. But it is what it is.<br />
I still have to hang up pictures, and we haven't done much to the balcony ex. from fixing the floors.. We are planning on buying a love seat to have out there.<br />
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I haven't decorated the baby's room either.. As you saw his COT is still in our room, so he sleeps with us. I will move him to his own room around end of next month, so for now, his room is just more like a changing/storage room.<br />
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The walk in closet in the hallway was such a huge mess that I spared you the picture of it ^^<br />
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I really do like our home, I wish the woodwork had been proper, and the bathroom is really really small, but other than that we like it and it is going to be our home for the next 2-4 years.Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-58472435542376725922015-04-29T20:49:00.000+02:002015-04-29T20:49:11.687+02:00Been a while.. Gosh, time flies by and I know I have been a horrid blogger...<br />
I just haven't been able to get my self to write cause I have been so disappointed in my self. I have been going back and forth between eating "normal" and LCHF, and those combos just don't work. I have gained around 6lbs and I am not going to let it get out of hand again.<br />
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This weekend we had my bff and her family here.. It has been an emotional ride because of her daughter. She is the one with brain cancer and it has just been horrible to see the little angel become a shadow of her former self. Meal times were just a war, cause she is barely able to eat. She got a tube put in through her nose, and they are waiting for the operation to put a button through her belly so she doesn't have to go around with the tube in her nose. I could go on and on about how it was but yeah..<br />
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Anywho.. So we took the time to go out, just the two of us and we talked about, well everything. One being my frustration over not being able to decide what to do. You know like which diet to follow ect.. As you know I am one of those diet hoppers.. I keep getting on a off this and that wagon and it needs to stop..<br />
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A few years ago, my friend lost around 30kg, which is around 66lbs following a low calorie diet and add 3 days of workout to it. And she was like, you have to remember no matter what you do, it is calories in, calories out. And I think each one of you can agree to that. It doesn't matter how low carb you go, you can even go vegan.. But if you keep binge eating, you will not lose weight.<br />
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That is me you know.. Always the binge eater..<br />
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That said, I am going to start restricting my calories.. I am going to ignore macros and just focus on the calories. My goal will be 1200 - 1500 calories a day. No food is off limit.. There will be no "cheat days". Just plain counting the calories. I am just so tired of being confused over what I should be doing, so I think this is the best way to go.<br />
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I hope everyone is doing fine, and I promise to catch up on blogs asap.<br />
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<3Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-64843530261349716772015-03-21T12:53:00.001+01:002015-03-21T12:53:33.687+01:00Two weeks... Days, hours are just flying by.. I have no sense of time anymore.. The baby is two weeks old already today. How is it even possible? <div>
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I know for people living outside the Nordics bottle-feeding a baby is no big deal, but here it is a taboo.. You are supposed to breast-feed. You get weird looks when you take out a bottle to feed a newborn. And even though we had to do it with my oldest too, it still really messes with my head... I have been feeling like I fail as a woman. As a mother.. I feel like I am not good enough to have kids. I have been feeling guilty and ashamed. I still am.. But c'est la vie.. Right? We can never have everything we want. </div>
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Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-7237822276156273662015-03-13T13:37:00.000+01:002015-03-13T13:37:39.246+01:00Weight update! The baby is 1 week old tomorrow and I now weigh 32 lbs less than I did when I got pregnant. I am barely 2 lbs away from my first weight goal, and 12 from the second.. I don't have any rewards planned for the first goal - but I am thinking about getting a haircut when I reach the second one. <div>
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My little chipmunk was born on Saturday afternoon.. He looks just like his older brother when he was born ex from the fact that he is bigger :) Tall and chubby with chipmunk cheeks would be the best way to describe his cuteness.<br />
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The labour in it self was hell.. 26 f--ing hours.. Couple of hours before he was born I just crashed down - I don't think I have ever been crying so hard cause I just couldn't do it anymore. I still don't feel like my self, with the lack of food and sleep during all those hours, and even the rest of the weekend.<br />
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<3Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-52988954114352565062015-02-18T15:52:00.000+01:002015-02-18T15:52:22.968+01:00Baby is due next Sunday and I am counting minutes for him to be here. I can not wait to see and hold him, and let him be a part of our little family.<br />
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With the pregnancy coming to an end I also keep finding myself thinking more and more about my body - food - diet and everything that comes with it.<br />
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I have just started gaining back some of the weight I lost during the pregnancy and it has had me in half panic mode. I know it is really silly cause I know it is because the baby is growing and putting on fat and weight to get ready for the birth, but it also makes me wonder.. Will this round be just like the last, where I lose a whole bunch of weight within 2-3 weeks after the baby is here, just to gain it and additional 20 lbs after?<br />
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I find myself thinking about meal plans and so on more than I have for months.. And I know it is not coming from a healthy place. And I try to keep reminding myself that my "plan" is to eat healthy, move, and just make sure to keep my portions under control, and then there is this voice back in my head going "lol who the hell are you trying to kid - you will never have control.. You are fat, you will always be fat.. Fat.. Fat.. Fat.." *sigh*<br />
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What do you think I should do? Should I just leave it, or actually sit down and make a proper plan? Should I try to ignore the voice, even though it has all the right to say what it is saying based on my past?Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-68083380534085183472015-01-15T11:28:00.003+01:002015-01-15T11:28:54.998+01:002015 and still no post! 2015 is here and I still haven't gotten around to write a post. I have started a few posts but never gotten past the first couple of sentences, and never gotten around to actually post them.<br />
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With the pregnancy soon to be over I have been thinking more and more about what I will do with my diet, and the only thing I am sure of so far is that I want to eat clean whole food. I still don't know which way I will go with it, but then again maybe all I need to do is to eat clean and practice portion control. I guess only time will show.<br />
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Anywho.. I was supposed to have my first appointment with the new shrink tomorrow, but I have called them and asked them to change it and give me another appointment. I am feeling fine now, and I really don't feel like going there. The weather is shitty, I have a whole lot of pain and I just don't feel like I need it right now. I am going to see if they can rather give me an appointment in March, after the baby is born, cause that I know I will need. I really hope to not get hit by another wave of depression when the baby is born, but I am ready for it to happen. There is a 80% chance that it will so yeah that is that..<br />
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This is something I aim for each year, and I'm sad to say that each year my start weight is higher than the year before. I never stick to a plan and that is a recipe for disaster. So this year I want to choose something and just stick to it. </div>
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- Work out</div>
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Another one I keep repeating. I just need to get stronger so I can actually do stuff with my husband and kids.. I do not want to be one of those mothers who is always on a bench at the park cause she is too weak/tired/fat to play with her kids. </div>
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- Redefine weight goals and rewards</div>
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I put too much pressure on my self, and when I don't reach the so-called "goal" I always feel like a fail.. So I have to redefine my goals and remember that 2 lbs down is still much better than 2 lbs up. </div>
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- Spend more time and money on my self</div>
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My looks has been my lowest priority since I just don't feel good in my own skin. I need to change the way I look and feel about my self and remember that I am worth more than what I think I am now. </div>
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That's it for me.. What are you looking into improving/changing in 2015? </div>
Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-39611823555414864142014-12-11T14:26:00.000+01:002014-12-11T14:26:33.531+01:00I made a comment on my last post, but I figured it would be easier to just make a new post.<br />
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First off, thank you so much for the comments, it makes it easier to deal with things when reminded I am not the only one who goes through things like this.<br />
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But yeah I am going to meet my shrinks replacement in January. And today I got a letter confirming the date.. And guess what.. The new shrinks last name is <b>Frankenstein</b>...<br />
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I couldn't stop laughing.. I mean really?? Frankenstein?? If this is not a sign then I don't know!Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-21433945821650802272014-12-10T18:42:00.002+01:002014-12-10T18:42:29.982+01:00So erm yeah...<br />
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Today my shrink told me it is her last day and that she is starting a new job...<br />
This after I had an emergency doctors appointment at the hospital cause my tummy has been hurting like a bitch and they told me my stress hormone levels are too high..<br />
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*sigh*Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-28103238511840247722014-12-04T17:50:00.002+01:002014-12-04T17:50:51.280+01:002014So I guess this will most likely be my last post in 2014. I know I have been a sucky blogger and been MIA most of this year, but I still find my self very lucky to have some of the most amazing readers <3<br />
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2014 has been a rough year for me. 2013 and most of 2014 have been filled with really unstable mood-swings and loads of depression. I am however really glad to say that I feel much better. I still have days where I just don't want to get out of bed, talk or even breath but those days are coming further and further apart.<br />
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I still am seeing my therapist, however we haven't been able to have sessions as often as I wish we had, but she is still there. Our next "project" is to prep me for birth of my new son this March, and hopefully try to prevent, or catch yet another PP depression in time and get on with treatment asap. They say when you have had it once, you are most likely to have it again, and for someone with my background the chances of it happening are pretty high. This time around I am lucky to have her on my side so I know I will not have to go through it alone until I crash.<br />
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This pregnancy has also been really hard, I am now into my 27th week of pregnancy and I still get sick. I have been coughing really bad for almost 5 weeks now, and it just doesn't seem to go away. The doctor says it is just a virus and there is nothing to do about it..<br />
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This year (a month or so ago) I was also verbally attacked and a victim of "random" racism.. It's not often I feel like a foreigner even though I live in Sweden but am Persian and raised in Norway.. But when something like that happens it really hits you right in the face - making you question if you made the right choice of living where you live. I know idiots are everywhere, and something like that could happen everywhere, but it is hard to just keep a "c'est la vie" attitude and not let if affect you.<br />
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We have also moved to a new place this year, we are still not really in place, still have no curtains, pictures ect up, but my son seems to love it here, so I am trying my best to stay positive, and just take it as it comes.<br />
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This Christmas is also going to be "special" since my mother and my middle sister are going to spend it here with us. I told my mother they could spend it here, but I know for a fact that it will be really rough. My sister is the definition of drama queen, one who always makes everything about her self, who has never really done anything to show that she cares about me but saying the words. She is also a liar (I am not sure if she means to be, but she is), and always tries to manipulate people around her. She has yet to meet my son, and she is already talking about meeting some random people she met, who she has spoken to once, while she is here. It really hurts me, that my son is 2 years old when she gets to meet him, which btw also has been her choice, and still she makes it clear that we are not the main reason why she is coming to visit us. And my mother.. Well she is who she is, you have all read the stories about her, and she doesn't really change. She says so many stupid things without being aware of how horrible they actually are.. So yeah..<br />
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I guess I just have to bite through the days there are here, and remember that it will most likely be years before we see my sister again, and months before we see my mother. I really don't understand why I just don't say "No you can not come" when I don't really want them here, and the only reason I say they can come is because I don't want to hurt them..<br />
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Anywho..<br />
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I am looking forward to 2015, and I aim to make it a great year for us. Are you happy with how 2014 has been?<br />
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<br />Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-71797942011286451162014-11-17T14:09:00.000+01:002014-11-17T14:09:46.300+01:00I just don't understand how this is even possible! So as the title says, I got my self a proper shock today..<br />
We have had a bad cold, and moved to the new place last weekend, so I haven't had the chance to get on the scale.. But I did today..<br />
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And OMFG!!!!! I have now lost almost 20 lbs since I got pregnant... How.. I just don't understand how is this even possible??<br />
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I promise you I have not been trying to lose weight.. I have been eating almost everything I have craved (within reason), I haven't really been out and about because my fibromyalgia and <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Symphysis_pubis_dysfunction">SPD</a> pains have been over the roof.. So how is it possible that I have lost almost 20lbs?<br />
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I know that a couple of it is probably cause I haven't been drinking as much as water as I should the last couple of days, but still..<br />
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As far as I can tell the baby is doing good too, he is very active (aka kicking my bladder so I have to pee like 30000 times a day), and we are to check the growth on Thursday, but nothing seems off. This means.. That if I don't gain any weight until the baby is duo I will end up losing over 30lbs when the baby is born. Of course I know I can not think like this, cause usually the most gain comes in the last tri-master.. But lets get real... I am 24 weeks pregnant and down almost 20lbs! Insane I tell ya... This is just insane!<br />
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PS: I promise to post before/after home edition pix as soon as we are more in order :)Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-89346629721029257792014-10-16T13:14:00.002+02:002014-10-16T13:14:35.505+02:00Oh boy, oh boy!Seems like we are having another boy :) I was sure this one was a girl since the pregnancy is one from hell, but the ultra sound doesn't lie lol<br />
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I just want to say that I am so sorry for being so much awol and so sucky reading/commenting. Between all the puking, insane pain in the joints and the hip and the renovation drama I am using every moment not spend on those sleeping.<br />
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I am doing very well with my weight - lost around 12 lbs and it is keeping steady so that is all good.<br />
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I promise I will do my best to post more.<br />
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<br />Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-67516325471974826942014-10-06T21:44:00.001+02:002014-10-06T21:44:49.543+02:00My bff's 2 year old daughter was just diagnosed with brain cancer..<br />
She is to have chemo every week for next 6 months, and then ever other, ever second week for next 1,5 year..They also discovered that she has a genetic illness called <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neurofibromatosis_type_I">NF1</a> which means she could be having the chemo on and off for years..<br />
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And all off this.. It is making me so angry... So angry that this little wonderful beautiful baby girl has to go through all of this.. Lose her pretty curls... Be in pain.. While there are people like my sister who refuse to go to rehab to get rid of her addiction..<br />
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I know that addictions and ED's are not easily treated... But after this... I just do not understand why people don't want to get help when they have the option of getting help and becoming healthy..<br />
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This little girl has no option...<br />
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So if you are reading this.. And you have an ED... Or any other disorder - and have the option of getting help... GO GET HELP and try to get healthy.. Do not waste your life chasing a number, cause there are people, babies.. Who do not have the option of being healthy..<br />
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And please keep our little princess in your prayers..<br />
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<br />Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-92195043179165966252014-10-03T15:12:00.000+02:002014-10-03T15:12:10.868+02:00It's so important to remember who your family is..<br />
Family is NOT the one you are labeled with..<br />
Family is the ones who are loyal to you.. Who actually bother to wonder how you are, regardless of how much their own life sucks..<br />
Family is not the people who keep pushing you into giving, and giving but who never give anything back.. The ones who are just full of words and never act anything close to the words they speak..<br />
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My family is my son.. My husband.. My soon to come baby..<br />
My family is the friend who has a kid in hospital but still tries to sooth me when I worry...<br />
My family is my husbands grandmother who pulls me aside and tells me not to worry, cause when it's time for me to go to labor she will be there to make sure my son is taken care of - canceling her vacations just to not miss it..<br />
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So fuck the ones who are forcing words like "sister" on you.. Fuck them..<br />
<br />Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-39690310957719009252014-09-24T13:17:00.001+02:002014-09-24T13:17:54.787+02:0017 weeks pregnant and 12 lbs lighter...<br />
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I srsly don't get this... I am eating whatever I want, which has been a bunch of Persian food lately since that is what I have been craving..<br />
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How come when we stop thinking about diets, and what to eat, is when we actually lose weight??Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-30084596285291699882014-09-16T19:45:00.002+02:002014-09-16T19:45:43.679+02:00Here we go again... So I did the glucose test today and I have gestational diabetes again... I am not as panicked about it as I was last time.. But I sure hope it is exactly like it was then and that I do not have any issues - and that I only reacted to the insane amount of sugar in the glucose test.<br />
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In other news we got the keys to the new place yesterday, and the work started today... We are set to move in within 2 months, so I hope we are done by then..<br />
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It's not much to tell other than the fact that this is it for me.. No more babies after this... I really do not think I can survive another pregnancy like this.. And this time around everything has just been twice as bad.. So yup this is it and I am done.. Very very very done....<br />
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PS: I am so sorry for being a boring fart with nothing to post but boring stuff... :(Kittyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8685920584608990099.post-48256398332214747012014-09-02T13:49:00.001+02:002014-09-02T13:49:16.108+02:00Birthday ramblings! Turning 32 today.. I am OK with it. My 30's have so far been easier on me than my 20's regardless of everything.<br />
Turning a year older always makes me think about life, and everything that comes with it. And I was thinking it was about time I gave you guys an update of what's going on.<br />
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I am now 14 weeks pregnant, and I am still very very sick. Puking my guts most days and have a sore throat thanks to it. My gag reflex is out of order and seems to trigger with the smallest cough. My boobs are huger than ever, and I just read that they will get bigger.. May the lord have mercy on me cause none of my bra's fit anymore.. Not even the ones I bought after I got pregnant... *sigh* .. My nose is also always stuffed thanks to the extra blood that comes with the pregnancy.. BUT other than that I am just OK lol... I am 99.9% sure that this is and will be my last pregnancy. No matter how rewarding having a kid is, I just don't know if I want to go through all of this again. I also have a very very strong feeling that this one is going to be a little girl - which means we will have one of each, and so the human line can still survive lol .. (I have my first ultrasound in a month so will know for sure then).<br />
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Because of all the charming aspects of the pregnancy I am on full time leave from my job for another 5 weeks, and after that I will be on 50% leave until end of November. I doubt that I will go back to work full-time even after that since this pregnancy has so far been harder on my body than the last one. On the bright side, I haven't gained any weight. I am down a total of 6-7 lbs since I got pregnant, which is very good in my book. I am eating well (as much as my body allows me) and I am in general in a much better mind-frame than I was during my last pregnancy. I am still going to the shrink (even though I have skipped the last two sessions since I have been so sick) - but she has been a huge help, and I really think she is the reason why I am feeling better. She isn't really doing much, but the fact that I can vent, and have my feelings - thoughts- ect validated is helping.<br />
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As far as my doctor goes, I don't need to start looking for another one before mid October, so I am trying not to think about it. Aaannnnnd I am also going to start physical therapy which hopefully will ease the pain I have in my back and joints. As far as medicines go, I am not taking anything but a whole bunch of vitamins.. I am taking iron - D-sup and prenatal vitamins. I also just had some blood work done to see if my Folic acid and B12 levels are OK, and I am being checked to see if I am any issues with gluten. My body is not taking up the supplements as it should - so my doctor wanted to make sure it has been checked as the one last thing she did before she left. So we will see how it goes..<br />
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As far as our living situation goes, we have finally sold our current place. The new owners will take over mid November which is perfect for us. We take over the new place in 2 weeks, and that is when the work starts. And hopefully we will be done with the renovations by end of October, so we can move. We are stripping the whole place off old wall-papers - having the walls, and siling (spelling :S) fixed and painted (all though I am putting up wall-paper in the living room this time).. All the floors are going to be stripped and redone. And we are putting new floors in the kitchen and hallway. A new kitchen will be fitted - the bathroom and the extra wc will be redone. The balcony is getting new paint and floor. The walk-in closet needs to be re-designed. The old closets in the hallway will be removed, and I am not sure what to put up instead. Will be some sort of closet - just not sure what style. We also need to update the el- system, and I think that covers about it all lol... So as you see when I am not puking - I am talking to contractors, trying to find good deals - ordering stuff and so on...<br />
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This is how life has been lately.. I am so sorry I am so awol from the blog, I try to read as often as I can, but sitting behind the pc makes me ill - so I haven't done much of that. I am not really doing anything fun fun cause we can't really afford anything right now lol. We are counting every penny, and need to really watch our spending. But my bff is coming to vising this weekend for my birthday and I hope to be well enough to go out for couple of dinners with her - cause I am really tired of being cooped up.<br />
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I guess I should end this wall of text, else no one will be arsed to read it lol... I hope you ladies are all doing well.<br />
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