*sigh*

First off - forgive me for my really bad use of terms in this post.. Most medical words are googled/ or from wikipedia since I don't know the words for them in English... 

I dunno how it is anywhere else, but here in the nordics are females after age 25 are called in for regular pap tests . You are supposed to do it every 2-3 years, but I had my last one done 5 years ago.. I got called in for it while I was pregnant and that is a no go. So like a month ago, I was in for a check-up and also had the test done.. 

Today I got a letter saying that there are some changes in my cervix and they will do a surgery to take out a piece for some tests .... I dunno when I will have that done.. I guess I just need to wait for the letter... 

The last time I heard of someone having these issues was a few years ago, one of my co-workers in Norway.. And it showed that she had cancer.. They then had to remove her uterus.. And after that she was fine.. 

I really hope the changes are due to the changes that happen during the pregnancy and that is not something more.. I am not ready to have my uterus removed.. I still want another kid.. 

The letter has this info thingi attached and it says that after the surgery you will not hear anything from them for 6 months - and that is when you get called in for another pap test, unless you actually agree with the doctor that is doing the surgery to send you some info home.. 

I mean.. WTF.. Do the want people just to sit and wait? It's not like 6 weeks, if f-ing 6 months.. I guess I have to ask that doctor when the time comes, and hope he/she actually does it too... 

*sigh*

Yummy mummy...

I wish I was a yummy mummy.. One like Kourtney Kardashian, Nicole Richi and Hilary Duff.. We have been talking about more kids, and the plan is to try for it next year - and if there is one thing I am sure of is the fact that I will not have a fat pregnancy again.. I guess I have several reasons for why I should get rid of as much as weight I can this year..

1. I don't want to be on a "diet" when my son starts eating more and more with us.. I need to learn to eat less.
2. I do not want to go through another pregnancy being morbidly obese..
3. I really want to weigh less than my husband..

Do you have a bf/husband/partner that is larger than you.. I don't mean just the weight.. But you know larger.. Taller, stronger ect... I really love that feeling.. I love to be the small on in the relationship..
My Dutch ex.. He was HUGE.. He could hold both of my fists in one of his hands.. And I LOVED it... I really miss that feeling..

Last night I got hubby to do push ups with me before bed.. We both need the exercise.. Hopefully I will soon be OK enough with my own body to be able to workout with him.. As it is now, I am too ashamed.. I just hate everything about it...

Oh and as if it is not bad enough.. I really need to buy some new cloths.. All my cloths are either too small (they are cloths I saved from back when I was on my lowest weight, and I aim to fit in them again).. Or they are all huge since I wore them during my pregnancy.. Or they are just ratty and old, cause I can't get my self to buy some new cloths..

I am starting to feel so shabby.. I guess I should buy some new stuff.. Cause right now I look like I am the cleaning lady next to my husband and son..

Anywho.. Here are some yummy mummy's photos... Hopefully I will join that league some day!

Back!

We had a nice trip - the weather Gods wear kind to us and we only had half a day with not so nice weather. I got on the scale and I'm up 3 lbs.. And you know what... I take it... I haven't been feeling good (had no BM), and I think I have either had a really bad allergic reaction to something or I am getting a cold cause my throat has been sore and a tad swollen since Friday.. 

But today is a new day.. I am going to drink LOADS of water and tea to just get my body moving and get rid of what ever I can get rid of.. 

Today I am also joining forces with Miranda and going on a Protein and veggie diet.. She is going to do the 30 day shred - but with the weather finally being OK I want to get some running in.. So I think I will do a mix of the Shred, running, hitting the gym, and wiifit on the days I don't really have energy to do something more. We (the baby and I) are also going to take an advantage of the nice weather and go on long strolls. 

So I am going to remember that I eat to live not live to eat... 

And to keep my body moving... 

And stop being an utter idiot... 

Now lets have a great new start to this week and stick to it! 

<3 

Lessons..

So posting pictures of my food the last couple of days has made me realize that I eat too much.. Like duuuuuuhhhh... That should be a no brainer right??

I either need to eat less.. Or I need to workout.. A whole lot more if I am any chance to reach my goal... We are leaving on a roadtrip to Oslo the day after tomorrow and will be back on Sunday night. Thursday is also hubbys birthday so it will be a long weekend of eating almost all meals out.

I have looked up the new salads on McDonalds menu since it is the easiest option for us on the road and I found this salad with melon and prosciutto that is a good option and I think I will stick to that on the way to and from Oslo. On saturday we are having a huge lunch out at TGIF, and we had to pre-order our meal. I decided to go for a mediterranean salad and skip starter and dessert. I am also going out with my bff on Friday night.. Last time she was here and we did this I think I ended up consuming like a zillion calories since we had a whole lot of sweet drinks and fatty sides like the wings ect..

I am not sure how often I will be able to get online to post on either blogs - so if I am fully awol you know why.

Hubby and I have made a pact of working out more when we get back from this trip.. Me, ofc need to lose weight, and he.. Well FML.. He needs to gain weight... He has lost a whole lot of weight since he hasn't been working out.... Yup FML again lol... Sometimes I will I had his problem lol ...

Anyways... I am going to get on the scale before our trip, and then again on Monday morning and I hope to see it going down and not up.. Wish me luck... Cause I know for a fact it's needed..

Second post of the day...

So I made another blog.. And I have linked it under the page called "my eats"..
It is exactly what it is.. A whole lot pictures of what I eat.. It will probably be a whole lot of the same food over and over again.. But I think it will help me stay commited..

I have this trip coming up this Thursday and I will be gone over the weekend, and I really hope this will help me stay on track..

Have you reached your goal pt. 2

For those of you who are going to join me while I work on the goals I want to reach by September 1st! I have made a page for us to rant - it is called Try hard every day!

If anyone else wants to join us, just leave me a comment and I will add your goals to our list :) 

Have you reached your goal?

Well, it is June 1st, and for me it would mean that I should have been almost half way to my GW. Have I come so far?
- Nope - I have not.

What have I done so far?
- Well since January I have gained back 20lbs of the 26lbs I lost after the baby was born.

Time flies by... We all know this. The truth is this:

I am turning 31 in 3 months (my birthday is September 2nd).. I want to put up some goals to reach by then, and for once stick to it.

• I want to lose 30 lbs. With the amount of weight I carry around, it's not a goal that can not be achived.
• I want to work out every other day 

It's simple.. Only two goals to reach. Does anyone else want to join me and try to reach their own goals by then? and if so, what is your goals?