Skipping work!

My earache got worst and I have been so tired.. So I decided to take a few days off work.. I called in sick and I wont be going back before Monday. I have been needing some alone time as well.. So yaay for skipping work for few days.. :)

We saw the flat I talked about yesterday.. And it didn't feel right.. I don't know how to explain it.. But something felt wrong.. So hubby and I have decided to just keep looking.. There is this wonderful flat we are going to see on Sunday. So we will see how it goes.. One thing is for sure and that is that we will take our time finding the right place.. We have time to look and that is exactly where we are going to do. 

One of the downsides with being home in the morning is TV shop.. I mean OMG.. I can not believe how many "you only need 6 mins of this instead of 1 hour at the gym" shit there is out there.. *sigh* It is sad how they can keep telling people all this stupid shit making them believe they don't need to do anything but using their shit.. Ah well.. Enough about that.. 

Anyways I am going to relax and have some girl time later :) 

<3

One of those days...

You know those days.. Where you get out of bed and think.. OMG I should not get out of bed today... Well I am having one of those days.. 

It started with an argue with the hubby in the car on our way to work.. We are ok now but ya.. Then the stupid morning meeting.. And then I finally get to get some coffee.. Came back.. Got a call.. And managed to spill the whole thing over my laptop.. It splashed over my new LED screen... And the rest ended up on the floor.. *sigh*

Now I have no coffee.. Am more tired than tired and it stinks floor coffee here... *sigh* AND on top of everything.. I think I am getting a cold cause I am sneezing and have some ear ache.. 

Anyways.. On the bright side.. I didn't give into the B/P last night.. I have been avoiding it for so many weeks that I just started thinking about how crap I would feel and just went to bed... 

Today is chill at work... Well most likely cause I am too tired and CBA to do shit.. 

After work we going to have yet another look at a flat we saw on Sunday.. It is really big for a flat.. It has 3 bedrooms- a big living room- the bathroom was fixed and renewed a year ago so it looks good. We would need to fix the kitchen and we would want to put a wall to wall wardrobe in the hall cause it is HUGE and it would be perfect to have it there-- but other than that it is pretty much ready to move in. It is placed in the middle of two parks and it's around 20 mins walk to the old town with the coffee shops and so on- around 15 mins walk to the harbour. We thought it was a bit over the budget for us- but we have looked over how much we earn and so on and we can manage it without a problem. So today we are going to have a look at it again, and if we still like it- we are going to bid on it. 

We still need to clear out our flat so they can come and take pictures of it so they can put it out and sell it. But we don't really think it will be a problem to sell our old flat. But ya I'm not going to jinx it.. So if everything goes after plan we will be moving out in a month- 6 weeks ish.. That would be great cause we really need more space. 

I need to go shopping soon.. It is getting pretty cold and I barely have any warm cloths.. I might just get online since I don't know when I would have time to go shopping again.. It's just not as fun :( 

Anyways I don't have much else to say today... 

*hugs*

Why,,,,

Why is it that when ever I feel like letting go.. I get this insane feeling of having a huge B/P session??

*sigh*

I have a new motto..

One step at the time..

I am so sick of my self trying to do over plan every single step of my life and then panicking if something unplanned happens. But guess what.. I am going to teach my self to take one step at the time.. What ever is going to happen will happen no matter how much I try to control everything.. So from now on I am going to worry and deal with things when/if they happen.

Like my hair salon time.. They couldn't fit me in for the Brazilian blow dry until .. October 13th.. Until now I would totally go mental and be in wtf mode.. Now I am chilling and thinking OK- my hair will look good for Christmas time.. hehe..

I am also taking a whole new outlook on the baby stuff.. I am done trying to convince my self that I don't want it to happen. I am done trying my fucked up mind control it.. I love my hubby.. I want to have kids with him.. I have always been wanting this.. I am not going to ruin it for me and for him being all "I dunno" about it.. I mean.. For all we know it might not happen before a few months.. It's not like people get pregnant the second they decide to. AND we didn't last month using no rubber at all... So the plan is to keep restricting the calories and pick up the training and IF I get pregnant I will deal with it then. They actually recommend light training during the whole pregnancy so it doesn't mean I can not get stronger during the thing as well as before..

And you know what girls.. I have never ever seen my hubby being so stressed over a subject.. He said "I am worried that you will regret the pregnancy and the baby and I wont be able to deal with it" ... OMG.. I can not believe I have let him think that I would regret it all.. Cause I would never.. Ever...

Anyways over to food and so on.. My tummy is pretty upset after the weekend. I am taking it easy with food and so far I have basicly have had a banana (it's lunch time now)-- I am also trying to drink a bunch of water cause I feel so thirsty all the time.. I guess my body needs it to balance it self back again...

I have also decided to cut the step two to only once a day- and that with dinner time. That is my main meal of the day with something hot to eat- so I think that is the right way to go.. I don't want to stress up my tummy like this again :S I got on the scale today.. I haven't lost or gained.. But it is sort of weird cause I have been really sick lol.. So I was suspecting that I would weigh in less.. But I guess being this bloated is messing it up?? I dunno... hmm...

Now that I am feeling better I am also back to counting calories and writing down the intake again. So that is good.. I guess we will see if it gets better by Thursday when I have my next date with the scale.. The scale... AKA THE evil lover.. Can't live with it.. Can't stand to be without it hehe

This week started more chill at work.. I still have a whole bunch of cases that are left from last week.. But I think I will be done with most of it today. *keeps them crossed*

We also finally got to place our wedding gifts - returned a couple- used out gift vouchers. We got us a Nespresso pixie  and a food processor from the Jamie Oliver Tefal series.. We got us a fun surprise when we got home and saw that it also had a blender in the pack.. hehe.. Got a bunch of small stuff for the rest of the vouchers so it was a whole lot of fun..

I also got around to write most of the thank you cards- and to sort the guestbook- picked out around 36 pictures we asked the photo dude to fix. I must say it is good to have most of the wedding related things done. All that is left is to pay the guys that filmed the wedding ( we still haven't received the bill ) and to fix the photo book when we get the pictures...

We are still flat hunting.. We saw this flat yesterday which would be perfect for us in every way.. We would need to have the kitchen fixed- but I guess that is a good thing since we will be able to have it done the way we want it.. We have to sort out and see if we can afford it cause it is a tad over the budget we were planning on spending. But then again.. It is also much bigger and central placed than we though we could have it.. So we will see..

Anyways :) We will see how it goes :)

<3

A bad bad bad reaction...

Erm... So I am having the worst reaction to the step one of the plan my aunt gave me... I have been up sick all night... And the powder and aloe vera made me gag even more...

So I talked to her.. We are skipping step one.. Giving the tummy couple days to relax and going on step two on Monday..

Ugg.. The last time I was so sick was when I had food poisoning...

A fix for my fibro pains?? A tad of flex.. And a whole lot of blab :)

Aiit.. So I haven't had the time to make a proper post in a while. Things at work have been INSANE since I got back from the honeymoon. Hopefully as I mentioned in my last post it all will be chill from the next week :)

@FedUp: You are right hehe.. It is sort of funny how the work was dead and suddenly there is barely time to breath :)

Now.. Lets start with the trip to Germany.

The weekend was good. I met my aunt and gran (from my dads side).. I don't meet them much and haven't really had a relationship with them since my mum remarried the asshole of a stepdad I had.. But that's a story for some other time. My gran has bought us a flat as our wedding gift. The flat is in Iran (Where I was born).. According to her the flat is worth around 20k USD.. And she is at the moment renting it out for around 2k USD per month. She asked me what I wanted to do with the flat and after hubby and I talked it over, we think we gonna have it rented out for 1-2 year and have them to save the money up for us- and then sell the flat and send us all the rent and the amount they sell it for. If everything goes after plan it will be a good bunch of cash I will get and with that I can cover my study loan and the left over house loan I have back in Norway.
I think it is really nice of her to think of me even though we barely have any contact.

My aunt she has her own practice where she does acupuncture and stuff like that- she also practices herbal medicine. She has given me this plan which can ease the pain I have with the fibromyalgia, it is said to be even able to cure the illness. I do not think that I will get rid of it- but I think it will help a whole lot.

The plan is in 4 steps.. First I am going to empty my gut.. (yes it is as yuck as it sounds lol)- I will take lax tonight - and from tomorrow I am going to start on this powder mix- I have to drink it every morning and night- and after I am going to take an spoon of organic aloe vera gel. I am going to do this for 14 days- then take a week off- and do it again for 14 days. I am going to use the lax once before each 14 day period. (So this will last for 5 weeks)

When that we have this plan to make my stomach acid normal- So i have to drink yet another yucky powder twice a day. And I am going to blend some drips I got from her in a glass of water and drink one glass before and one glass after lunch and dinner. 6 weeks later I will add another drip which I have to use for 3 more weeks. ( total of 9 weeks)

When this is all done I can start taking couple of pills in the morning and night to get rid of the shit that is causing the pain in my joints. I need to do this for at least 4 weeks.

So if everything goes after plan I should be almost pain free after 18 weeks. Starting tomorrow- it will be done by the end of this year. She said to get the for best result I should try to avoid dairy products - red meat- pork- and keep the intake of wheat and eggs low.

I have been playing with the idea of going flexitarian/vegetarian for a good while and I don't see any reason to post pond it any longer. I am sort of sick of everything meat related and after seeing a couple of episodes I have been even more sick with the idea of meat. I have bought some vegetarian and soya product which I will be replacing some of my food with already from tomorrow. Good for me... For my body and for nature. Hubby wont be partaking in most of it.. He is using the training as an excuse for not doing it.. But then again I am the one doing most of the cooking in this house.. So I guess he will eat what I serve him lol .. And it's not like we are going to cut out everything right away. He can still have some white meat if he wants to.

Oh and I sort of got my pre birthday- birthday gift from hubby today ^^ I don't know if you guys remember me mentioning that I really wanted to try Brazilian blow dry after I read this article on Nicole Richie's blog.. And it is supposed to last for 3 months... Imagine not having to stress with my hair every single morning.. mmm..  Anywho... I am in this deal of the day site and they had it as the deal of the day today- so I will be able to getting it for 1/3 of the price it normally costs... So I was telling him that I was considering to get it.. And he got it for me ^^ (Yes girls.. He spoils me way too often and I must admit I love it ^^).. I am really looking forward to try and see how it goes..

We are also finally going to get back on track with the training.. He really has to start working out and getting ready.. He has his first big competition in November. This means that we both can finally start working out properly. I think the first 3 weeks will be really hard but then it gets easier and easier. I am really looking forward to all of this.. Working hard and focus on everything until end of this year and start next year fresher.. healthier. Lighter.. and most of all balanced.

I have a weight loss goal for this year, I am counting it down as 18 weeks which is almost what is left of this year.. I which to reach my first main goal weight, which gets me off the morbidly obese BMI.. AKA 174 lbs.. To reach this goal I will have to have a steady weight loss of 3,5 lbs per week. Considering how fat I am and how much I have to lose, I do not think the number is too high.

Anyways gonna go spend some time with hubby.. Wishing you all a great weekend girls <3

30 mins left from my lunch break...

So I just grabbed my laptop and moved into a room.. Took off my shoes and put up my feet ^^ And OMG.. It feels so nice.. This week has been insane.. I am ignoring everything and anyone.. I just needed a break.. I haven't really been eating anything for lunch since I feel sick of all the stress.. And didn't feel like eating at all.. 

I guess it's good. I rather just have some blog time.. I must admit I miss having the blog time.. Can not wait for tomorrow to be over.. I really need a break.. We still haven't even moved the wedding gifts we got lol. Everything is in the middle of the living room on the dinner table.. I want to have a look and get those in place.. And I want to use the IPL laser thingi I bought in Barcelona. I haven't had the chance to try it even :S -- I also have to pick the pictures I want the photo dude to fix.. And maybe start on the thank you cards.. Oh and I want to get some driving done.. I still don't have a license and I want to be done with it by the end of this year. Or the start of next at the latest. 

I am done with my period.. Yay for that.. I was horrid.. But I dunno it is because I have been so tired.. Or cause I have been eating less. But I have barely had any cravings during this one.. AND for the first time in AGES I am done with my period and I haven't gained anything.. I got on the scale this morning and I have lost around half a pound. Not much but so much better than a gain. :) 

I think.. Hope next week at work will be more chill.. One of the guys will be back from his vacation. The other that has been home sick since yesterday should be back by Monday. This guy that was on parental leave will be back on Tuesday.. So I think it will be more chill.. 

My bday is next Friday and we were talking about maybe take a trip to Oslo for the weekend.. But I am not sure if I want to. I think I rather just have some "home" time if you know what I mean. And maybe have the Oslo trip later in the month.. Will see..  I am getting old girls... lol.. Really old :P 

Anyways.. I think I need to get off now. Gonna get me some tea and so on before I need to be back again.. 

<3