Shark week!

Every since I got my period back after my son was born, my periods have been hell... I used to have it for like 3-4 days where of two were barely anything.. Rarely had any cramps or anything.. The only thing that I used to notice was the mood change and the need for chocolate the day before it started.. 
Now, I enter this really bad depression mode a couple of days before I get my period.. I have cramps that make me cry, and it lasts for 7-8 days... As if it is not enough I also have labor like cramps when it's around the time I'm ovulating.. 

Anywho.. All in all the last been has been really bad.. I have been doing OK with my food compared to what I would normaly do, but yeah - I am not getting on the scale until this is over.. I think (I hope) this round of hell is over by Monday- Tuesday.. 

I am going to reread You can be thin , I am also going to download the  CD to my cellphone and do the meditation every night. As everything else I do, I never did this properly.. So hopefully it will be working better this time around.. I have a long list of books I want to reread, or finish reading.. Intuitive eating, why we get fat and what to do about it, the end of overeating and The CR way

I also just finished reading, feeling for bones and the best little girl in the world (random fact, I just noticed there is a whole video/movie based on this movie on youtube, when I googled the title to link the book here... I think I might have to take a look at it later) ... I do want to read Skinny ... But I guess I need a break from these books.. 

I had a talk to hubby today.. My weight has become a subject lately.. Or more, me losing weight, and then trying for another baby... Funny how there is a chance that things can go wrong cause of what I mentioned few posts ago (btw thank you so much for all your comments, e-mail, and thought on that matter.. It has really made things a tad easier to deal with.. I just hope that I get my docs appointment soon and can have it all overwith).... 

Anyways.. I hope you are all having a great weekend.. Oh and welcome to my new followers and thanks for your lovely comments.. Please, leave me the link to your blogs so I can follow you back.. 


You know you are fat when...

  1. it's summertime and your sweat pours down when you go for a walk
  2. you stay at a hotel, and you can not use the normal towels cause it wont cover anything but part of your boobs and back..
  3. you need a beach towel to dry up.. You are a beach whale
  4. you pass a mirror and think "who's that fatty" and realize it's you
  5. you can not fit into your size L tights
  6. you have rub sore between your thighs because your thighs are so huge they wont stop rubbing against each other
  7. your high heeled shoes wont fit properly cause you have fat sticking over the shoe line
  8. wearing a hold-in pantihoe will make your back look like a hippo stacking on fat
  9. you can not wear a buttoned shirt, cause your boobs are so huge the buttons wont hold for long
  10. when your upper arms are so huge, they wont fit into normal size sleeves
  11. you do not remember the last time you didn't have a double chin
  12. your nose keeps growing larger
  13. you can not wear any of your rings
  14. finding a cute necklace is like finding a goldmine, cause your neck is so huge the elephants look skinny next to you.. 
  15. you wear black regardless the season to look a tad smaller
  16. you have to spend 20 bucks more than your friend for the same shirt cause yours is so huge, it could be a tent
  17. you can only shop on the "BIB" sections of the store, and even then you wont find a bra that fits
  18. when you have been wearing the same cloths over and over and over that you don't remember if they are black or grey... 
  19. You find the only beautiful thing about you is your eyes and lips.. They don't grow fat it seems.. 
  20. you can not wear a purse over your shoulder cause it wont go pass your huge upper arms 
  21. the michelin tyre dude looks skinny next to you 


5lbs down - 5 to go until the end of month.. Possible?? Lets hope so!


According to the Wiifit scale/bodyscan thingi - I weigh 3.3 lbs less today than I did yesterday when I did a body scan (and they were around the same time aka around 9PM our local time) ! I really hope it's true..

Oh and I forgot.. Happy midsummer ^^ We went and watched the dance and stuff today.. It is a real "Swed" thing to do.. It was actually kind of fun because in the middle of the show my son started kicking and  waving his arms and legs as if he was dancing hehe - and after a couple of minutes he started "singing" along going "blallalalagahgahga" really loud too lol .. He sure got the attention of the dancers, and they couldn't stop giggeling at him ^^

Here is a tad of info about the Swedish Midsummer: (Copied from wikipedia)


Midsummer celebration, Årsnäs, Sweden
Midsummer Dance by Anders Zorn, 1897
In modern SwedenMidsummer's Eve and Midsummer's Day (Midsommarafton and Midsommardagen) were formerly celebrated on 23 June and 24 June, but since 1953 the celebration has been moved to the Friday and Saturday between 19 June and 26 June with the main celebrations taking place on Friday. It is one of the most important holidays of the year in Sweden, and probably the most uniquely Swedish in the way it is celebrated. When Sweden got its National day (6 June), discussions were held about making Midsummer the Swedish national day because of the strong civil celebration on this day.
Raising and dancing around a maypole (majstång or midsommarstång) is an activity that attracts families and many others. Before the maypole is raised, greens and flowers are collected and used to cover the entire pole. People dancing around the pole listen to traditional music and sing songs such as Små grodornaassociated with the holiday. Some wear traditional folk costumes or crowns made of wild springs and wildflowers on their heads. The year's first potatoes, soused herring and pickled herringchivessour cream, beer, snaps and the first strawberries of the season are on the menu. Drinking songs (snapsvisor) are also important at this feast, and many drink heavily.
Because Midsummer was thought to be one of the times of the year when magic was strongest, it was considered a good night to perform rituals to look into the future. Traditionally, young people pick bouquets of seven or nine different flowers and put them under their pillow in the hope of dreaming about their future spouse. In the past it was believed that herbs picked at Midsummer were highly potent, and water from springs could bring good health. Greenery placed over houses and barns were supposed to bring good fortune and health to people and livestock; this old tradition of decorating with greens continues, even though most don't take it seriously. To decorate with greens was called att maja (to may) and may be the origin of the word majstångmaja coming originally from the month May. Other researchers say the term came from German merchants who raised the maypole in June because the Swedish climate made it impossible to find the necessary greens and flowers in May, and continued to call it a maypole. Today, however, it is most commonly called a "midsommarstång" (literally midsummer pole).
In earlier times, small spires wrapped in greens were erected; this probably predates the maypole tradition, which is believed by many to have come from the continent in the Middle Ages. Others argue that some form of Midsummer pole occurred in Sweden during the pre-Christian times, and was a phallic fertility symbol, meant to impregnate the earth, but as there were no records from those times it cannot be proven, and this idea might just be a modern interpretation of the pole's form. The earliest historical mention of the maypole in Sweden is from the Middle Ages. Midsummer was, however, linked to an ancient fertility festival which was adapted into St. John's Day by the church, even though it retained many pagan traditions, as the Swedes were slow to give up the old heathen customs. The connection to fertility is naturally linked to the time of year. Many young people became passionate at Midsummer, and this was accepted, probably because it resulted in more childbirths in March which was a good time for children to be born.
In Denmark and Norway midsummer is referred to as the eve of Skt. Hans but it's only in Sweden that it has kept its original name.
In Sweden and parts of Finland, the tradition of bonfires is not part of Midsummer but rather of the "Valborg's" evening festivities, when winter leaves are burned for summer.


Safe food!!

Eating hot soup in the summer time seems just like a silly thing to do, but weight watchers hot noodle soup is my safe go to food.. I usually have it for lunch, it has 114 calories and is pretty low carb and is really yummy.. It has some chicken bites but I pick them out since I'm not a fan of their texture ... I always add a tad of lemon juice to it to make it taste even better.

What is your go to meal/ food? 



End of June is only two weeks away... This means I need to get rid of 10lbs to be on track with my birthday goal.. 

I need to focus and keep reminding my self why I am doing this... 

It's a new day tomorrow... A new day, a new start... 



First off - forgive me for my really bad use of terms in this post.. Most medical words are googled/ or from wikipedia since I don't know the words for them in English... 

I dunno how it is anywhere else, but here in the nordics are females after age 25 are called in for regular pap tests . You are supposed to do it every 2-3 years, but I had my last one done 5 years ago.. I got called in for it while I was pregnant and that is a no go. So like a month ago, I was in for a check-up and also had the test done.. 

Today I got a letter saying that there are some changes in my cervix and they will do a surgery to take out a piece for some tests .... I dunno when I will have that done.. I guess I just need to wait for the letter... 

The last time I heard of someone having these issues was a few years ago, one of my co-workers in Norway.. And it showed that she had cancer.. They then had to remove her uterus.. And after that she was fine.. 

I really hope the changes are due to the changes that happen during the pregnancy and that is not something more.. I am not ready to have my uterus removed.. I still want another kid.. 

The letter has this info thingi attached and it says that after the surgery you will not hear anything from them for 6 months - and that is when you get called in for another pap test, unless you actually agree with the doctor that is doing the surgery to send you some info home.. 

I mean.. WTF.. Do the want people just to sit and wait? It's not like 6 weeks, if f-ing 6 months.. I guess I have to ask that doctor when the time comes, and hope he/she actually does it too... 


Yummy mummy...

I wish I was a yummy mummy.. One like Kourtney Kardashian, Nicole Richi and Hilary Duff.. We have been talking about more kids, and the plan is to try for it next year - and if there is one thing I am sure of is the fact that I will not have a fat pregnancy again.. I guess I have several reasons for why I should get rid of as much as weight I can this year..

1. I don't want to be on a "diet" when my son starts eating more and more with us.. I need to learn to eat less.
2. I do not want to go through another pregnancy being morbidly obese..
3. I really want to weigh less than my husband..

Do you have a bf/husband/partner that is larger than you.. I don't mean just the weight.. But you know larger.. Taller, stronger ect... I really love that feeling.. I love to be the small on in the relationship..
My Dutch ex.. He was HUGE.. He could hold both of my fists in one of his hands.. And I LOVED it... I really miss that feeling..

Last night I got hubby to do push ups with me before bed.. We both need the exercise.. Hopefully I will soon be OK enough with my own body to be able to workout with him.. As it is now, I am too ashamed.. I just hate everything about it...

Oh and as if it is not bad enough.. I really need to buy some new cloths.. All my cloths are either too small (they are cloths I saved from back when I was on my lowest weight, and I aim to fit in them again).. Or they are all huge since I wore them during my pregnancy.. Or they are just ratty and old, cause I can't get my self to buy some new cloths..

I am starting to feel so shabby.. I guess I should buy some new stuff.. Cause right now I look like I am the cleaning lady next to my husband and son..

Anywho.. Here are some yummy mummy's photos... Hopefully I will join that league some day!



We had a nice trip - the weather Gods wear kind to us and we only had half a day with not so nice weather. I got on the scale and I'm up 3 lbs.. And you know what... I take it... I haven't been feeling good (had no BM), and I think I have either had a really bad allergic reaction to something or I am getting a cold cause my throat has been sore and a tad swollen since Friday.. 

But today is a new day.. I am going to drink LOADS of water and tea to just get my body moving and get rid of what ever I can get rid of.. 

Today I am also joining forces with Miranda and going on a Protein and veggie diet.. She is going to do the 30 day shred - but with the weather finally being OK I want to get some running in.. So I think I will do a mix of the Shred, running, hitting the gym, and wiifit on the days I don't really have energy to do something more. We (the baby and I) are also going to take an advantage of the nice weather and go on long strolls. 

So I am going to remember that I eat to live not live to eat... 

And to keep my body moving... 

And stop being an utter idiot... 

Now lets have a great new start to this week and stick to it! 




So posting pictures of my food the last couple of days has made me realize that I eat too much.. Like duuuuuuhhhh... That should be a no brainer right??

I either need to eat less.. Or I need to workout.. A whole lot more if I am any chance to reach my goal... We are leaving on a roadtrip to Oslo the day after tomorrow and will be back on Sunday night. Thursday is also hubbys birthday so it will be a long weekend of eating almost all meals out.

I have looked up the new salads on McDonalds menu since it is the easiest option for us on the road and I found this salad with melon and prosciutto that is a good option and I think I will stick to that on the way to and from Oslo. On saturday we are having a huge lunch out at TGIF, and we had to pre-order our meal. I decided to go for a mediterranean salad and skip starter and dessert. I am also going out with my bff on Friday night.. Last time she was here and we did this I think I ended up consuming like a zillion calories since we had a whole lot of sweet drinks and fatty sides like the wings ect..

I am not sure how often I will be able to get online to post on either blogs - so if I am fully awol you know why.

Hubby and I have made a pact of working out more when we get back from this trip.. Me, ofc need to lose weight, and he.. Well FML.. He needs to gain weight... He has lost a whole lot of weight since he hasn't been working out.... Yup FML again lol... Sometimes I will I had his problem lol ...

Anyways... I am going to get on the scale before our trip, and then again on Monday morning and I hope to see it going down and not up.. Wish me luck... Cause I know for a fact it's needed..


Second post of the day...

So I made another blog.. And I have linked it under the page called "my eats"..
It is exactly what it is.. A whole lot pictures of what I eat.. It will probably be a whole lot of the same food over and over again.. But I think it will help me stay commited..

I have this trip coming up this Thursday and I will be gone over the weekend, and I really hope this will help me stay on track..

Have you reached your goal pt. 2

For those of you who are going to join me while I work on the goals I want to reach by September 1st! I have made a page for us to rant - it is called Try hard every day!

If anyone else wants to join us, just leave me a comment and I will add your goals to our list :) 


Have you reached your goal?

Well, it is June 1st, and for me it would mean that I should have been almost half way to my GW. Have I come so far?
- Nope - I have not.

What have I done so far?
- Well since January I have gained back 20lbs of the 26lbs I lost after the baby was born.

Time flies by... We all know this. The truth is this:

I am turning 31 in 3 months (my birthday is September 2nd).. I want to put up some goals to reach by then, and for once stick to it.

  • I want to lose 30 lbs. With the amount of weight I carry around, it's not a goal that can not be achived.
  • I want to work out every other day 
It's simple.. Only two goals to reach. Does anyone else want to join me and try to reach their own goals by then? and if so, what is your goals?