Where to start..
Well I can say I am not dealing too well with the pregnancy.. I am sort of in shock - and don't really know how to react. Don't misunderstand me - I am happy... I do want to have a kid with my husband... But everything else been really hard.. First off it wasn't meant to happen now..
It came as a shock cause well we have had sex a total of 3 times since the start of this year.. And we have been using a condom.. How on earth does that make a baby?..

But the baby is a good thing.. It will be a good thing..

I am worried.. I know I shouldn't but I have been reading way too much about being overweight and pregnant.. And it worries me..

I am scared.. I do not want to become like my mum... Which btw was the only barely reacting to the news.. All she said was "oh that's great - I can't talk right now"..

I am frustrated.. I hate my family for being the way they are.. My husbands mum almost flew back from her vacation only cause I called to tell her the news.. She was over the moon.. My youngest sister.. She hasn't even sent me a PM on facebook.. Well you know FUCK THEM!!!! Family isn't what you were born to - family is the ones you decide to be...

Other than that - I am constantly tired.. I have been going to bed around 9 every day since the trip in Chamonix..

I know - this wasn't a part of my plan - but I am not going to let it stop me.. I am going to focus on eating enough and healthy during this pregnancy. I am going to focus on staying active. I was told that I should be able to limit my weight gain eating correctly.. Tracking.. I do not need to more than a "normal budget" until the last 3 months of the pregnancy - and then I only need to add 300 calories. That is what I'm going to do..

Eat enough.. Healthy.. Not overeat..

I am sorry for not being around much.. I am sort of as you might have noticed confused - and tired.. Sometimes very happy - but sort of depressed most of the time.. It might be the hormons or whatever - but I am crying ALOT.. heh..


Thanks for all your comments girls - it really made my heart warm..



  1. Congratulations babes:D I can imagine that it must be so confusing and hard because it wasn't planned and everything, but I have no doubt in my heart that you will make a wonderful mum. Take this opportunity to learn to take care of yourself like you say, by eating healthy and staying active - you'll do great Kitty! I know Jillian Michaels did some podcasts on pregnancy on The Jillian Michaels Show (you can download it free from iTunes if you don't already know it) - they seemed to be very useful:) Take care of yourself and the little one xx <3
    PS: thank you so much! :)

  2. omg! You are pregnant. I know it's scary but you wanted this anyways and there is never a right times. So, the time is now. Sorry your family sucks the way they do. Just don't let it get to you and don't expect anything more from them...so that you are not disappointed. Still can't believe you managed to get pregnant either!

  3. You will do great and I want to say congrats!!! and you are right I have a fav saying you only need people in your life that need you. sorry I am kinda heartless when it comes to people how dont seem to care about me. keep us posted it is normal to feel this way by the way I felt that way with every one of my pregnancies and i will also admit i would not trade my children for the world. Keep your chin up hun it will be so magical!!

  4. I'm still dancing XD

    Don't worry darling, you will do just fine. If you ever need to talk I'm always here for you.

    You stay healthy for that little baby of yours. I'm so happy for you :)

    What you said about family is completely right.

    Chin up. I have faith in you.

  5. Congratulations on the pregnancy. It doesn't sound like you got the emotional feedback from your family that you would have liked, but don't let that take away from the wonderful moment of experiencing your pregnancy. I was overweight with my last baby, and I was concerned about gestational diabetes. Thankfully, I never got it, but it was on my mind. I just encourage you to eat right and not overly stress your weight. Everyone says that even overweight women should not diet during their pregnancies, just be more careful about the food choices you make. Have fun and good luck!

  6. Congratualtions! Waaaaaay!!! :D

    Surround yourself with good people :)

  7. Your words in February: "I know for a fact that if I was to find out that I was pregnant for sure today, that I would deal with it and that I would be the best mum I could ever be." You have so much heart, I know you will be able to follow through on that.

    As for true family - is your husband's mom as awesome as she sounds from this post? Maybe you can get closer to her, soak up some motherly wisdom & support like you deserve to have and aren't getting elsewhere.

    I honestly don't know if this applies directly to pregnancy, but a lot of research has shown that an overweight person who is physically active can be just as healthy as a "normal" weight person who doesn't move. You shouldn't try to lose weight while you're pregnant, but you can exercise moderately. That way you can make "healthy" gains even if you aren't making "weight loss" gains.

    I do know that aerobic (cardio) exercise stimulates blood vessel production, including in the placenta - so baby gets better circulation. I have a link about the research somewhere, I'll try to find it for you.

  8. Here we go: http://healthland.time.com/2011/04/15/exercise-in-pregnancy-means-healthier-heart-for-baby/

    “If she just does a little bit [of cardio], it will have benefit. If she does more, it will help more. It’s similar to the exercise response of an adult. It’s very cool."

  9. it will be a good thing, beautiful. just keep telling yourself that. my Cupid's having a cherub. <3

    you actually technically only need 300 more calories for the child. it gets what it needs. aweee. <3 hormones are good. and if you get morning sickness any time soon into the pregnancy, remember, it's good as well. because it means the kid's getting healthy.

    all the best. <3
    and your family sucks donkey anus.

    -Sam Lupin

  10. Glad you're happy and healthy. Sorry about the fam. They don't always act as you need them too. Best of luck!!

    xx SN

  11. Congrats!!! How exciting for you and your husband. I'm happy to hear you plan to eat enough and eat healthy during your pregnancy. That's smart. I look forward to following your journey.