Where to start..
Well I can say I am not dealing too well with the pregnancy.. I am sort of in shock - and don't really know how to react. Don't misunderstand me - I am happy... I do want to have a kid with my husband... But everything else been really hard.. First off it wasn't meant to happen now..
It came as a shock cause well we have had sex a total of 3 times since the start of this year.. And we have been using a condom.. How on earth does that make a baby?..
But the baby is a good thing.. It will be a good thing..
I am worried.. I know I shouldn't but I have been reading way too much about being overweight and pregnant.. And it worries me..
I am scared.. I do not want to become like my mum... Which btw was the only barely reacting to the news.. All she said was "oh that's great - I can't talk right now"..
I am frustrated.. I hate my family for being the way they are.. My husbands mum almost flew back from her vacation only cause I called to tell her the news.. She was over the moon.. My youngest sister.. She hasn't even sent me a PM on facebook.. Well you know FUCK THEM!!!! Family isn't what you were born to - family is the ones you decide to be...
Other than that - I am constantly tired.. I have been going to bed around 9 every day since the trip in Chamonix..
I know - this wasn't a part of my plan - but I am not going to let it stop me.. I am going to focus on eating enough and healthy during this pregnancy. I am going to focus on staying active. I was told that I should be able to limit my weight gain eating correctly.. Tracking.. I do not need to more than a "normal budget" until the last 3 months of the pregnancy - and then I only need to add 300 calories. That is what I'm going to do..
Eat enough.. Healthy.. Not overeat..
I am sorry for not being around much.. I am sort of as you might have noticed confused - and tired.. Sometimes very happy - but sort of depressed most of the time.. It might be the hormons or whatever - but I am crying ALOT.. heh..
Thanks for all your comments girls - it really made my heart warm..