2012/03/28

Motivated!

As you might have noticed I have been pretty AWOL the last few weeks. I haven't been feeling all too well - and when I learned that I was pregnant it sort of felt like my dream of getting "normal" and healthy was over.. All I could think about is the fact that I will be fatter and fatter and that was it for me..

Your comments did make me feel better.. But lets be honest, in that state of mind - it was very temporary.. I have been feeling really lost.. Who am I now? - Who will I become?

So I have been depressed.. Crying a whole lot (thanks hormones) .. You get the idea. The other day I remembered the two comment.. One from Tempest - with that amazing article.. The other from Sleepwalker, about the podcasts.. I have read the article, and been listening to the podcasts - and it has been doing wonders for my mental state.

This is a choice.. No body is forcing me to stay pregnant.. As Miranda said - I have been wanting this, and now is it.. So true.. This baby - is a blessing.. I am NOT going to become like my mum - and blame my baby for not being who I want to.. This baby is good.. This baby is the kick I need to get healthy.. To make the talk into a lifestyle.. Eating clean.. Getting enough nutrient.. Being good to my body.. Listening to it..

Then of course I started thinking about food.. What to eat, how much to eat.. The math.. You know what I mean.. And I remembered I have this old food plan from this PT - where it has two versions.. I have talked about the low cal version before in some posts I think - but now is not the time for me to under/overeat. The second part of his meal plan is for around 1800 calories. That is actually only 16 calories down from what my BMR is atm. - and as I mentioned before - the baby doesn't need that many extra calories. Jillian was talking about 300 calories a day. So my plan is to follow that 1800 calorie plan - and add a smoothie in as the snack. And then just feel free to have the extra fruit, veg when ever I feel like it. I am also allowing my self the extra cup of popcorn, or a cup of starbucks if I feel like it. And that together is enough calories for me to get the nutrients I need - and still have the extra calories for the baby - and not become an elephant by end of this pregnancy.  Anywho - I am putting calorie counting on the shelf, and I am going to start measuring everything according the the plan.

I have also been wondering about this blog, and what to do about it. And every single time I get back to the place where I know for a fact that I love it.. I love you guys, and I would hate to lose you guys and your blogs, your every day, your comments. So the blog is going to stay up - and I hope you don't get sick of my whining - and I hope you will still be there even with the baby weight ect.

Wish me luck hehe - I am sure it is needed



<3


12 comments:

  1. I'll still be here, baby weight or not :) It'll be really interesting to read how your weight goes with pregnancy, especially if you only need the extra 300 calories for baby and not eating for two. I've always thought eating for two seemed crazy as a baby isn't big compared to its mum xx

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  2. I will always be here :) even when I'm not commenting/posting I'm reading. Love you!!!!

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  3. you can always get normal and healthy after the baby's born, sweetie! and you know, breastfeeding burns a fucking hell lot of calories!
    baby. i'm glad to hear you say that. <3
    ^__^ that sounds great, beautiful!
    we're here no matter what! plus, i want to get an insight of a real chick's mind when she's pregnant. :D
    -Sam Lupin

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  4. Of course we will still be here even with baby weight and baby and all. We are all following you on your journey...wherever that takes you. Glad you will still blog. 1800 and just focusing on being healthy sounds good. This is a major life change. It's scary, but you can handle it and you will be a good mum.

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  5. OMG YOUR PREGNANT?!?!?!?!!?!! I'm so happy for you! I got a friend who actually lost a lot of weight when she had a baby, were doing a lot of long walks with him :)

    I'm.. good. Trying to eat healthy and work out. I'm maintaining and I'm on my way to stop obsessing about food.

    Youre so sweet :) I really miss you guys so much!

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  6. Also remember low impact exercising is ok. You can talk to your doctor if you have questions and stretching is also great to do. just because you are pregnant does not mean you have to lay down and die. I did everything I did normally just not so intensely. you will be fine and it will be great. soon you will feel it kicking and moving and the excitement to meet it will build to the point you think your heart is going to burst. I cant wait to read your post as this progresses!!! I am really glad you choice to keep your blog!

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  7. I think that you have a solid plan. I never understood the whole "I can eat what I want because I'm pregnant" philosophy. Eating healthy is a great thing to do for yourself and your baby. I've read that babies can have their food preferences shaped in the womb. I know you'll do great even after the baby comes. You want to be a better parent than your mom and I know you will be.

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  8. Of course we will still be here! We love you, baby weight and all :) I think it's so great that you are thinking of the baby as a good think and motivation to e healthy for it and not regretting it :) I'm sure you will be a great mum and you have all our support to be healthy! I'm glad you have come round from the depression and best of luck with the meal plan!
    Lottie x

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  9. Thanks for your support :)

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  10. Luck & love. If you ever need anything (recipes, calorie counting fun, meal plans, someone to listen etc.) I'm always here to help. xxx

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  12. Congratulations, gorgeous. I absolutely adore how positive you are, and how you are making the most of this! I'm sure it will be the cutest baby ever - just think of that when you feel down!
    Thanks for sharing this journey with us. I'm definitely following by email as of right now.
    Lots of love and hugs!
    <3

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