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Ok..
So I figured out there are too many people out there that use MFP - So I made another account again... I am thinking of maybe count everything on Sparkpeople since I already have so much food down there - and just quick add the calories on MFP, and use the charts and badges from MFP. Will see :)

Here is the new username: Sheislosingit82

Re-add me please :) I need all the motivation I can get!

Day 1!

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Whhhhyyy.....

So today, half way through the work day it start snowing.. ALOT.... First I was upset - specially since I wanted to start C25K with Nasimiyu today and I could feel that I was going on my "excuse mode" ..

And then to make things a tad more meh.. Around dinner time, I warmed up the chicken filet I had made yesterday to realize that it tasted horrible... I was testing this new honey curry seasoning and eow.. The chicken tasted so bad :S .. Hubby, eats pretty much anything... So he ate my chicken filet and I had some of his pasta.. And paste = wheat = I felt every more horrible..

So I was slacking on the sofa - surfing online, reading blogs.. And then I saw this post on K's blog  and here she says: " I read something that said if you really want it, you'll do whatever it takes to get it it... and if you don't, you'll make excuses." ..

So I got my butt out of the couch - and went on and did around 35 mins of WiiFit.. Burned 316 cals - and I don't really think it is that bad.. And then I sat down and tracked my eats on myfitnesspal.. I got me a nice surprise.. Todays net is 318 cals.. And you know what? - I don't hate it ^^

My weight keep going up and down - and I think if I am ever going to keep going down, instead of up - I really need to stick to whatever I am doing...

So baby steps - and keep going at it without changing the plan all the time is the way to go.. And I really think that is the thing that will work the best at the end..

So the plan is :
Eat veggies - fruit and lean protein
Exercise for atleast 30 mins - 5 days a week.



<3

Sometimes I wish I could turn my brain off...

Don't you wish you could turn off your brain sometimes? I know for sure that I do..

Sometimes I wonder if I am one of those people who lives in a fantasy world.. I am so perfect in my head.. I am skinny - I have a great career - I have the best collection of shoes, and purses, and cloths - I am the best wife and mother - I juggle everything, and I do it perfectly!

But then I open my eyes.. I am fat - I am out of shape - I have an OK job - I have a bunch of shoes that I can barely walk in cause I am too fat - I only own cloths that fit me, not cloths I wish I want to wear - I love my husband more than anything on this earth, but I can not be the best wife and make him the happiest I can, before I am happy in my own skin - and a mother.. Well.. I am ready.. I want to have a baby.. But I am dead scared of getting pregnant cause of my weight - I wouldn't hasitate if I was 100 lbs lighter - If I was in shape..

Sometimes I stop up and look in the mirror and just think to my self "what have you done to your self" ... The thing that makes me even more depressed is that I know what to do to fix this shit.. I know it way too well.. I have been obsessed with food and diets ALL of my adult life.. I know every fucking detail about every fucking diet that is out there..

And I am just so sick of my self.. I am THE queen of talks.. I am the queen of planning and never doing it.. You guys know it.. You guys have seen me do it over and over again.. You do not gain 35 lbs over a year not being the queen of excuses - cheats - talks..

This year - I will make a change.. This moment I will make this change.. Ladies, I know you have heard this before but I truely am done disappointing my self..

I'm going to stop the wall of text cause I am actually going to move my butt and get some exercise for a change..

<3

OMFG!!!

GAH!!!

Sometimes I HATE forums.. I noticed this post on MFP .. And I am so pissed lol ..
I HATE ignorant ppl like that.. Stupid moronic ppl!


Oh and ya. the "kittz30" comments are from me.. lol..

Stupid ppl..