Gosh, time flies by and I know I have been a horrid blogger...
I just haven't been able to get my self to write cause I have been so disappointed in my self. I have been going back and forth between eating "normal" and LCHF, and those combos just don't work. I have gained around 6lbs and I am not going to let it get out of hand again.
This weekend we had my bff and her family here.. It has been an emotional ride because of her daughter. She is the one with brain cancer and it has just been horrible to see the little angel become a shadow of her former self. Meal times were just a war, cause she is barely able to eat. She got a tube put in through her nose, and they are waiting for the operation to put a button through her belly so she doesn't have to go around with the tube in her nose. I could go on and on about how it was but yeah..
Anywho.. So we took the time to go out, just the two of us and we talked about, well everything. One being my frustration over not being able to decide what to do. You know like which diet to follow ect.. As you know I am one of those diet hoppers.. I keep getting on a off this and that wagon and it needs to stop..
A few years ago, my friend lost around 30kg, which is around 66lbs following a low calorie diet and add 3 days of workout to it. And she was like, you have to remember no matter what you do, it is calories in, calories out. And I think each one of you can agree to that. It doesn't matter how low carb you go, you can even go vegan.. But if you keep binge eating, you will not lose weight.
That is me you know.. Always the binge eater..
That said, I am going to start restricting my calories.. I am going to ignore macros and just focus on the calories. My goal will be 1200 - 1500 calories a day. No food is off limit.. There will be no "cheat days". Just plain counting the calories. I am just so tired of being confused over what I should be doing, so I think this is the best way to go.
I hope everyone is doing fine, and I promise to catch up on blogs asap.
<3
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2015/04/29
2014/05/21
Changing up the diet..
I'm still coughing like I am going to die.. I actually think I might have bruised couple of my ribs cause it really hurts when I even brush my hand over that area.. Hubby did a Google search and apparently it can happen :s If it still hurts the way it was yesterday I think I should see a doc just to make sure nothing is off.. Anyways..
I haven't as I mentioned on my post doing LCHF since I got sick, and the more I think about it, I don't think I want to go back to the strict LCHF. I miss having fruits and more varied selection of veg. I will still do low carb, avoid sugar, wheat, and refined carbs, as much as possible, letting most of my carbs come from fruit and veg.
Hopping on and off LCHF has also thought me to chose clean products, instead of all the low fat stuff I used to buy. I look at what they contain and try to choose products with the shortest list possible. I also eat 90% of my food from small plates now. It is starting to make sense now.. I have always heard and our mind looks at food and how much it is on a plate, using smaller plate makes it look more and even though you eat the same amount of food, having it on a small plate makes it look like you are eating so much more.. Who knew it works??
Remember back in September last year with I had the talk to the nutritionist and she told me I need to start eating more in the mornings? I think I am going to give that a try.. For real.. Letting breakfast being my largest meal hasn't been something I have really ever tried. Not unless it has been hungover pizza the day after a night out, and even that hasn't happen in AGES.
I dropped the idea as soon as she spoke of it back then, but I guess if the plate thing is working, why shouldn't I give the breakfast thing a go??
Anywho.. Lets see how this round goes.. It can't get any worst that it has now has it?? (Oh dear God, please don't let me jinx this too!) ..
I haven't as I mentioned on my post doing LCHF since I got sick, and the more I think about it, I don't think I want to go back to the strict LCHF. I miss having fruits and more varied selection of veg. I will still do low carb, avoid sugar, wheat, and refined carbs, as much as possible, letting most of my carbs come from fruit and veg.
Hopping on and off LCHF has also thought me to chose clean products, instead of all the low fat stuff I used to buy. I look at what they contain and try to choose products with the shortest list possible. I also eat 90% of my food from small plates now. It is starting to make sense now.. I have always heard and our mind looks at food and how much it is on a plate, using smaller plate makes it look more and even though you eat the same amount of food, having it on a small plate makes it look like you are eating so much more.. Who knew it works??
Remember back in September last year with I had the talk to the nutritionist and she told me I need to start eating more in the mornings? I think I am going to give that a try.. For real.. Letting breakfast being my largest meal hasn't been something I have really ever tried. Not unless it has been hungover pizza the day after a night out, and even that hasn't happen in AGES.
I dropped the idea as soon as she spoke of it back then, but I guess if the plate thing is working, why shouldn't I give the breakfast thing a go??
Anywho.. Lets see how this round goes.. It can't get any worst that it has now has it?? (Oh dear God, please don't let me jinx this too!) ..
2014/01/19
Update!
Things have been very hectic.. As I mentioned my son started kindergarten almost two weeks ago.. It's been going well. He likes it there and plays well with the other kids.. He has however developed a HUGE case of separation anxiety.. It's worst with me.. When we are together he doesn't want me to put him down, or go away from me.. It was so bad that he would start screaming as soon as I went through a door.. Any door..
We think he is smart enough to understand that going through doors means we are going away from the place he is at, but he is still so young (he turns 14 months next week) that he doesn't understand that we will be back shortly..
Since this weekend was my last weekend at home before I go back to work I kept him with me this Friday, and we have been on top of each other the whole weekend, and his anxiety seems to be much better. It breaks my heart to see my baby in in so much stress and so upset.. And I wish I could stayed home with him for few more months.. It's insane how fast time goes by.. Here is a picture of him from a few weeks ago.. He is getting big, isn't he? :)
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As you also might remember I have been talking about getting my drivings license.. I have my theory test this Tuesday, and the practical drivers test this Wednesday.. I am not worried about the practical test, but I am a tad worried about the theory part.. I am going to be studying when ever I can until then. So hopefully by end of this Wednesday I have my license! Keep them crossed for me ladies.. I know I need it lol ^^
As far as weight and diet goes, I haven't really been doing anything special.. I have lost around 4lbs.. I am going to get back on the LCHF diet after my practical test is done. I don't want to risk to have the "keto flu" while I have so much to think about. And my plan is (as I have probably mentioned before) to keep at it until end of March, and then take it from there. I am also hoping to be able to get to the gym in the evenings (after my son goes to bed) when I finally get my license. The weather here has been pretty insane, and with my fibromyalgi I can't really be out and about in this wind. So yeah, I really really hope to get my license this Wednesday..
And to top everything I am going back to work tomorrow.. I really am not looking forward to it.. I made this deal with my team leader, which lets me work 62.5% (aka 8am - 1pm, working through lunch). So now I can pick my son up a tad earlier from kindergarten. So my days will be get up around 6.. Out of the house around 7.. Work 8 to 1.. Pick up my son around 2... When we get home, it's snack time, bath/play time.. Dinner time.. My hubby will get home sometime after 5pm and then it's bedtime for the kid.. lol I get tired just typing it...
Anywho.. This is it for me for now... Hope you ladies are having a great weekend..
<3
2014/01/07
So... I am so unstable it's not even funny anymore..
I was sobbing for so long last night that half of my pillow was too wet to sleep on...
There are so many changes happening now a days, like my son starting kindergarten and I am just not ready for it.
My weight is sky high..
The weather here is being just horrible.. The wind is so strong and the pain of it is killing me..
I am having a pregnancy scare.. I shouldn't be pregnant.. But I am 3 days late.. It could be all the stress..
I feel like I am a ticking bomb, unstable and just ready to blow up.. Ugh.. I hate this.. One minute I am laughing over your "sperm water" comments, the other I am sobbing cause of some random thing..
Anywho.. Another day tomorrow.. Another day to try to get it all work..
I am going to try Nasimiyu's plan .. Her plan is :
- Green smoothie for breakfast
- Sandwich for lunch
- Green smoothie for snack (I will probably replace this with fruit/veg or even a quest/protein bar)
- Low carb dinner of some sort
I'm gonna get to bed really early today.. It's been a hard, emotional, and way too long day....
I was sobbing for so long last night that half of my pillow was too wet to sleep on...
There are so many changes happening now a days, like my son starting kindergarten and I am just not ready for it.
My weight is sky high..
The weather here is being just horrible.. The wind is so strong and the pain of it is killing me..
I am having a pregnancy scare.. I shouldn't be pregnant.. But I am 3 days late.. It could be all the stress..
I feel like I am a ticking bomb, unstable and just ready to blow up.. Ugh.. I hate this.. One minute I am laughing over your "sperm water" comments, the other I am sobbing cause of some random thing..
Anywho.. Another day tomorrow.. Another day to try to get it all work..
I am going to try Nasimiyu's plan .. Her plan is :
- Green smoothie for breakfast
- Sandwich for lunch
- Green smoothie for snack (I will probably replace this with fruit/veg or even a quest/protein bar)
- Low carb dinner of some sort
I'm gonna get to bed really early today.. It's been a hard, emotional, and way too long day....
2013/08/17
This whole avoiding to eat during the day is going well, I am down 7 lbs already!
Today I was really proud of my self, we were at the shopping mall, and I went to get a Cappucchino at my fav coffee shop.. I had been at the food court earlier to feed my son and all the smells.. Everything I was STARVING! Then while I was waiting in line to order my coffee I was infront of their huge collection of cakes, cookies, pancakes ect and I really wanted something.. However I closed my mind and thought of the number I saw only a couple of days ago.. I got my coffee and I was off! These sort of things don't normally happen with me cause I don't practice self control.
I have however noticed that both yesterday and today I have eaten WAY too much for dinner.. I am overly stuffed eventhough it has been within my calorie budget (my goal is to stay under 1000 calories).. So it is not hard to see that I need to take this to the next step.. Being from middle east my main problem is rice.. I LOVE it.. I can have it with almost everything.. But a cup of rice being 200 cals, and for me one portion of it being 1,5-2 cups means I eat too much of it..
So I have now decided to limit my rice and have it twice a week.. It would be stupid of me to plan to not have it at all cause I know I would crave it too much, and it could end up in a binge.. So twice a week.. I can do that!
I also want to use this post to thank you all for your support. Things get hard, but each of you inspire me in your own way and that makes things somehow easier.
Josie, I don't really have any medical issues ex. from my fibromyalgia.. I do however tend to get acidic stomach pains (after years and years of being wrongly medicated for my fibromyalgia my stomach is pretty fucked... I guess the b/p sessions haven't helped it either).. I don't take any meds but some painkiller when the pain is too much for me to deal with (right now I take a mix of paracetamol, and ibuprofen), and I use chewing pills for the stomach acid when it's needed... I don't really have the option of seeking a nutritionist right now, and I don't really have a proper doctor after I moved to Sweden.. I guess I should make sure to register so I have someone to talk to..
How long would you say it is "safe" for me to stay under 1000 cals without totaly fucking up my metabolism? I was thinking about maybe keep at it until I reach my second GW, which is 198lbs - and then up the cals and add some proper exercise. Right now exercising is not an option, well unless you count walking as exercise.. I do walk for 1-2 hours a days most days, and I do run/carry/play with my son a whole bunch... I just don't want to count them as exercise so I don't use it as an excuses to eat more.. What do you think about this idea?
Today I was really proud of my self, we were at the shopping mall, and I went to get a Cappucchino at my fav coffee shop.. I had been at the food court earlier to feed my son and all the smells.. Everything I was STARVING! Then while I was waiting in line to order my coffee I was infront of their huge collection of cakes, cookies, pancakes ect and I really wanted something.. However I closed my mind and thought of the number I saw only a couple of days ago.. I got my coffee and I was off! These sort of things don't normally happen with me cause I don't practice self control.
I have however noticed that both yesterday and today I have eaten WAY too much for dinner.. I am overly stuffed eventhough it has been within my calorie budget (my goal is to stay under 1000 calories).. So it is not hard to see that I need to take this to the next step.. Being from middle east my main problem is rice.. I LOVE it.. I can have it with almost everything.. But a cup of rice being 200 cals, and for me one portion of it being 1,5-2 cups means I eat too much of it..
So I have now decided to limit my rice and have it twice a week.. It would be stupid of me to plan to not have it at all cause I know I would crave it too much, and it could end up in a binge.. So twice a week.. I can do that!
I also want to use this post to thank you all for your support. Things get hard, but each of you inspire me in your own way and that makes things somehow easier.
Josie, I don't really have any medical issues ex. from my fibromyalgia.. I do however tend to get acidic stomach pains (after years and years of being wrongly medicated for my fibromyalgia my stomach is pretty fucked... I guess the b/p sessions haven't helped it either).. I don't take any meds but some painkiller when the pain is too much for me to deal with (right now I take a mix of paracetamol, and ibuprofen), and I use chewing pills for the stomach acid when it's needed... I don't really have the option of seeking a nutritionist right now, and I don't really have a proper doctor after I moved to Sweden.. I guess I should make sure to register so I have someone to talk to..
How long would you say it is "safe" for me to stay under 1000 cals without totaly fucking up my metabolism? I was thinking about maybe keep at it until I reach my second GW, which is 198lbs - and then up the cals and add some proper exercise. Right now exercising is not an option, well unless you count walking as exercise.. I do walk for 1-2 hours a days most days, and I do run/carry/play with my son a whole bunch... I just don't want to count them as exercise so I don't use it as an excuses to eat more.. What do you think about this idea?
2013/07/29
The plan!
OK, I know I said I wouldn't be posting the plan until later on, but I have it pretty much figured out - soooo I thought why not.
As I said I am planning on following Rusty Moore's the author of the fitnessblackbook.com
I have decided to just F the micro's and go for the main number which is calories - and the amount of calories I am planning to eat is 1440 calories a day. The idea is to do this: Goal Weight in Pounds x (hours working out per week + 9.5) = Calories. I have decided to put up 120lbs as my ugw and that is the number I am using to figure out the calories. I am thinking to aim to work out 2.5 hours a week.. So, 120 x (2.5+9.5) = 1440 calories, a day. (10080 a week).
I am also going to aim for a weekly count (just like seekingsomethingelse does) - instead of daily.. We all have days where we eat out, or when there is something which we can't control like birthdays ect, and with a weekly budget I think I can have a day where I can eat a tad more instead of feeling all sick and guilty cause I "ate too much"... Does it make sense?
As far as the exercise goes, I think 2,5 hours is something I can achieve, I can either divide it and do 30 mins a day, or I can do 2-3 longer sessions. I am not going to aim to work out so and so many hours a day, cause lets face it - with a kid, I never know if I have the time or the energy to devote my self to anything more.
We have decided that hubby is going to stay home on Wednesdays and use a "daddy day" after his vacation is over, so if nothing more I knowI will be able to hit the gym on Wednesdays and one day during the weekend. I am also going to focus on cardio and resistance training.
I think I will be keeping the calories to the same amount since it is what I would need to eat to maintain the weight I want to reach, but I will be changing the work-outs as I get stronger.
And at last and not least, I think I am going to put my scale away and only weigh-in every two weeks. Do a body scan once a month - and also take my measurements every two months. I feel like I am becoming more and more depressed every time I step on the scale - it's dictating my mood. I still want to have control over the numbers, so I think sticking to spesific weigh-in, measurement days will do that.
Now that this is out of the way, I thought I would mention something even more personal. Tomorrow is our 2nd wedding anniversary.. Can you believe how fast time has gone by???
Here are a few pictures from our day ( I will have to remove them later as a promise to hubby as always, but yeah)
Last Tuesday was also a special day for us. My son turned 8 months... I still have a hard time believing how fast he is growing. Last week I gave him a haircut cause his hair was so long it kept getting in his eyes, annoying him. He looks so much older after his cut (that's what I think, but no one agrees with me hehe).. Anyways, here is a picture from my little sunshine.. (Everyone says he looks like me eventhough he has his daddy's eye and hair color, what do you guys think?)
Anyways, I guess it's time to round up this post. I hope you all have a great week ahead.
<3
As I said I am planning on following Rusty Moore's the author of the fitnessblackbook.com
I have decided to just F the micro's and go for the main number which is calories - and the amount of calories I am planning to eat is 1440 calories a day. The idea is to do this: Goal Weight in Pounds x (hours working out per week + 9.5) = Calories. I have decided to put up 120lbs as my ugw and that is the number I am using to figure out the calories. I am thinking to aim to work out 2.5 hours a week.. So, 120 x (2.5+9.5) = 1440 calories, a day. (10080 a week).
I am also going to aim for a weekly count (just like seekingsomethingelse does) - instead of daily.. We all have days where we eat out, or when there is something which we can't control like birthdays ect, and with a weekly budget I think I can have a day where I can eat a tad more instead of feeling all sick and guilty cause I "ate too much"... Does it make sense?
As far as the exercise goes, I think 2,5 hours is something I can achieve, I can either divide it and do 30 mins a day, or I can do 2-3 longer sessions. I am not going to aim to work out so and so many hours a day, cause lets face it - with a kid, I never know if I have the time or the energy to devote my self to anything more.
We have decided that hubby is going to stay home on Wednesdays and use a "daddy day" after his vacation is over, so if nothing more I knowI will be able to hit the gym on Wednesdays and one day during the weekend. I am also going to focus on cardio and resistance training.
I think I will be keeping the calories to the same amount since it is what I would need to eat to maintain the weight I want to reach, but I will be changing the work-outs as I get stronger.
And at last and not least, I think I am going to put my scale away and only weigh-in every two weeks. Do a body scan once a month - and also take my measurements every two months. I feel like I am becoming more and more depressed every time I step on the scale - it's dictating my mood. I still want to have control over the numbers, so I think sticking to spesific weigh-in, measurement days will do that.
Now that this is out of the way, I thought I would mention something even more personal. Tomorrow is our 2nd wedding anniversary.. Can you believe how fast time has gone by???
Here are a few pictures from our day ( I will have to remove them later as a promise to hubby as always, but yeah)
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Last Tuesday was also a special day for us. My son turned 8 months... I still have a hard time believing how fast he is growing. Last week I gave him a haircut cause his hair was so long it kept getting in his eyes, annoying him. He looks so much older after his cut (that's what I think, but no one agrees with me hehe).. Anyways, here is a picture from my little sunshine.. (Everyone says he looks like me eventhough he has his daddy's eye and hair color, what do you guys think?)
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Anyways, I guess it's time to round up this post. I hope you all have a great week ahead.
<3
2013/07/26
I'm so f---ing stupid!!!!
I was reading Seeking something else's post and it was so clear... I have been so stupid.. So I mean.. I got visual impact for woman by Rusty Moore, not long after I started my blog.. To be more exact in March 2011... It means I have had it for over 2 years.. During these two years.. My weight has gone up and up and up... I have reached the most horrible sickening number.. And yes.. It is about the numbers.. None of us can say it is not...
My weight today is 251lbs, or 114kg if you rather have it in kg..
This is the first time I actually admit it to someone.. I mean yeah.. The number is up there in my "weight" tab.. But no one really gets updated on those tabs... So this is it.. Me admitting how bad it has gotten is step one..
I also know why I keep stuffing my face.. I know I have a problem with the way I deal with food.. For me emotions are directly connected to food... I don't know if I have mentioned it before, but I eat when I'm happy.. I eat when I'm sad.. I eat when there is something to do.. I eat when I don't have anything to do... I eat when I don't want to eat... I eat, and eat.. and then I eat some more..
It doesn't matter how many books I read.. I many plans I make... Until I don't learn to deal with my emotions, instead of eating them, I wont be able to get rid of this weight...
Now... I am not giving up... I never give up...
I got raped when I was 10... I survived that.. I didn't give up on my life... It has been a bumpy road, yes.. But look at me now.. I have a wonderful husband and the most amazing little boy..
When my mother didn't love me.. While she still puts me down, manipulates me.. Whatever... I moved on and I survived... I have my own family now..
When my ex dumped me two weeks before I was moving to Netherlands for him, I didn't give up... I had no job, no place to live.. Nothing... But I made it...
When my step-dad was abusing me, I put on the weight to protect my self.. I always thought it would make him go away.. And it didn't... So why do I keep the weight?? ... I mean.. I don't need it anymore do I?
After everything I have been through, I can not let this one win over me.. I am much stronger than that.. But you know what?? - I'm too fucking comfortable to change... I have someone who loves me.. I have a job.. I have a home.. Why would I change???.. I never change or do something unless I have to.. I never do something for me cause it is the best for me.. I deal with things when I have to, or I deal with things when I need to do something for someone else.. My friends, my husband.. Now my son.. I do everything for them.. But I don't do it for my self..
I guess, I never learned to love my self, and do things for my self growing up... I have to learn to do things for me... I keep saying I will (remember how much I talked about it when I was pregnant??) - but the reality of it is that I'm all talk...
OK.. Let me round up this wall of text and get down to it...
My "loving mother" and my "lovely sister" are coming to stay with us (lets not get into how she mindfucked to get this to happen...... but yeah)... for a whole week... They are coming on Wednesday, and will be leaving on Tuesday the week after! So I have 5 days before they come and I need to get a kick start..
So I am going to stick to protein shakes, eggwhite omlettes, veggies, fruit and my go to WW soup...
While they are here, we will be eating out a whole lot and my plan is to stick to salads as much as possible. eat light and drink a whole lot.. And when they leave, my plan is to actually do it.. Properly... Follow Rusty's plan.. Do the cardio, do the work-outs, and do the diet... How.. I will get back to.. I am going to think it through and plan something that is OK for where I am so I don't crash and give up..
I am also going to get on the scale tomorrow morning, On Thursday morning, and then again on Wednesday after my "family" has left. I will post my fightplan (yeah fight plan I have to fight my self to actually do this), either Tuesday night or Wednesday morning.
In addition to my eating goals I also want to take more care of my self, put on some make-up, even if it's just a touch of mascara... Do something to my hair instead of just have it in a messy bun, cause I don't have time to do anything else.. And just do one small thing for my self..
I wanna round up this post by thanking each and everyone of you guys for reading my rant, and being there.. I really don't know what I would do if I didn't have this blog.. So thanks <3
Have a great weekend ladies, and wish me luck!
My weight today is 251lbs, or 114kg if you rather have it in kg..
This is the first time I actually admit it to someone.. I mean yeah.. The number is up there in my "weight" tab.. But no one really gets updated on those tabs... So this is it.. Me admitting how bad it has gotten is step one..
I also know why I keep stuffing my face.. I know I have a problem with the way I deal with food.. For me emotions are directly connected to food... I don't know if I have mentioned it before, but I eat when I'm happy.. I eat when I'm sad.. I eat when there is something to do.. I eat when I don't have anything to do... I eat when I don't want to eat... I eat, and eat.. and then I eat some more..
It doesn't matter how many books I read.. I many plans I make... Until I don't learn to deal with my emotions, instead of eating them, I wont be able to get rid of this weight...
Now... I am not giving up... I never give up...
I got raped when I was 10... I survived that.. I didn't give up on my life... It has been a bumpy road, yes.. But look at me now.. I have a wonderful husband and the most amazing little boy..
When my mother didn't love me.. While she still puts me down, manipulates me.. Whatever... I moved on and I survived... I have my own family now..
When my ex dumped me two weeks before I was moving to Netherlands for him, I didn't give up... I had no job, no place to live.. Nothing... But I made it...
When my step-dad was abusing me, I put on the weight to protect my self.. I always thought it would make him go away.. And it didn't... So why do I keep the weight?? ... I mean.. I don't need it anymore do I?
After everything I have been through, I can not let this one win over me.. I am much stronger than that.. But you know what?? - I'm too fucking comfortable to change... I have someone who loves me.. I have a job.. I have a home.. Why would I change???.. I never change or do something unless I have to.. I never do something for me cause it is the best for me.. I deal with things when I have to, or I deal with things when I need to do something for someone else.. My friends, my husband.. Now my son.. I do everything for them.. But I don't do it for my self..
I guess, I never learned to love my self, and do things for my self growing up... I have to learn to do things for me... I keep saying I will (remember how much I talked about it when I was pregnant??) - but the reality of it is that I'm all talk...
OK.. Let me round up this wall of text and get down to it...
My "loving mother" and my "lovely sister" are coming to stay with us (lets not get into how she mindfucked to get this to happen...... but yeah)... for a whole week... They are coming on Wednesday, and will be leaving on Tuesday the week after! So I have 5 days before they come and I need to get a kick start..
So I am going to stick to protein shakes, eggwhite omlettes, veggies, fruit and my go to WW soup...
While they are here, we will be eating out a whole lot and my plan is to stick to salads as much as possible. eat light and drink a whole lot.. And when they leave, my plan is to actually do it.. Properly... Follow Rusty's plan.. Do the cardio, do the work-outs, and do the diet... How.. I will get back to.. I am going to think it through and plan something that is OK for where I am so I don't crash and give up..
I am also going to get on the scale tomorrow morning, On Thursday morning, and then again on Wednesday after my "family" has left. I will post my fightplan (yeah fight plan I have to fight my self to actually do this), either Tuesday night or Wednesday morning.
In addition to my eating goals I also want to take more care of my self, put on some make-up, even if it's just a touch of mascara... Do something to my hair instead of just have it in a messy bun, cause I don't have time to do anything else.. And just do one small thing for my self..
I wanna round up this post by thanking each and everyone of you guys for reading my rant, and being there.. I really don't know what I would do if I didn't have this blog.. So thanks <3
Have a great weekend ladies, and wish me luck!
2013/07/22
I had a great start to my week last week... I lost a bunch of weight, but then it went all to hell... And there is nothing to blame it on ex. from my lack of willpower..
I've decided to to make some changes... I mean.. My son turns 8 months tomorrow and I am fatter than ever.. My joints are aching, and the new thing is my knees.. I think my weight is finally getting to them too... *sigh*
The last few days I have actually been thinking about applying for a gastric bypass or whatever it's called.. The point of the matter is, that it wouldn't help.. I would probably be one of those people who get it, keep binging and gain all the weight back..
I'm going to do something about it.. I am not going to be one of those people.. I don't care how anymore.. I am just going to do it..
I have been taking chromium pills since last Monday and it has done wonders for my appetite and sugar cravings but the fatty that I am I have forced fed my self that last few days.. I have been so uncomfortable ... So full... But still... I just couldn't stop my self... Then I broke down and starting crying to hubby saying I will never lose the weight...
To make it short.. I am yet again fed up....
Anyways, my goals for the rest of this year are:
I am unsure about a whole lot of things, but there is one thing I am sure of.. and that is that I will not give up until I have reached my goal.. One way or another... I will get there...
I've decided to to make some changes... I mean.. My son turns 8 months tomorrow and I am fatter than ever.. My joints are aching, and the new thing is my knees.. I think my weight is finally getting to them too... *sigh*
The last few days I have actually been thinking about applying for a gastric bypass or whatever it's called.. The point of the matter is, that it wouldn't help.. I would probably be one of those people who get it, keep binging and gain all the weight back..
I'm going to do something about it.. I am not going to be one of those people.. I don't care how anymore.. I am just going to do it..
I have been taking chromium pills since last Monday and it has done wonders for my appetite and sugar cravings but the fatty that I am I have forced fed my self that last few days.. I have been so uncomfortable ... So full... But still... I just couldn't stop my self... Then I broke down and starting crying to hubby saying I will never lose the weight...
To make it short.. I am yet again fed up....
Anyways, my goals for the rest of this year are:
- Hit the gym 5 times a week
- No more "dinner"
- No eating after 8PM.
I am unsure about a whole lot of things, but there is one thing I am sure of.. and that is that I will not give up until I have reached my goal.. One way or another... I will get there...
2013/06/10
Back!
We had a nice trip - the weather Gods wear kind to us and we only had half a day with not so nice weather. I got on the scale and I'm up 3 lbs.. And you know what... I take it... I haven't been feeling good (had no BM), and I think I have either had a really bad allergic reaction to something or I am getting a cold cause my throat has been sore and a tad swollen since Friday..
But today is a new day.. I am going to drink LOADS of water and tea to just get my body moving and get rid of what ever I can get rid of..
Today I am also joining forces with Miranda and going on a Protein and veggie diet.. She is going to do the 30 day shred - but with the weather finally being OK I want to get some running in.. So I think I will do a mix of the Shred, running, hitting the gym, and wiifit on the days I don't really have energy to do something more. We (the baby and I) are also going to take an advantage of the nice weather and go on long strolls.
So I am going to remember that I eat to live not live to eat...
And to keep my body moving...
And stop being an utter idiot...
Now lets have a great new start to this week and stick to it!
<3
2013/04/23
Nice pattern!
I'm starting to get back in control. I must say I like it.. I am far from where I want to be, but I feel stronger and closer each day. I find keeping my goals small are helping. I aim for no more than 30 mins of activity a day and I catch my self doing more which is just a yaay factor :) - I am starting to feel better all over - my mood is better (not good but better) and I don't get the extreme depression modes which is something that I really appriciate. So all in all, things are good :)
Another fun note is that we bought a new car! This is the first time we buy a new, new car and not a used one hehe.. We needed a larger one since we don't really have room for anything but the stroller in the back, and the current car sit the baby has barely fits in.. Soon we have to change his car seat to a larger one and there just was no room for it.. We got a really good deal for our current car and there was this seasonal sale that gave an additonal 4000 USD off the price.. To seal the deal they tossed in winter wheels - so we are very happy :)
The choices were between two, one being larger and the one we picked. Hubby was drooling over the one we picked, and we always go for the more sensible options instead of thinking about the fun factors so this is a first for us as a couple.. We ended up with a Toyota Avensis combi.. I can see on the toyota site that this model is not sold in the US - so here is a pic!
I don't know how it is in other places but in the nordic you can get a license driving manual (It is called stick shift, isn't it) , which means you can drive cars with both manual and automatic transmission or you can get a lincense that only allows you to drive automatic transmission - and I think I am just going to get the last one. I mean, I don't think I will ever have to drive a stick and if we someday need to use a car with a stick shift then hubby can drive.. I just don't see the point of stressing with the clutching and ect when I have the option of skipping it!
Over to something else, the baby is 5 months old today.. I can not believe that he is so big already.. I feel lucky that I can stay home with him and see how much he is changing every day.. Lately he has been turning and twisting a whole lot and today I left him playing in his baby-gym for barely 20 seconds and came back to found him like this:
First I thought about turning him back to the right position but then I decided not to since he was having so much fun! He is such a happy baby, and I really feel blessed to be his mom.. I know the pregnancy was hard and that I have been had a rough time after he was born, but I truely feel that he is worth it all.. Just a tiny little smile and my heart just melt hehe - But then again, who can resist this little cutie? :D
Anyways :) That's it for now.. I hope next time I post I have some good progress numbers to report!
Another fun note is that we bought a new car! This is the first time we buy a new, new car and not a used one hehe.. We needed a larger one since we don't really have room for anything but the stroller in the back, and the current car sit the baby has barely fits in.. Soon we have to change his car seat to a larger one and there just was no room for it.. We got a really good deal for our current car and there was this seasonal sale that gave an additonal 4000 USD off the price.. To seal the deal they tossed in winter wheels - so we are very happy :)
The choices were between two, one being larger and the one we picked. Hubby was drooling over the one we picked, and we always go for the more sensible options instead of thinking about the fun factors so this is a first for us as a couple.. We ended up with a Toyota Avensis combi.. I can see on the toyota site that this model is not sold in the US - so here is a pic!
The pictures are from a dealers site since ours isn't ready yet.. They said it would take 2-3 weeks to get it, it's been a week since we bought the car so hopefully it will be ready soon :D - Ours is going to be black metalic with black interios (Pretty standard for this model but I thought it looked amazing)! - The other good thing about this car is that it has automatic transmission which will be much kinder for my wrists..
I don't know how it is in other places but in the nordic you can get a license driving manual (It is called stick shift, isn't it) , which means you can drive cars with both manual and automatic transmission or you can get a lincense that only allows you to drive automatic transmission - and I think I am just going to get the last one. I mean, I don't think I will ever have to drive a stick and if we someday need to use a car with a stick shift then hubby can drive.. I just don't see the point of stressing with the clutching and ect when I have the option of skipping it!
Over to something else, the baby is 5 months old today.. I can not believe that he is so big already.. I feel lucky that I can stay home with him and see how much he is changing every day.. Lately he has been turning and twisting a whole lot and today I left him playing in his baby-gym for barely 20 seconds and came back to found him like this:
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First I thought about turning him back to the right position but then I decided not to since he was having so much fun! He is such a happy baby, and I really feel blessed to be his mom.. I know the pregnancy was hard and that I have been had a rough time after he was born, but I truely feel that he is worth it all.. Just a tiny little smile and my heart just melt hehe - But then again, who can resist this little cutie? :D
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Anyways :) That's it for now.. I hope next time I post I have some good progress numbers to report!
2013/02/15
Money and some gain...
Of course I have gained after our pizza date last night... It really makes me think that how much it's not worth it! Having the pizza that is.. I feel tired and very bloated and I was insanely thirsty all night...
Then I saw on Undressed Skeleton's Facebook page that they had a really healthy food for their date night.. I really need to learn that date nights - or having friends over - dinner parties ect does not have to equal fatty yucky food that makes you feel horrid the day after.. These food hangovers are just not worth it... Next time we want pizza, I am going to make it at home, and try to have either wholemeal or cauliflower crust for mine.. Cause this is a feeling I rather not have again.
Today I am going to have loads of water - some green tea, and then shakes.. For dinner I am going to have vegetable soup or the veggie omelette I made the other day.
Anyways.. New start today.. And lesson learned!
Did you guys have fun? :) My hubby surprised me by getting me this wallet I wanted from desigual - I am so bad on spending money on things for my self when they cost a tad more than what I think they should cost.. So I was really glad that he got it for me :) - I rarely use a purse now that I have the pram and the changing bag to tag along.. And this one fits perfectly in the holder thingi I have hanging on the pram :)
Yesterday I got some good news :)
I don't know if anyone remembers - but the last time I met my grandmother (My fathers mother) - she told me she had bought an apartment for me in Iran.. And to be honest I am not going to ever live in Iran. When my son was born I asked her to sell it and send me the money. The place is sold and I got 2/3 of the money they sold it for in my account yesterday - and I will receive the rest next month! My income has gone down to like under half of what I normally get since I am on my leave and the money was really good news for me! I am going to use most of it to pay off most of this loan I have back in Norway (after one of my disaster relationships) which means I will be able to pay off the whole thing by end of this year - which again means I will have around 300 dollars to use on whatever each month!
Annnnnd I am going to spend some of it to get my license! I wanted to do it before I got pregnant - but as you know the pregnancy wasn't exactly planned and with all the illness and the foggy brain I was in no shape to do it last year.. I am going to start driving a tad with hubby after he comes back from his work trip in March and then enroll on this intensive class and hopefully I will have it before summer time! Being able to drive will mean so much more freedom for me - it will be great to be able to let hubby in charge of the kid when he is home and just get to the gym - or go for a coffee or just a drive to get away.
Talking about the gym. I have decided to put off getting a membership until after I get my license too. The weather should be clearing up in a couple of weeks and I really want to start running outside. I have found this gym that does have child care, but they wont take in kids that are younger than 6 months old... And the kid is 3 next month.. So it means I would have to go after hubby gets home - and all in all it would be more of a hassle than a joy right now. I don't want to pay a bunch of cash (beside what my work pays) for a membership that would barely get used in 2-3 months.. So I think it's better to wait.
Anyways :) I am going to be off for now - hope you all have a wonderful day!
<3
Then I saw on Undressed Skeleton's Facebook page that they had a really healthy food for their date night.. I really need to learn that date nights - or having friends over - dinner parties ect does not have to equal fatty yucky food that makes you feel horrid the day after.. These food hangovers are just not worth it... Next time we want pizza, I am going to make it at home, and try to have either wholemeal or cauliflower crust for mine.. Cause this is a feeling I rather not have again.
Today I am going to have loads of water - some green tea, and then shakes.. For dinner I am going to have vegetable soup or the veggie omelette I made the other day.
Anyways.. New start today.. And lesson learned!
Did you guys have fun? :) My hubby surprised me by getting me this wallet I wanted from desigual - I am so bad on spending money on things for my self when they cost a tad more than what I think they should cost.. So I was really glad that he got it for me :) - I rarely use a purse now that I have the pram and the changing bag to tag along.. And this one fits perfectly in the holder thingi I have hanging on the pram :)
Yesterday I got some good news :)
I don't know if anyone remembers - but the last time I met my grandmother (My fathers mother) - she told me she had bought an apartment for me in Iran.. And to be honest I am not going to ever live in Iran. When my son was born I asked her to sell it and send me the money. The place is sold and I got 2/3 of the money they sold it for in my account yesterday - and I will receive the rest next month! My income has gone down to like under half of what I normally get since I am on my leave and the money was really good news for me! I am going to use most of it to pay off most of this loan I have back in Norway (after one of my disaster relationships) which means I will be able to pay off the whole thing by end of this year - which again means I will have around 300 dollars to use on whatever each month!
Annnnnd I am going to spend some of it to get my license! I wanted to do it before I got pregnant - but as you know the pregnancy wasn't exactly planned and with all the illness and the foggy brain I was in no shape to do it last year.. I am going to start driving a tad with hubby after he comes back from his work trip in March and then enroll on this intensive class and hopefully I will have it before summer time! Being able to drive will mean so much more freedom for me - it will be great to be able to let hubby in charge of the kid when he is home and just get to the gym - or go for a coffee or just a drive to get away.
Talking about the gym. I have decided to put off getting a membership until after I get my license too. The weather should be clearing up in a couple of weeks and I really want to start running outside. I have found this gym that does have child care, but they wont take in kids that are younger than 6 months old... And the kid is 3 next month.. So it means I would have to go after hubby gets home - and all in all it would be more of a hassle than a joy right now. I don't want to pay a bunch of cash (beside what my work pays) for a membership that would barely get used in 2-3 months.. So I think it's better to wait.
Anyways :) I am going to be off for now - hope you all have a wonderful day!
<3
2013/02/11
2013/02/07
Changes!
It has been a few very busy days.. Have been out and about with check-up and baby massage for the kid.. He also needed some new clothes, bottles and things like that - so we have been out and about for hours. Did you guys know that it is actually a pretty good workout to go on walks with the stroller? - add the shitty weather here - the wind and the mud - and you have to put your whole body into work.. So that is a very good thing!
That said - I haven't done anything but walking and carrying as far as the workout goes. I guess I was very optimistic when I planned getting out to workout 3 times a week lol... Hubby is helping a whole lot out, but the kid has been having a whole lot of tummy ache so we both have been pretty tired.
Talking about the kid - we go to this group thing provided by the healthcare system - where we are around 10 parents with kids that were born in November 2012 - and as I mentioned we had the baby massage yesterday (which my baby loved) - but I did notice that he was one of the smallest kids there (in size) - there were two that were around his size, but they were still a tad bigger. The weigh-in the day before that showed that he is gaining a bit more weight now that we are mixing BF and formula - but he is still around couple of pounds under what is "normal". I have been thinking (read going mental and fighting with my self ), and I have decided that we will be going fully over to formula feeding him starting Monday (it takes a few days to cool off the breasts and the little production that is there now).. I talked to hubby about it too - and we are pretty much agreeing that this is what is best for now.
That means starting Monday, not having to think about what I eat, I can start a proper diet. I struggle finding time during the day to eat proper breakfast and lunch since the kid is bigger now and he is more awake, wanting to play and needing attention. So I have decided to try a version of the two shake and a salad diet again.. I don't know if you remember my post about it - but here is the link. This is what I think about doing:
Breakfast: Shake
Snack: Fruit
Lunch: Shake
Snack: Skyr
Dinner: Fish/meat with veg and salad
And I'm planning to do this until 3rd of March (3 weeks) with the exception of Valtentines day. Hubby and I (and the kid lol) are going to our fav Italian restaurent. I want to say I'm going to do it for longer - but I don't want to set up goals that I might fail at. 3 weeks is a limited period and I having a date to look forward to so I know there will be a near end. I will think about what i will do when that time is over, when the time comes.
Anyways - I am looking forward to this (I am trying to keep positive and focus on the good things).. Wish me luck :)
That said - I haven't done anything but walking and carrying as far as the workout goes. I guess I was very optimistic when I planned getting out to workout 3 times a week lol... Hubby is helping a whole lot out, but the kid has been having a whole lot of tummy ache so we both have been pretty tired.
Talking about the kid - we go to this group thing provided by the healthcare system - where we are around 10 parents with kids that were born in November 2012 - and as I mentioned we had the baby massage yesterday (which my baby loved) - but I did notice that he was one of the smallest kids there (in size) - there were two that were around his size, but they were still a tad bigger. The weigh-in the day before that showed that he is gaining a bit more weight now that we are mixing BF and formula - but he is still around couple of pounds under what is "normal". I have been thinking (
That means starting Monday, not having to think about what I eat, I can start a proper diet. I struggle finding time during the day to eat proper breakfast and lunch since the kid is bigger now and he is more awake, wanting to play and needing attention. So I have decided to try a version of the two shake and a salad diet again.. I don't know if you remember my post about it - but here is the link. This is what I think about doing:
Breakfast: Shake
Snack: Fruit
Lunch: Shake
Snack: Skyr
Dinner: Fish/meat with veg and salad
And I'm planning to do this until 3rd of March (3 weeks) with the exception of Valtentines day. Hubby and I (and the kid lol) are going to our fav Italian restaurent. I want to say I'm going to do it for longer - but I don't want to set up goals that I might fail at. 3 weeks is a limited period and I having a date to look forward to so I know there will be a near end. I will think about what i will do when that time is over, when the time comes.
Anyways - I am looking forward to this (I am trying to keep positive and focus on the good things).. Wish me luck :)
2012/12/12
Super size me!
Has anyone seen the documentary super size me? I am watching it as I write and I am halfway the doc. and it is insane.. If you haven't watched it - do so.. It will put you off Mcd's forever and ever... I have always loved McNuggets but who the fuck knew it is all just goo?? I mean.. YUCK!!!! Have a look here,, I feel sick... Anywho..
I have been thinking more and more about my weight.. Food and everything.. And again.. Every single time I think about it I just get back to the same thing.. My "diet" when I restart my weight-loss journey again it needs to be simple.. It needs to be everyday food and it needs to be something I don't need to stress about.. I have been visiting Myfitnesspal and have startet counting my cals and by the time I am done with my breakfast numbers I feel so stressed about it all.. The numbers take over and I feel my mind going to my "safe" foods and I start panicking.. I will not be counting.. I will not go back to that place where my mind is all about "what should I eat" .. Thinking about food.. The yes/no foods.. The panicking over my next meal.. And lets not forget the cravings you get when you think about food all the time..
So I have been thinking about where I normally go wrong..
- I skip meals
- I overeat later in the day since I skip meals
- I eat the same food over and over until I am sick of it and then binge on the "no" foods
- I deprive my self and save my calories so I can have the "bad" foods within my calorie budget
- My diet is too strict and I fail after a couple of days since my goals are unreal
- I eat too much of the "bad" carbs
- Never skip a meal
- Getting my carbs from fruit and veg instead of bread and rice
- Eat smaller more frequent meals
Oh and.. I am down 26lbs since the baby was born on the 23rd... 4 more pounds and I will reach my first weigh goal :) I never ever thought I would reach any goals during this year.. So I am very pleased with the results.
<3
2012/03/04
Food is my drug and I abuse it horribly..
I heard that on the intro for one of the "I used to be fat" episodes on MTV.. And it is so true...
@Sammy.. You are right love. My plans are always boring - always lacking something.. And your comment really made me thing.. Cause again.. You are right.. and I have been thinking about why .. And I can tell you why... It is because it is not me.. - The way I am acting - the way my mind is - it is just not me..
One of the things my doctor first told me when I was learning to deal with my fibromyalgia was that I always want too much. That I need to face the fact and stop acting like the person I wish I was - instead of the person I am.. I had to learn to stop - to understand my limitation- I had to learn that my body no longer can do everything I wanted it to do.. And I had to stop asking too much of my self.
It tok me years to learn to deal with the illness - but today I realized - I am still doing it.. This time - it's not about my work - my partying - my relationship.. This time around is my weight - and my weightloss.
I am no longer 18 - I can not keep planning - and keep failing - cause lets face it.. I have already wasted too many years of my life trying - and failing on so many things..
So dearest Sammy - Thank you for helping me open my eyes..
When I restarted this blog - I said that I wanted to become healthy.. Not long ago - I said I wanted to be smaller - not skinny mini..
So here is a new plan..
I am going to stop putting my self down - and plan things that make me fail. I am going to count my calories, but not starve my self.. I don't want to starve my self, cause I always end up in a huge binge.. I binge - I feel down about my self so I eat more..
I am not going to plan to exercise too often - too much - cause I always fail - and it makes me feel worse about my self - and when I feel worse about my self.. Well - you know the story, I binge..
I keep saying baby steps - but I keep forgetting that those are the right steps for me..
So girls - you are probably sick and tired of hearing about my "new plans" .. So I am not going to bore you with it..
<3
@Sammy.. You are right love. My plans are always boring - always lacking something.. And your comment really made me thing.. Cause again.. You are right.. and I have been thinking about why .. And I can tell you why... It is because it is not me.. - The way I am acting - the way my mind is - it is just not me..
One of the things my doctor first told me when I was learning to deal with my fibromyalgia was that I always want too much. That I need to face the fact and stop acting like the person I wish I was - instead of the person I am.. I had to learn to stop - to understand my limitation- I had to learn that my body no longer can do everything I wanted it to do.. And I had to stop asking too much of my self.
It tok me years to learn to deal with the illness - but today I realized - I am still doing it.. This time - it's not about my work - my partying - my relationship.. This time around is my weight - and my weightloss.
I am no longer 18 - I can not keep planning - and keep failing - cause lets face it.. I have already wasted too many years of my life trying - and failing on so many things..
So dearest Sammy - Thank you for helping me open my eyes..
When I restarted this blog - I said that I wanted to become healthy.. Not long ago - I said I wanted to be smaller - not skinny mini..
So here is a new plan..
I am going to stop putting my self down - and plan things that make me fail. I am going to count my calories, but not starve my self.. I don't want to starve my self, cause I always end up in a huge binge.. I binge - I feel down about my self so I eat more..
I am not going to plan to exercise too often - too much - cause I always fail - and it makes me feel worse about my self - and when I feel worse about my self.. Well - you know the story, I binge..
I keep saying baby steps - but I keep forgetting that those are the right steps for me..
So girls - you are probably sick and tired of hearing about my "new plans" .. So I am not going to bore you with it..
<3
2012/02/27
Whhhhyyy.....
So today, half way through the work day it start snowing.. ALOT.... First I was upset - specially since I wanted to start C25K with Nasimiyu today and I could feel that I was going on my "excuse mode" ..
And then to make things a tad more meh.. Around dinner time, I warmed up the chicken filet I had made yesterday to realize that it tasted horrible... I was testing this new honey curry seasoning and eow.. The chicken tasted so bad :S .. Hubby, eats pretty much anything... So he ate my chicken filet and I had some of his pasta.. And paste = wheat = I felt every more horrible..
So I was slacking on the sofa - surfing online, reading blogs.. And then I saw this post on K's blog and here she says: " I read something that said if you really want it, you'll do whatever it takes to get it it... and if you don't, you'll make excuses." ..
So I got my butt out of the couch - and went on and did around 35 mins of WiiFit.. Burned 316 cals - and I don't really think it is that bad.. And then I sat down and tracked my eats on myfitnesspal.. I got me a nice surprise.. Todays net is 318 cals.. And you know what? - I don't hate it ^^
My weight keep going up and down - and I think if I am ever going to keep going down, instead of up - I really need to stick to whatever I am doing...
So baby steps - and keep going at it without changing the plan all the time is the way to go.. And I really think that is the thing that will work the best at the end..
So the plan is :
Eat veggies - fruit and lean protein
Exercise for atleast 30 mins - 5 days a week.
<3
And then to make things a tad more meh.. Around dinner time, I warmed up the chicken filet I had made yesterday to realize that it tasted horrible... I was testing this new honey curry seasoning and eow.. The chicken tasted so bad :S .. Hubby, eats pretty much anything... So he ate my chicken filet and I had some of his pasta.. And paste = wheat = I felt every more horrible..
So I was slacking on the sofa - surfing online, reading blogs.. And then I saw this post on K's blog and here she says: " I read something that said if you really want it, you'll do whatever it takes to get it it... and if you don't, you'll make excuses." ..
So I got my butt out of the couch - and went on and did around 35 mins of WiiFit.. Burned 316 cals - and I don't really think it is that bad.. And then I sat down and tracked my eats on myfitnesspal.. I got me a nice surprise.. Todays net is 318 cals.. And you know what? - I don't hate it ^^
My weight keep going up and down - and I think if I am ever going to keep going down, instead of up - I really need to stick to whatever I am doing...
So baby steps - and keep going at it without changing the plan all the time is the way to go.. And I really think that is the thing that will work the best at the end..
So the plan is :
Eat veggies - fruit and lean protein
Exercise for atleast 30 mins - 5 days a week.
<3
2012/02/25
Low carb.. Ish ;)
I'm going low fat/low carb from Monday. I am not doing low carb a la atkins or anything. My plan is to have protein shakes and maybe fruit at work. And going to have grilled chicken/fish with veg for dinner. For the weekends I am thinking to have egg white scramble or omlette instead of the shakes.
Going to keep it short - cause we have a full day ahead.
Have a great weekend loves <3
Going to keep it short - cause we have a full day ahead.
Have a great weekend loves <3
2012/01/29
The warrior diet.. Ish?
So I have had my week of being out of counting and shape and tired.. I had my crash this weekend and I managed to get some really needed rest. I consider my self lucky since I have "only" gained 1 pound...
I have noticed a few things about my eating lately.. I get full so much faster than I used to.. I stop eating when I am full.. I don't hate being hungry.. I don't panic over it any longer.
That is good isn't it?
I always have a hard time knowing what to eat at work. I always end up in some sort of panic mode when I think about it. But the fact of the matter is that most days, I don't really mind not eating during the day...Fair enough - I get the starving feeling by the end of the day.. But I am pretty sure I can control it with enough liquids - and maybe a piece of fruit by the end of the day.. So why not take the warrior approach? - You don't eat during the day, and then at dinner time you get to eat one proper meal. You wont feel like you are cheating and you wont feel guilty over eating what you really want for dinner. Toss some exercise into the picture and I really don't see where it could go wrong..
Anyway, as you might have guessed I didn't get on with the 30 day shred as I had planned.. But now that I feel rested I feel like I am ready to go for it. The whole "get up earlier" was a bust, so the new plan is to do it right after I get home.. I get home, change, and do it before I eat. Have you noticed that sometimes you eat much less after you exercise?
Ah well.. I am going to spend some time with hubby before bed.. Tomorrow, we have been married for 6 months.. Time just flies by doesn't it?
Hope you all have been having a good weekend!
<3
I have noticed a few things about my eating lately.. I get full so much faster than I used to.. I stop eating when I am full.. I don't hate being hungry.. I don't panic over it any longer.
That is good isn't it?
I always have a hard time knowing what to eat at work. I always end up in some sort of panic mode when I think about it. But the fact of the matter is that most days, I don't really mind not eating during the day...Fair enough - I get the starving feeling by the end of the day.. But I am pretty sure I can control it with enough liquids - and maybe a piece of fruit by the end of the day.. So why not take the warrior approach? - You don't eat during the day, and then at dinner time you get to eat one proper meal. You wont feel like you are cheating and you wont feel guilty over eating what you really want for dinner. Toss some exercise into the picture and I really don't see where it could go wrong..
Anyway, as you might have guessed I didn't get on with the 30 day shred as I had planned.. But now that I feel rested I feel like I am ready to go for it. The whole "get up earlier" was a bust, so the new plan is to do it right after I get home.. I get home, change, and do it before I eat. Have you noticed that sometimes you eat much less after you exercise?
Ah well.. I am going to spend some time with hubby before bed.. Tomorrow, we have been married for 6 months.. Time just flies by doesn't it?
Hope you all have been having a good weekend!
<3
2012/01/13
*insert smart title here*
I think I have been doing very good this week. I have been making my meals for work the night before - I have been sticking to my exercise plan and worked out 3 day. My net calories are very well under my weekly budget. I have however not lost a single tiny little pound the last couple of days. That made me kind of :S this morning, but then I put on my new jeans and they are getting loose on me.. They were very very tight last week - so this is good.
My first thought when I stepped on the scale was "I am eating too much" - but then I took a step back.. Thought of all the times you girls have talked about the scale standing still - and how you keep going - and now I am fine. I have to understand that even though I am making very good changes in my eating/exercise habits - it will not all change within the week. So my goal is to have a bingefree weekend, where I keep tracking my eats and to get in another exercise session.
I have to keep remembering that I have done years of harm to my body- and it is my fault that it has reached this weight - and that I can not fix it overnight. That if my goal is to really get slim - and healthy, I can not just jump on a yet another fad diet - fail - binge - and gain more weight.
On another note - I am going to start studying again. When my ex - dumped my ass after I had quite my job and so on - I found that the only thing I could do was to start studying. Mind you, it was online studies since everything else was full - and a private business.. Very very very very expensive. I took a student loan to get by. But I never finished it up. I didn't have the state of mind - I was really behind and couldn't catch up. I e-mailed the school to ask if there was any chance for me to be able to pick up the classes I had paid for and to be able to take exams. And to my biggest surprise, I got an e-mail saying that I had 3 semesters left to complete to classes!
I have 3 classes I can take during the spring semester - and 5 for the fall semester. I have completed the class for one of the fall semesters and I only need to take the exams for it. So my plan is to reread the books for that class and pick up one of the spring classes now. Complete the rest of the fall classes next fall - and the last two classes next spring. The 4 I have to take this fall will be really hard - and I will be a full time student, while I am working full time for 5-6 months. But I think it will be worth it.
I still have to pay to be able to take the exams, and that will cost a bit - but all in all completing this means I haven't been wasting around 20k USD (that's around what I have in student loan for that year :S) - on something I never finished. I need to be really strict with my self, and focus to be able to achieve this. Specially the fall semester, so wish me luck :) Cause I am very sure it's needed...
Work has been very very very still today - which has been perfect for me. I have been looking over the school things, mailing with the school - looking at the classes and so on all day. I ordered a book I needed for one of the classes I will be taking this semester and now I am on my lunch break. I have barely done anything at work today - and to be honest, I don't care at all..
Anywho :)
Official weigh-in will be on Wednesday - so I am not going to worry about the scale not moving for now - and be patient and focus on doing good this weekend - and as I wrote this, I got an e-mail saying there will be cake in the kitchen soon lol - you gotta love the way the office culture is always trying to fatten you up! I am not going to have any.
That said! I am going to finish this wall of text - and wish you all an amazing weekend!
Oh and thanks for all the comments about the running, we have a storm warning here - but that should be over soon - and as soon as it has cleared I am going to start the C25K outside :) Thanks for the push hehe :)
<3
Edit: I am loving this song lately... So I thought I would share it with you ladies :)
My first thought when I stepped on the scale was "I am eating too much" - but then I took a step back.. Thought of all the times you girls have talked about the scale standing still - and how you keep going - and now I am fine. I have to understand that even though I am making very good changes in my eating/exercise habits - it will not all change within the week. So my goal is to have a bingefree weekend, where I keep tracking my eats and to get in another exercise session.
I have to keep remembering that I have done years of harm to my body- and it is my fault that it has reached this weight - and that I can not fix it overnight. That if my goal is to really get slim - and healthy, I can not just jump on a yet another fad diet - fail - binge - and gain more weight.
On another note - I am going to start studying again. When my ex - dumped my ass after I had quite my job and so on - I found that the only thing I could do was to start studying. Mind you, it was online studies since everything else was full - and a private business.. Very very very very expensive. I took a student loan to get by. But I never finished it up. I didn't have the state of mind - I was really behind and couldn't catch up. I e-mailed the school to ask if there was any chance for me to be able to pick up the classes I had paid for and to be able to take exams. And to my biggest surprise, I got an e-mail saying that I had 3 semesters left to complete to classes!
I have 3 classes I can take during the spring semester - and 5 for the fall semester. I have completed the class for one of the fall semesters and I only need to take the exams for it. So my plan is to reread the books for that class and pick up one of the spring classes now. Complete the rest of the fall classes next fall - and the last two classes next spring. The 4 I have to take this fall will be really hard - and I will be a full time student, while I am working full time for 5-6 months. But I think it will be worth it.
I still have to pay to be able to take the exams, and that will cost a bit - but all in all completing this means I haven't been wasting around 20k USD (that's around what I have in student loan for that year :S) - on something I never finished. I need to be really strict with my self, and focus to be able to achieve this. Specially the fall semester, so wish me luck :) Cause I am very sure it's needed...
Work has been very very very still today - which has been perfect for me. I have been looking over the school things, mailing with the school - looking at the classes and so on all day. I ordered a book I needed for one of the classes I will be taking this semester and now I am on my lunch break. I have barely done anything at work today - and to be honest, I don't care at all..
Anywho :)
Official weigh-in will be on Wednesday - so I am not going to worry about the scale not moving for now - and be patient and focus on doing good this weekend - and as I wrote this, I got an e-mail saying there will be cake in the kitchen soon lol - you gotta love the way the office culture is always trying to fatten you up! I am not going to have any.
That said! I am going to finish this wall of text - and wish you all an amazing weekend!
Oh and thanks for all the comments about the running, we have a storm warning here - but that should be over soon - and as soon as it has cleared I am going to start the C25K outside :) Thanks for the push hehe :)
<3
Edit: I am loving this song lately... So I thought I would share it with you ladies :)
2012/01/09
Monday .. Woop woop....
OR not :P
It's not exactly a hidden fact that I am not the most happy morning/Monday person..
But today is a great day - and you want to know why? Because I can finally put the whole Christmas, newyears eating out stuff behind me and have my new start :)
I am going to start planning my meals more properly. I have two packs of oatmeal and two frozen weightwatchers dinner left and I am going to have those with some fruit today and tomorrow. And I am going to start making food plans - and I am thinking to have it pretty low carb. I am not going to count carbs, only calories - but I will focus on the right sources of it.
Going for the whole- leaner - browner - greener plan. aaannnnddd I am going to get started with an exercise plan.. I am only aiming for 3 times a week for now.. I am in such a bad shape - that I think aiming for more - would just be aiming to fail. I am not really good at making time and an afford to go to the gym, so I want to start doing the couch25k (properly this time) and combine it with some simple exercises such as push-up, and plank at home.
I am going to reread "you can be thin" again.. It really did put me off all bad carbs - and I think it is a great place to start this whole journey again.
I also came across this article which I think some of you might enjoy reading... I know for a fact that I did..
Anyway, I am going to end this post and try to focus on work. I want to say thanks for all your comments, and say welcome to the new followers..
I still have loads of problems with my dashboard and that fact that it doesn't update all the new blogs I am following - so any tips on how to fix it will be gladly welcomed :(
It's not exactly a hidden fact that I am not the most happy morning/Monday person..
But today is a great day - and you want to know why? Because I can finally put the whole Christmas, newyears eating out stuff behind me and have my new start :)
I am going to start planning my meals more properly. I have two packs of oatmeal and two frozen weightwatchers dinner left and I am going to have those with some fruit today and tomorrow. And I am going to start making food plans - and I am thinking to have it pretty low carb. I am not going to count carbs, only calories - but I will focus on the right sources of it.
Going for the whole- leaner - browner - greener plan. aaannnnddd I am going to get started with an exercise plan.. I am only aiming for 3 times a week for now.. I am in such a bad shape - that I think aiming for more - would just be aiming to fail. I am not really good at making time and an afford to go to the gym, so I want to start doing the couch25k (properly this time) and combine it with some simple exercises such as push-up, and plank at home.
I am going to reread "you can be thin" again.. It really did put me off all bad carbs - and I think it is a great place to start this whole journey again.
I also came across this article which I think some of you might enjoy reading... I know for a fact that I did..
Anyway, I am going to end this post and try to focus on work. I want to say thanks for all your comments, and say welcome to the new followers..
I still have loads of problems with my dashboard and that fact that it doesn't update all the new blogs I am following - so any tips on how to fix it will be gladly welcomed :(
Edit:
I also want to put some goals for my self.. As I have mentioned before - I will be going on a trip with my work to Chamonix in March (8th of March). And I want to aim to reach my first GW by then. No matter what the scale says on Wednesday - I still will be looking at a 20 lbs ish loss.. So that's my first goal.. 2 months - 20 lbs.. That is ttly doable.. :)
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