Yesterday was a really rough day for me.. I had this routine control where you have to meet up at the nurses office fully fasted (You aren't allowed to have water even) - then they give you a huge glass of sugary water, which you need to drink within 5 minutes. Then you get to sit and wait around for 2 hours - two hours later they stick the finger take a bunch of blood samples to see how your body handles the sugar.
The levels are supposed to be under 8 - mine was 10, something.. She told me that those levels puts me in a really high danger zone for the gestational diabetes.. So she is going to send me to this diabetes clinic and see what they say... I got home.. Puked my heads off (I still had alot of disgusting sugary water in my tummy)... And then most of yesterday I was crying..
There are few factors that can put you in a higher risk zone for the diabetes.. One is being from the part of the world that I was born in... Second being overweight... The history of bulimia and binge eating is also a factor..
I know I can not do anything about where I was born - so that is that.. But the last two.. I have done to my self.. I feel just sooo horrible.. I guess the fact that during the last few weeks where I have been really sick my eats have been horrid isn't helping the matter.. The only thing I have been able to eat has been maria cookies, salt crakers, and sometimes cooked basmati with some chicken.. None of them are exactly helping you to keep your sugar levels stabil ect...
I didn't get any information from the nurse yesterday so I went online and started reading about the gestational diabetes and what can help and so on.. Apparently IF I get it, it is something that will go over of it self after the baby is born, but the woman that get the diabetes, are most likely to get diabetes type 2 later in their life..
You know.. I have had a shit life - I can deal with stuff that happen to me.. But the thing that really breaks my heart is the fact that if I do not get a hold of this - it can effect the baby.. The baby can get too much sugar through me - and become a HUGE baby - and it will most likely have issues with low blood sugar after it is born.. - I do understand that these are all IF but it didn't really calm me down yesterday..
So I started reading more about how to deal with this.. - and I have a game plan.. A whole bunch of sites were talking about how diet and when you eat can effect this.. I need to eat something every 3 hours... No skipping meals... High fiber - low sugar is the key.. No added sugar.. No more than 3 portions of fruit a day.. No white bread - pasta - ect..
I just hope this will help.. And that by the time I get to the clinic for more tests there is no need for me to do anything - or even go back..
Wish me luck.. I don't think I would EVER be able to forgive my self, if anything happenes to the baby because of my fucked up relationship with food..