The plan!

OK, I know I said I wouldn't be posting the plan until later on, but I have it pretty much figured out - soooo I thought why not.

As I said I am planning on following Rusty Moore's the author of the fitnessblackbook.com
I have decided to just F the micro's and go for the main number which is calories - and the amount of calories I am planning to eat is 1440 calories a day. The idea is to do this: Goal Weight in Pounds x (hours working out per week + 9.5) = Calories. I have decided to put up 120lbs as my ugw and that is the number I am using to figure out the calories. I am thinking to aim to work out 2.5 hours a week.. So, 120 x (2.5+9.5) = 1440 calories, a day.  (10080 a week).

I am also going to aim for a weekly count (just like seekingsomethingelse does) - instead of daily.. We all have days where we eat out, or when there is something which we can't control like birthdays ect, and with a weekly budget I think I can have a day where I can eat a tad more instead of feeling all sick and guilty cause I "ate too much"... Does it make sense?

As far as the exercise goes, I think 2,5 hours is something I can achieve, I can either divide it and do 30 mins a day, or I can do 2-3 longer sessions. I am not going to aim to work out so and so many hours a day, cause lets face it - with a kid, I never know if I have the time or the energy to devote my self to anything more.

We have decided that hubby is going to stay home on Wednesdays and use a "daddy day" after his vacation is over, so if nothing more I knowI will be able to hit the gym on Wednesdays and one day during the weekend. I am also going to focus on cardio and resistance training.

I think I will be keeping the calories to the same amount since it is what I would need to eat to maintain the weight I want to reach, but I will be changing the work-outs as I get stronger.

And at last and not least, I think I am going to put my scale away and only weigh-in every two weeks. Do a body scan once a month - and also take my measurements every two months. I feel like I am becoming more and more depressed every time I step on the scale - it's dictating my mood. I still want to have control over the numbers, so I think sticking to spesific weigh-in, measurement days will do that.

Now that this is out of the way, I thought I would mention something even more personal. Tomorrow is our 2nd wedding anniversary.. Can you believe how fast time has gone by???

Here are a few pictures from our day ( I will have to remove them later as a promise to hubby as always, but yeah)

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Last Tuesday was also a special day for us. My son turned 8 months... I still have a hard time believing how fast he is growing. Last week I gave him a haircut cause his hair was so long it kept getting in his eyes, annoying him. He looks so much older after his cut (that's what I think, but no one agrees with me hehe).. Anyways, here is a picture from my little sunshine.. (Everyone says he looks like me eventhough he has his daddy's eye and hair color, what do you guys think?)

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Anyways, I guess it's time to round up this post. I hope you all have a great week ahead.


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I'm so f---ing stupid!!!!

I was reading Seeking something else's post and it was so clear... I have been so stupid.. So I mean.. I got visual impact for woman by Rusty Moore, not long after I started my blog.. To be more exact in March 2011... It means I have had it for over 2 years.. During these two years.. My weight has gone up and up and up... I have reached the most horrible sickening number.. And yes.. It is about the numbers.. None of us can say it is not...

My weight today is 251lbs, or 114kg if you rather have it in kg..

This is the first time I actually admit it to someone.. I mean yeah.. The number is up there in my "weight" tab.. But no one really gets updated on those tabs... So this is it.. Me admitting how bad it has gotten is step one..

I also know why I keep stuffing my face.. I know I have a problem with the way I deal with food.. For me emotions are directly connected to food... I don't know if I have mentioned it before, but I eat when I'm happy.. I eat when I'm sad.. I eat when there is something to do.. I eat when I don't have anything to do... I eat when I don't want to eat... I eat, and eat.. and then I eat some more..

It doesn't matter how many books I read.. I many plans I make... Until I don't learn to deal with my emotions, instead of eating them, I wont be able to get rid of this weight...

Now... I am not giving up... I never give up...

I got raped when I was 10... I survived that.. I didn't give up on my life... It has been a bumpy road, yes.. But look at me now.. I have a wonderful husband and the most amazing little boy..
When my mother didn't love me.. While she still puts me down, manipulates me.. Whatever... I moved on and I survived... I have my own family now..
When my ex dumped me two weeks before I was moving to Netherlands for him, I didn't give up... I had no job, no place to live.. Nothing... But I made it...

When my step-dad was abusing me, I put on the weight to protect my self.. I always thought it would make him go away.. And it didn't... So why do I keep the weight?? ... I mean.. I don't need it anymore do I?

After everything I have been through, I can not let this one win over me.. I am much stronger than that.. But you know what?? - I'm too fucking comfortable to change... I have someone who loves me.. I have a job.. I have a home.. Why would I change???.. I never change or do something unless I have to.. I never do something for me cause it is the best for me.. I deal with things when I have to, or I deal with things when I need to do something for someone else.. My friends, my husband.. Now my son.. I do everything for them.. But I don't do it for my self..

I guess, I never learned to love my self, and do things for my self growing up... I have to learn to do things for me... I keep saying I will (remember how much I talked about it when I was pregnant??) - but the reality of it is that I'm all talk...

OK.. Let me round up this wall of text and get down to it...

My "loving mother" and my "lovely sister" are coming to stay with us (lets not get into how she mindfucked to get this to happen...... but yeah)... for a whole week... They are coming on Wednesday, and will be leaving on Tuesday the week after! So I have 5 days before they come and I need to get a kick start..

So I am going to stick to protein shakes, eggwhite omlettes, veggies, fruit and my go to WW soup...

While they are here, we will be eating out a whole lot and my plan is to stick to salads as much as possible. eat light and drink a whole lot.. And when they leave, my plan is to actually do it.. Properly... Follow Rusty's plan.. Do the cardio, do the work-outs, and do the diet... How.. I will get back to.. I am going to think it through and plan something that is OK for where I am so I don't crash and give up..

I am also going to get on the scale tomorrow morning, On Thursday morning, and then again on Wednesday after my "family" has left. I will post my fightplan (yeah fight plan I have to fight my self to actually do this), either Tuesday night or Wednesday morning.

In addition to my eating goals I also want to take more care of my self, put on some make-up, even if it's just a touch of mascara... Do something to my hair instead of just have it in a messy bun, cause I don't have time to do anything else.. And just do one small thing for my self..


I wanna round up this post by thanking each and everyone of you guys for reading my rant, and being there.. I really don't know what I would do if I didn't have this blog.. So thanks <3

Have a great weekend ladies, and wish me luck!

Headaches and all that jazz....

*sigh*

Today I am working from home... The moving went... Well, lets just say the weather was soo horrid- and the wind so strong that they were warning people about going out.. Our couch got showered down by the rain.. But ya we have officially moved..

Moving update.. Well they had to redo the floors 3 times.. And some parts of it are still :S but I just told them to let it be. Everytime they redid it - they managed to damage something else.. Ofc we will withdraw it from their payment but it is enough now..

They did come with the bench yesterday - but parts of it had the wrong measurement so they had to take it back. They are coming again today . thank God.. and if everything goes as planned we should be done with everything but the wardrobes by Friday. Lets keep them crossed. Well everything but the wardrobe.. I am supposed to hear about that today.. hehe..

I want to say welcome to the new followers and for the comments and all the luck you wished us. I must admit that I have missed you girls and can not wait to get updated on your blogs :)

To those of you I have on MFP - I will get back on it properly from next week. Things are way too messy right now.

@ Claire: I would love to do the Rusty's VIFW with you :) - I am going to get back to the gym properly from next week and build up come condition and get on the program from the second week of January- second week since we have a trip to Oslo coming up in the first week. I am thinking about doing his 2 day split - and follow the 12 week cardio program. Let me know if you rather want to keep up this on facebook/msn/mail and I will send you the info :)

I am not sure if I can say that IF/eat stop eat was a very good experience for me. I had a bad headache all day- eventhough I was drinking enough. I will try it again - and see how it goes. I wasn't really hungry - the hunger went away after a little while.. The headache... It lasted until the day after.. So ya..

Let me know about how you guys do it - or if there is something I should think about.

@Thinpls: Rusty's ebook has both.. He is very cardio oriented and he aims for the "lean hollywood look" and not the bulky one. His weight training in the book are to tone up- and the cardio to burn fat. I love his program and I highly recommend his blog and his program.

I am aware of the fact that I haven't been on it - cause I have been too busy/lazy or whatever the excuse might be. But I really believe he knows what he is talking about. And he knows what women want from the program.

@ Does it even matter: I will - I will post the pics when it is pretty! ^^

Anyway - gonna try to get updated on work and your blogs :)



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The little experiment..

OK.. I am going to start with the 60 day challenge.. Even though I have had fun with the questions - I haven't really been able to commit to it.. I might restart it after newyears but meh.. Will see..

Now over to the experiment.. As you guys might remember I have mentioned Rusty Moore a few times before.. I read about him the first time months ago in Harlow's blog and I have loved him and his ideas ever since. I bought his e-book Visual impact for woman months ago (ashamed to say that I haven't been doing much more than reading there but I will put it into use) ... Anywho.. When I bought the E-book, I also started getting his newsletter. A while back I got this document about IF - intermittent fasting. This document has a whole lot of info about IF - and how to use it and what it is good for and so on. The version that I am going to try is the one Rusty has talked about in his blog several times and it is called eat stop eat.


Eat Stop Eat
(24 hour fast, 1 or 2 times per week)
On this plan, you fast for a full 24 hours once or twice per week, eating sensibly (higher protein, minimizing processed foods, etc.) the rest of the week. It’s flexible: You can choose whichever 24 hours you want. Want to fast from breakfast to breakfast? That’s cool. Just eat breakfast on Monday, and don’t eat again until breakfast on Tuesday. Want to fast dinner to dinner? That’s cool too. Eat dinner on Wednesday, and don’t eat again until dinner on Thursday.


So that is what I am doing today. I had my meal about 19:30 last night. And I wont eat until after 8 PM today. Now the reason why I want to do this :

I have mentioned over and over and over how I have don't seem to stop eating when I am full- or I eat while I am not really hungry.. I think most of the times I feel hungry.. I am hungry cause I THINK I am hungry.. Not cause I am.. And what I want from IF is to learn the actually body hunger - and learn to recognize it in my everyday. I think when I restrict .. I often eat for the sake of eating.. Not because I am very hungry and need to eat. I always eat cause I want to eat.

I told hubby that I was going to try it - and explained what I wanted to achieve from it. He actually for once agree's that it is a good idea.

Anywho..

I am also putting together an exercise plan which I want to get on after new years. Until then I want to focus on doing cardio - getting in a better shape - and learn to control my appetite.. (Yet again).. I am still not going to stress with it. We will have a whole lot on our hands even after we move - not having the kitchen ready - and so on.. So I aim to get back on the exercise mode from December 5'th..

I will post a detailed plan when it is ready and I am ready hehe ..

Off for now ..



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Forgot to say :) Happy turkey day :)

2 down .. ALOT to go..

Eventhough I loved the nice sunny weather we had during Easter I could do without all the eating.. I don't understand why every holiday is a binge fest.. But ya Easter is over and I have been doing really good since yesterday. I am doing very ok with food.. Yesterday I had no bfast, a small turkey ham sub with salad, no cheese / no saus- dinner was salad, portion of couscous, a portion of grilled chicken filet and some veg. And I had a handfull of nuts later that night.It's around 900 calories inn. Today I have had almost the same with the difference of a protein shake  (107 cals)  in the morning. I am trying to have a protein shake within 30 mins after I get up to test Rusty's theory.

Gym has been ok. I suck, and my condition is next to zero. But I went yesterday and today. Did a tiny little session of HIIT followed by 20 mins of steady cardio. I'm gonna keep going eventhough I don't do as good/ much as I wish I could. But I'll get there.. Oh and ya I almost forgot, I am down 2,2 lbs :) I still have many many many many many lbs to lose but ya.. 2 is better than nothing.. 

A head full of Rusty..

As I have mentioned earlier in the blog, I have gotten me the visual impact for woman and I am reading it "properly" before I go on it. So here are a bunch of the clips from the plan.. Tips about eating.. Exercise and so on.. Which I will be doing.
Basicly this post is for me to reread when I want a little boost of motivation and a kick in the bum to get back on track.

• Think in terms of weekly calorie deficit, not daily calorie deficit.
• Use intermittent fasting- fast until dinner 2 times per week and eat a medium sized meal for that dinner.
• High Intensity Interval Training <3-  Intense intervals are effective at releasing fat from your fat cells. The high intensity intervals also burn calories directly, adding to your daily calorie deficit. Creating a calorie deficit is key to weight loss.
• Follow the “2 day split” routine

A typical week will look like this:

• Mon: Day 1 – Back, Chest, and Abs - Cardio
• Tue: Day 2 – Shoulders, Biceps, and Triceps - Cardio
• Wed: Off
• Thu: Day 1 – Back, Chest, and Abs - Cardio
• Fri: Day 2 – Shoulders, Biceps, and Triceps - Cardio
• 1 hour of walking after each work out. 

Work hard once and then maintain that level. From that point forward, use that extra energy to travel, meet some new friends, start a business, learn some hobbies, etc. Also...don't be afraid to back off on your training if more important things come up (you will simply have to eat a little less).

PS: There are 3,500 calories in a pound of fat

The plan...

Got my training plan.. Got my diet plan.. And I got my gym card... I am looking forward to start on it all.. Just need to print out some stuff so I have it available to me at the gym. So Monday it is.

Oh and I must say.. I love Rusty.. Had a question about the program and the diet plan.. Posted it on the his Facebook page this morning and already got my answer. It is so nice to see that he actually cares enough to respond to these things.