I have been wanting to make a post for a while but I have either been distracted having to do something, or too tired to post.. Buuuuut here it goes :)
Where to start...
I guess we can start with the therapy.. It is actually going better.. One week she wanted me to write down what I have been doing for a whole week and rate my actions 1 being me feeling horrid 10 being me feeling amazing.. The week after she asked me to think over what my week had looked like, and what I wish a perfect week would look like. And it actually made me sit down and think about how I wanted things to be. My husband and I talked about it, and we are trying to take small steps towards the "perfect week". Being able to think about it and agree that we would like our weeks look that way has been bringing us closer.
And last week, well last week we opened the "mother load" lol.. Aka we talked about my relationship with mother.. How she has been to me through the years.. We didn't really get to go into it expect from me talking about our background, but it felt soooo good to see the shrinks face when I was talking about her.. She was completely shocked, and she was nodding and shaking her head... That alone makes me really realize that our problems isn't only in my head.. We have couple of more sessions planned and then we are supposed to evaluate if I need to keep seeing her, and if I get my way we will keep at it.
My allover mood is much better.. I haven't had more than one or two episodes where I have felt really down the last weeks, and I can not remember the last time I felt this ok.. Things aren't normal, but things are OK, and it is easy to see how it is also affecting our family dynamic. We are all more relaxed, and generally happier.
As far as work and my sick leave, I have been working half days, and it is actually working fine. Today I was approached by the manager of another team in our company, about starting to do some project for her dep. and I have been wanting to work in that dep. ever since I started working for that company. So I am really looking forward to that. I am also going to have a talk to my manager on either Monday or Thursday about a raise. And this means I can push them a little further. And more money would really help right now..
I am supposed to meet this person about my leave (she works for place that pays out the money while you are on the leave). I am not looking forward to it.. I just don't want to talk to some random person about the reason why I am on the leave... Ugh...
Anywho... The reason why money would help is because we are looking into moving into a house. We are going to look at one this Sunday, and it is the first place I have seen in ages that would actually fit us, and which we could afford... I really hope the house is as good as it looks in the picture, and that there wont be a whole bunch of people bidding over what we can afford... So keep them crossed ladies.. !
As far as my weight goes, it has been going up and down, and I haven't been really watching my eats, until a week ago. I have started the low carb high fat diet again, and I am going to stay at it for now. I am down 5lbs and am looking forward to lose more.
I guess that is it for now :) Have a great weekend ladies.
<3
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2014/03/28
2013/08/25
Not doing so well...
So I fully crashed... And it scared the shit out of me cause I was carrying my son, and everything went black, and I was so scared I would let go of him, or fall down holding him, hurting him.. After that I dropped the whole idea of not eating during the day... I rather be fat than hurting my baby...
But then again.. I don't want to, can not stay fat.. I have been thinking and actually talked about it with hubby.. I figured my options would be strict counting and planning everything, going on a VLCD diet, or do a strict low carb diet. As you guys know, I have done them all, and failed at them all.. So what are my options??? ... Counting always puts me in a trigger point.. I eat cause there is room in my budget, I do good for a few days and go on a huge binge.. VLCD diets work.. But then there is the insane mood swings, the lack of energy, headaches... And I always always stop cause I feel to sick when I am at it...
So the thing that is left is going on a strict low carb diet. I have started on it slowly today.. Thinking of what I should be eating, talking about how the diet works with my husband.. And we have talked about how we can work it into being family meals..
The idea is to make whatever I can eat, and cook some pasta/potatoes/rice or whatever on the side for hubby.. I am also finally ask to get forms to register the whole family at this new private family clinic that is a tiny walk away from our place.. And I am going to make an appointment and have a proper chat with the doctor about the diet. I am also going to have my bloodworks done, and ask to have them redone once a month just to make sure that nothing goes wrong..
I have also been reading more and more about how food and my fibromyalgia pain go hand in hand, so I am going to try to stay gluten and wheat free (properly) to see if it actually helps the pain.. So if I can lose weight, and get rid of some or even maybe all of the pain I have.. Well that would be a win win situation now wouldn't it..
Anyways... That's how things are as far as my weight goes..
There has been other things happening.. I have finally registered with a school to get on with my drivers license. I bought this intensive course pack that covers all the tests that I need to take before I can get my license.. It also includes 30 driving lessons, and to be able to have them all right after eachother I had to wait a tad.. So I will start with this one part the 20th of September, and the driving lessons start the 25th, and if everything goes as planned I will be able to apply to get my license by mid November :)
My birthday is also coming up.. It's a week from tomorrow.. My bff is coming to visit on Thursday and she will be staying with us until Sunday before she has to go back to Oslo.. I am really looking forward to having her here.. I have also asked her to baby sit so hubby and I can go out on Friday night.. It will be our first date in ages.. Even before the baby was born, I was too heavy and in too much pain for us to have any proper dates.. So I am really looking forward to it.
I also got an early birthday pressy from hubby :) I got a new laptop and so far I love it... I am not using it now since it is downloading and prepping all it's programs, but it should be ready soon and I can not wait to "play" with it.. It is a Samsung and apart from it being a really good laptop, it's also ttly cute hehe... I got the white one, and it is truely one of the prettiest PC's I have ever owned..
Oh and we are looking into moving again.. This time we will take our time and buy a place where we can live for years to come... I am so sick of moving...
I guess this is it for now..
Wish me luck, and I hope this time around I wont disappoint you or my self...
<3
But then again.. I don't want to, can not stay fat.. I have been thinking and actually talked about it with hubby.. I figured my options would be strict counting and planning everything, going on a VLCD diet, or do a strict low carb diet. As you guys know, I have done them all, and failed at them all.. So what are my options??? ... Counting always puts me in a trigger point.. I eat cause there is room in my budget, I do good for a few days and go on a huge binge.. VLCD diets work.. But then there is the insane mood swings, the lack of energy, headaches... And I always always stop cause I feel to sick when I am at it...
So the thing that is left is going on a strict low carb diet. I have started on it slowly today.. Thinking of what I should be eating, talking about how the diet works with my husband.. And we have talked about how we can work it into being family meals..
The idea is to make whatever I can eat, and cook some pasta/potatoes/rice or whatever on the side for hubby.. I am also finally ask to get forms to register the whole family at this new private family clinic that is a tiny walk away from our place.. And I am going to make an appointment and have a proper chat with the doctor about the diet. I am also going to have my bloodworks done, and ask to have them redone once a month just to make sure that nothing goes wrong..
I have also been reading more and more about how food and my fibromyalgia pain go hand in hand, so I am going to try to stay gluten and wheat free (properly) to see if it actually helps the pain.. So if I can lose weight, and get rid of some or even maybe all of the pain I have.. Well that would be a win win situation now wouldn't it..
Anyways... That's how things are as far as my weight goes..
There has been other things happening.. I have finally registered with a school to get on with my drivers license. I bought this intensive course pack that covers all the tests that I need to take before I can get my license.. It also includes 30 driving lessons, and to be able to have them all right after eachother I had to wait a tad.. So I will start with this one part the 20th of September, and the driving lessons start the 25th, and if everything goes as planned I will be able to apply to get my license by mid November :)
My birthday is also coming up.. It's a week from tomorrow.. My bff is coming to visit on Thursday and she will be staying with us until Sunday before she has to go back to Oslo.. I am really looking forward to having her here.. I have also asked her to baby sit so hubby and I can go out on Friday night.. It will be our first date in ages.. Even before the baby was born, I was too heavy and in too much pain for us to have any proper dates.. So I am really looking forward to it.
I also got an early birthday pressy from hubby :) I got a new laptop and so far I love it... I am not using it now since it is downloading and prepping all it's programs, but it should be ready soon and I can not wait to "play" with it.. It is a Samsung and apart from it being a really good laptop, it's also ttly cute hehe... I got the white one, and it is truely one of the prettiest PC's I have ever owned..
Oh and we are looking into moving again.. This time we will take our time and buy a place where we can live for years to come... I am so sick of moving...
I guess this is it for now..
Wish me luck, and I hope this time around I wont disappoint you or my self...
<3
2013/07/29
The plan!
OK, I know I said I wouldn't be posting the plan until later on, but I have it pretty much figured out - soooo I thought why not.
As I said I am planning on following Rusty Moore's the author of the fitnessblackbook.com
I have decided to just F the micro's and go for the main number which is calories - and the amount of calories I am planning to eat is 1440 calories a day. The idea is to do this: Goal Weight in Pounds x (hours working out per week + 9.5) = Calories. I have decided to put up 120lbs as my ugw and that is the number I am using to figure out the calories. I am thinking to aim to work out 2.5 hours a week.. So, 120 x (2.5+9.5) = 1440 calories, a day. (10080 a week).
I am also going to aim for a weekly count (just like seekingsomethingelse does) - instead of daily.. We all have days where we eat out, or when there is something which we can't control like birthdays ect, and with a weekly budget I think I can have a day where I can eat a tad more instead of feeling all sick and guilty cause I "ate too much"... Does it make sense?
As far as the exercise goes, I think 2,5 hours is something I can achieve, I can either divide it and do 30 mins a day, or I can do 2-3 longer sessions. I am not going to aim to work out so and so many hours a day, cause lets face it - with a kid, I never know if I have the time or the energy to devote my self to anything more.
We have decided that hubby is going to stay home on Wednesdays and use a "daddy day" after his vacation is over, so if nothing more I knowI will be able to hit the gym on Wednesdays and one day during the weekend. I am also going to focus on cardio and resistance training.
I think I will be keeping the calories to the same amount since it is what I would need to eat to maintain the weight I want to reach, but I will be changing the work-outs as I get stronger.
And at last and not least, I think I am going to put my scale away and only weigh-in every two weeks. Do a body scan once a month - and also take my measurements every two months. I feel like I am becoming more and more depressed every time I step on the scale - it's dictating my mood. I still want to have control over the numbers, so I think sticking to spesific weigh-in, measurement days will do that.
Now that this is out of the way, I thought I would mention something even more personal. Tomorrow is our 2nd wedding anniversary.. Can you believe how fast time has gone by???
Here are a few pictures from our day ( I will have to remove them later as a promise to hubby as always, but yeah)
Last Tuesday was also a special day for us. My son turned 8 months... I still have a hard time believing how fast he is growing. Last week I gave him a haircut cause his hair was so long it kept getting in his eyes, annoying him. He looks so much older after his cut (that's what I think, but no one agrees with me hehe).. Anyways, here is a picture from my little sunshine.. (Everyone says he looks like me eventhough he has his daddy's eye and hair color, what do you guys think?)
Anyways, I guess it's time to round up this post. I hope you all have a great week ahead.
<3
As I said I am planning on following Rusty Moore's the author of the fitnessblackbook.com
I have decided to just F the micro's and go for the main number which is calories - and the amount of calories I am planning to eat is 1440 calories a day. The idea is to do this: Goal Weight in Pounds x (hours working out per week + 9.5) = Calories. I have decided to put up 120lbs as my ugw and that is the number I am using to figure out the calories. I am thinking to aim to work out 2.5 hours a week.. So, 120 x (2.5+9.5) = 1440 calories, a day. (10080 a week).
I am also going to aim for a weekly count (just like seekingsomethingelse does) - instead of daily.. We all have days where we eat out, or when there is something which we can't control like birthdays ect, and with a weekly budget I think I can have a day where I can eat a tad more instead of feeling all sick and guilty cause I "ate too much"... Does it make sense?
As far as the exercise goes, I think 2,5 hours is something I can achieve, I can either divide it and do 30 mins a day, or I can do 2-3 longer sessions. I am not going to aim to work out so and so many hours a day, cause lets face it - with a kid, I never know if I have the time or the energy to devote my self to anything more.
We have decided that hubby is going to stay home on Wednesdays and use a "daddy day" after his vacation is over, so if nothing more I knowI will be able to hit the gym on Wednesdays and one day during the weekend. I am also going to focus on cardio and resistance training.
I think I will be keeping the calories to the same amount since it is what I would need to eat to maintain the weight I want to reach, but I will be changing the work-outs as I get stronger.
And at last and not least, I think I am going to put my scale away and only weigh-in every two weeks. Do a body scan once a month - and also take my measurements every two months. I feel like I am becoming more and more depressed every time I step on the scale - it's dictating my mood. I still want to have control over the numbers, so I think sticking to spesific weigh-in, measurement days will do that.
Now that this is out of the way, I thought I would mention something even more personal. Tomorrow is our 2nd wedding anniversary.. Can you believe how fast time has gone by???
Here are a few pictures from our day ( I will have to remove them later as a promise to hubby as always, but yeah)
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Last Tuesday was also a special day for us. My son turned 8 months... I still have a hard time believing how fast he is growing. Last week I gave him a haircut cause his hair was so long it kept getting in his eyes, annoying him. He looks so much older after his cut (that's what I think, but no one agrees with me hehe).. Anyways, here is a picture from my little sunshine.. (Everyone says he looks like me eventhough he has his daddy's eye and hair color, what do you guys think?)
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Anyways, I guess it's time to round up this post. I hope you all have a great week ahead.
<3
2013/07/26
I'm so f---ing stupid!!!!
I was reading Seeking something else's post and it was so clear... I have been so stupid.. So I mean.. I got visual impact for woman by Rusty Moore, not long after I started my blog.. To be more exact in March 2011... It means I have had it for over 2 years.. During these two years.. My weight has gone up and up and up... I have reached the most horrible sickening number.. And yes.. It is about the numbers.. None of us can say it is not...
My weight today is 251lbs, or 114kg if you rather have it in kg..
This is the first time I actually admit it to someone.. I mean yeah.. The number is up there in my "weight" tab.. But no one really gets updated on those tabs... So this is it.. Me admitting how bad it has gotten is step one..
I also know why I keep stuffing my face.. I know I have a problem with the way I deal with food.. For me emotions are directly connected to food... I don't know if I have mentioned it before, but I eat when I'm happy.. I eat when I'm sad.. I eat when there is something to do.. I eat when I don't have anything to do... I eat when I don't want to eat... I eat, and eat.. and then I eat some more..
It doesn't matter how many books I read.. I many plans I make... Until I don't learn to deal with my emotions, instead of eating them, I wont be able to get rid of this weight...
Now... I am not giving up... I never give up...
I got raped when I was 10... I survived that.. I didn't give up on my life... It has been a bumpy road, yes.. But look at me now.. I have a wonderful husband and the most amazing little boy..
When my mother didn't love me.. While she still puts me down, manipulates me.. Whatever... I moved on and I survived... I have my own family now..
When my ex dumped me two weeks before I was moving to Netherlands for him, I didn't give up... I had no job, no place to live.. Nothing... But I made it...
When my step-dad was abusing me, I put on the weight to protect my self.. I always thought it would make him go away.. And it didn't... So why do I keep the weight?? ... I mean.. I don't need it anymore do I?
After everything I have been through, I can not let this one win over me.. I am much stronger than that.. But you know what?? - I'm too fucking comfortable to change... I have someone who loves me.. I have a job.. I have a home.. Why would I change???.. I never change or do something unless I have to.. I never do something for me cause it is the best for me.. I deal with things when I have to, or I deal with things when I need to do something for someone else.. My friends, my husband.. Now my son.. I do everything for them.. But I don't do it for my self..
I guess, I never learned to love my self, and do things for my self growing up... I have to learn to do things for me... I keep saying I will (remember how much I talked about it when I was pregnant??) - but the reality of it is that I'm all talk...
OK.. Let me round up this wall of text and get down to it...
My "loving mother" and my "lovely sister" are coming to stay with us (lets not get into how she mindfucked to get this to happen...... but yeah)... for a whole week... They are coming on Wednesday, and will be leaving on Tuesday the week after! So I have 5 days before they come and I need to get a kick start..
So I am going to stick to protein shakes, eggwhite omlettes, veggies, fruit and my go to WW soup...
While they are here, we will be eating out a whole lot and my plan is to stick to salads as much as possible. eat light and drink a whole lot.. And when they leave, my plan is to actually do it.. Properly... Follow Rusty's plan.. Do the cardio, do the work-outs, and do the diet... How.. I will get back to.. I am going to think it through and plan something that is OK for where I am so I don't crash and give up..
I am also going to get on the scale tomorrow morning, On Thursday morning, and then again on Wednesday after my "family" has left. I will post my fightplan (yeah fight plan I have to fight my self to actually do this), either Tuesday night or Wednesday morning.
In addition to my eating goals I also want to take more care of my self, put on some make-up, even if it's just a touch of mascara... Do something to my hair instead of just have it in a messy bun, cause I don't have time to do anything else.. And just do one small thing for my self..
I wanna round up this post by thanking each and everyone of you guys for reading my rant, and being there.. I really don't know what I would do if I didn't have this blog.. So thanks <3
Have a great weekend ladies, and wish me luck!
My weight today is 251lbs, or 114kg if you rather have it in kg..
This is the first time I actually admit it to someone.. I mean yeah.. The number is up there in my "weight" tab.. But no one really gets updated on those tabs... So this is it.. Me admitting how bad it has gotten is step one..
I also know why I keep stuffing my face.. I know I have a problem with the way I deal with food.. For me emotions are directly connected to food... I don't know if I have mentioned it before, but I eat when I'm happy.. I eat when I'm sad.. I eat when there is something to do.. I eat when I don't have anything to do... I eat when I don't want to eat... I eat, and eat.. and then I eat some more..
It doesn't matter how many books I read.. I many plans I make... Until I don't learn to deal with my emotions, instead of eating them, I wont be able to get rid of this weight...
Now... I am not giving up... I never give up...
I got raped when I was 10... I survived that.. I didn't give up on my life... It has been a bumpy road, yes.. But look at me now.. I have a wonderful husband and the most amazing little boy..
When my mother didn't love me.. While she still puts me down, manipulates me.. Whatever... I moved on and I survived... I have my own family now..
When my ex dumped me two weeks before I was moving to Netherlands for him, I didn't give up... I had no job, no place to live.. Nothing... But I made it...
When my step-dad was abusing me, I put on the weight to protect my self.. I always thought it would make him go away.. And it didn't... So why do I keep the weight?? ... I mean.. I don't need it anymore do I?
After everything I have been through, I can not let this one win over me.. I am much stronger than that.. But you know what?? - I'm too fucking comfortable to change... I have someone who loves me.. I have a job.. I have a home.. Why would I change???.. I never change or do something unless I have to.. I never do something for me cause it is the best for me.. I deal with things when I have to, or I deal with things when I need to do something for someone else.. My friends, my husband.. Now my son.. I do everything for them.. But I don't do it for my self..
I guess, I never learned to love my self, and do things for my self growing up... I have to learn to do things for me... I keep saying I will (remember how much I talked about it when I was pregnant??) - but the reality of it is that I'm all talk...
OK.. Let me round up this wall of text and get down to it...
My "loving mother" and my "lovely sister" are coming to stay with us (lets not get into how she mindfucked to get this to happen...... but yeah)... for a whole week... They are coming on Wednesday, and will be leaving on Tuesday the week after! So I have 5 days before they come and I need to get a kick start..
So I am going to stick to protein shakes, eggwhite omlettes, veggies, fruit and my go to WW soup...
While they are here, we will be eating out a whole lot and my plan is to stick to salads as much as possible. eat light and drink a whole lot.. And when they leave, my plan is to actually do it.. Properly... Follow Rusty's plan.. Do the cardio, do the work-outs, and do the diet... How.. I will get back to.. I am going to think it through and plan something that is OK for where I am so I don't crash and give up..
I am also going to get on the scale tomorrow morning, On Thursday morning, and then again on Wednesday after my "family" has left. I will post my fightplan (yeah fight plan I have to fight my self to actually do this), either Tuesday night or Wednesday morning.
In addition to my eating goals I also want to take more care of my self, put on some make-up, even if it's just a touch of mascara... Do something to my hair instead of just have it in a messy bun, cause I don't have time to do anything else.. And just do one small thing for my self..
I wanna round up this post by thanking each and everyone of you guys for reading my rant, and being there.. I really don't know what I would do if I didn't have this blog.. So thanks <3
Have a great weekend ladies, and wish me luck!
2013/07/08
2013/05/26
Up and down!
First I want to explain the weird post some of you commented. I did make the post about wanting a divorce and moving to Norway - but after TK made a comment on it I removed the post..
Having it out here made it way to real - and that is a feeling I do want to act on. My relationship is having more lows than ups lately.. I am annoyed and screaming at hubby a whole lot.. Almost everything he does bugs me - but I also know that he doesn't mean any harm - and boys will be boys.. I am also sure that the PPD is playing a good part on it all.
On the bright side - I am starting to feel better. My mood is lightning and I think the depression is over (well as over as it can be for me lol) .. Our argues have been less the last couple of days and even though he still does a bunch of stupid things (like not washing his hands before he preps the formula for the kid) I am not off the edge because of it. So this one time, it wasn't blogger being weird, I actually removed the post :) Thank you so much for caring so much.. You make me feel less lonely :)
As far as my PT plan goes, it hasn't been going so well.. It hasn't been a priority due to several things.. On other hand I have also had the chance to practice some of the PT's advice and have been able to adjust it to fit my daily rutine better. I think part of the reason why he wanted me to drink that insane amount of water is to feel more full - so what I do is that I drink a large glass of water before each meal and when ever I feel hungry before/instead of munching on something. The drinking 2 glasses of water for each cup of coffee is out - but I only drink a cup a day so I don't feel bad about it. Also instead of having half a liter of water with lemon in the morning, I just drink a large glass of water with lemon in it. Half a liter made me feel so sick and I wasn't able to take care of the baby for like 30 mins after cause I felt so sick.. And lets be honest, I can not , not focus on the baby in the early morning.
Walking for 30 mins twice a days doesn't really fit my days either. I go for a stroll with the baby almost every mid day for 1-2 hours.. So I am sticking to that instead of parting it in two small walks. But I have been thinking that the reason why he probably wants me to part them is to get more activity during the day and I rather do something else instead. I am going to get out and remove the dust from my exercise DVDs and do those, or just WiiFit on the days where I'm tire - and try to do my best to hit the gym 3 times a week. But I must say I will be happy as long as I do 30 mins of something after the kid goes to bed.
I have also made the decision of cutting down on carbs now that I am eating less and less wheat. I am thinking that let my carbs only come from fruit/veggies after lunch. If I manage to stick to it, it will down my calories a whole lot.. (I tend to have a huge carb binge around dinner time... )
I have been avoiding the scale a whole lot lately.. I have been really bloated.. After I have had the baby and got my period back.. They have been hell.. I have cramps that remind me of the early stages of the delivery.. And I bleed a whole lot.. Sorry for the TMI btw.. Anyways, I made an appointment with the midwife that I went to for my check-ups while I was pregnant and had a check up just to see that nothing was wrong, and she said that everything looked fine - that it probably was my bodies reaction to getting the periods back.. I really hope it gets better soon cause I have never ever had period like this.. Did you guys btw know that you need to do a whole lot of Kegel exercises for your womanly parts to get back in the shape after birth? lol.. She said 3 times a day - 10 mins each time... So yeah... I have been doing them, but far from that much.. So yeah, gotta work on that too.. Anyways, getting back to my point, my period should be over by Tuesday, but I am getting on the scale tomorrow and starting from there again..
I have made this reminder with reasons why I want to do this on my cell phone and I am going to revisit it and add to the reasons every time I feel week or feel like I want to quit, or binge.. I need to learn that this should not be a diet, but a life style.. Making healthy choices, having smaller portions.. Staying active every day..
I need to be off now.. I will catch up with your blogs a little later today :) Hope you are having a great weekend!
<3
Having it out here made it way to real - and that is a feeling I do want to act on. My relationship is having more lows than ups lately.. I am annoyed and screaming at hubby a whole lot.. Almost everything he does bugs me - but I also know that he doesn't mean any harm - and boys will be boys.. I am also sure that the PPD is playing a good part on it all.
On the bright side - I am starting to feel better. My mood is lightning and I think the depression is over (well as over as it can be for me lol) .. Our argues have been less the last couple of days and even though he still does a bunch of stupid things (like not washing his hands before he preps the formula for the kid) I am not off the edge because of it. So this one time, it wasn't blogger being weird, I actually removed the post :) Thank you so much for caring so much.. You make me feel less lonely :)
As far as my PT plan goes, it hasn't been going so well.. It hasn't been a priority due to several things.. On other hand I have also had the chance to practice some of the PT's advice and have been able to adjust it to fit my daily rutine better. I think part of the reason why he wanted me to drink that insane amount of water is to feel more full - so what I do is that I drink a large glass of water before each meal and when ever I feel hungry before/instead of munching on something. The drinking 2 glasses of water for each cup of coffee is out - but I only drink a cup a day so I don't feel bad about it. Also instead of having half a liter of water with lemon in the morning, I just drink a large glass of water with lemon in it. Half a liter made me feel so sick and I wasn't able to take care of the baby for like 30 mins after cause I felt so sick.. And lets be honest, I can not , not focus on the baby in the early morning.
Walking for 30 mins twice a days doesn't really fit my days either. I go for a stroll with the baby almost every mid day for 1-2 hours.. So I am sticking to that instead of parting it in two small walks. But I have been thinking that the reason why he probably wants me to part them is to get more activity during the day and I rather do something else instead. I am going to get out and remove the dust from my exercise DVDs and do those, or just WiiFit on the days where I'm tire - and try to do my best to hit the gym 3 times a week. But I must say I will be happy as long as I do 30 mins of something after the kid goes to bed.
I have also made the decision of cutting down on carbs now that I am eating less and less wheat. I am thinking that let my carbs only come from fruit/veggies after lunch. If I manage to stick to it, it will down my calories a whole lot.. (I tend to have a huge carb binge around dinner time... )
I have been avoiding the scale a whole lot lately.. I have been really bloated.. After I have had the baby and got my period back.. They have been hell.. I have cramps that remind me of the early stages of the delivery.. And I bleed a whole lot.. Sorry for the TMI btw.. Anyways, I made an appointment with the midwife that I went to for my check-ups while I was pregnant and had a check up just to see that nothing was wrong, and she said that everything looked fine - that it probably was my bodies reaction to getting the periods back.. I really hope it gets better soon cause I have never ever had period like this.. Did you guys btw know that you need to do a whole lot of Kegel exercises for your womanly parts to get back in the shape after birth? lol.. She said 3 times a day - 10 mins each time... So yeah... I have been doing them, but far from that much.. So yeah, gotta work on that too.. Anyways, getting back to my point, my period should be over by Tuesday, but I am getting on the scale tomorrow and starting from there again..
I have made this reminder with reasons why I want to do this on my cell phone and I am going to revisit it and add to the reasons every time I feel week or feel like I want to quit, or binge.. I need to learn that this should not be a diet, but a life style.. Making healthy choices, having smaller portions.. Staying active every day..
I need to be off now.. I will catch up with your blogs a little later today :) Hope you are having a great weekend!
<3
2013/03/07
Life!
So I haven't been making proper posts in ages.. Things have been hard.. I went bananas with my eats and have gained a whole lot.. I had a huge fight with hubby and didn't talk to him for days (ex. for the things that were regarding the kid), I have cut out my sisters from my life.. Mjeh.. Lets go into details..
I was in a funk for a long while.. And being an emotional eater - I just couldn't take back control over my eats and my life.. And as if everything wasn't hard enough we decided to take a roadtrip to Oslo for my bffs daughters baptism.. I didn't want to take the trip since we would have to leave on the same day that my son was to have his first vaccines.. But she kept telling me nothing would happen, and I trusted her opinion since she has two kids.. I checked with my sons doc and she said it was OK.. The drive takes 6-7 hours, and guess what.. We weren't even half way before my son started getting really sick.. He had a really high fever and was just screaming in pain... Lets just say by the time we had that stop for me to try to see if I can calm him down.. Feed and change him.. I was shivering from stress.. When we got back in the car and he fell sleep I just broke down.. I was so stressed out that I couldn't stop my tears or to shiver...
That day hadn't started well either.. I had told my mother that we were taking the trip (it takes her 3-4 hours drive to Oslo from where she lives) and I told her that she could come and visit us if she wants to.. She is in Turkey now and she is staying there for two months - so it was her last chance to see her grandson.. She decided on her own to bring one of my sisters (the middle one) and of course that turned into a shitty drama.. It ended up with her being a F--ing liar saying my mom hadn't told her about the trip, and that she couldn't come.. At the same time she called my mother saying I had called her and yelled at her saying I didn't want her there.. And then she drags our other sister (the youngest one) into the shit and she starts calling for things.. It was the last drop for me and I just had enough.. So I just blocked them from Facebook.. And have stopped replying to their calls/msg ect.. I just can't take it anymore..
Anywho.. That was the start of the day.. The kid burning up with fever was the next.. But at the end we finally arrived and crashed.. I am ashamed to say this whole episode ended up with me going into a binge mode.. I stuffed my face for a week.. I cried.. I ate.. I cried more and I ate more..
Finally I started feeling better and I decided I would get my shit together and just stop.. It was a sunny day (the first one in God knows how long).. So we ran some errands and by the end of the day I wanted one of those small icecream cones from Burger king.. And the hubby decided he is going to be "funny" and said "Oh so you wont stop your eating before you have given all our kids diabetes"... He was of course refering to the gestational diabetes.. And it was a low blow.. I was in shock.. You guys know how hard the whole shit was for me.. I was feeling so bad.. he know how hard it had been for me.. The second it was out of his mouth he realized what he had said.. But it was too late then.. He kept saying that it wasn't what he ment.. And that he loved me - that he was trying to take care of me.. But it was just not OK.. I was crushed.. (I still am when I think of it)...
I know that menn are stupid.. That they say things without thinking.. So I decided to let it be after a couple of days.. I know he loves me and that he is very sorry.. But I have never been this hurt.... Say what ever the fuck you want about me.. But don't drag my kid into it... He is the one good thing about me that I know I can not ruin...
Anyways.. I am "ok" now.. My husband is away on the trip I told you guys about with his work.. And of course my bff couldn't come and stay with me as planned.. Both her kids got a really bad case of flu right before the trip so she had to cencel it.. He will be back on Monday.. So lets hope I can manage this and that we will be Ok...
Other than those things I am doing OK.. I started over this Monday and things are OK.. I am writing down everything I am eating - and I am starting to see where I go wrong.. I want to keep writing down things until the end of next week and then start counting calories properly.. The weight is thankfully already dropping again and I feel like I am understanding my mistakes and am making better choices each day..
I have been following the journey of the girls on Team Taralynn and I was thinking about going their cleanse but I have decided not to.. I am however going to take a note and I have a couple of changes I want to work on.. First goal is to stop using salt on my salads and veg.. The second is to make lunch the largest meal of the day.. I am starting to realize that I tend to eat too little during the day and I overeat at night.. So now I want to make sure to get a proper lunch in loaded with veg ect and to have a light dinner instead..
Anyways.. That is about it from me for now...
<3
Edit: Oh I forgot to say.. I finally got the rest of the money from the house they sold for me back in Iran and I have decided I am gonna put aside some of it and use to get me something good as a reward when I reach my first goal weight.. I am thinking about a Nike fuel band but I dunno yet :)
I was in a funk for a long while.. And being an emotional eater - I just couldn't take back control over my eats and my life.. And as if everything wasn't hard enough we decided to take a roadtrip to Oslo for my bffs daughters baptism.. I didn't want to take the trip since we would have to leave on the same day that my son was to have his first vaccines.. But she kept telling me nothing would happen, and I trusted her opinion since she has two kids.. I checked with my sons doc and she said it was OK.. The drive takes 6-7 hours, and guess what.. We weren't even half way before my son started getting really sick.. He had a really high fever and was just screaming in pain... Lets just say by the time we had that stop for me to try to see if I can calm him down.. Feed and change him.. I was shivering from stress.. When we got back in the car and he fell sleep I just broke down.. I was so stressed out that I couldn't stop my tears or to shiver...
That day hadn't started well either.. I had told my mother that we were taking the trip (it takes her 3-4 hours drive to Oslo from where she lives) and I told her that she could come and visit us if she wants to.. She is in Turkey now and she is staying there for two months - so it was her last chance to see her grandson.. She decided on her own to bring one of my sisters (the middle one) and of course that turned into a shitty drama.. It ended up with her being a F--ing liar saying my mom hadn't told her about the trip, and that she couldn't come.. At the same time she called my mother saying I had called her and yelled at her saying I didn't want her there.. And then she drags our other sister (the youngest one) into the shit and she starts calling for things.. It was the last drop for me and I just had enough.. So I just blocked them from Facebook.. And have stopped replying to their calls/msg ect.. I just can't take it anymore..
Anywho.. That was the start of the day.. The kid burning up with fever was the next.. But at the end we finally arrived and crashed.. I am ashamed to say this whole episode ended up with me going into a binge mode.. I stuffed my face for a week.. I cried.. I ate.. I cried more and I ate more..
Finally I started feeling better and I decided I would get my shit together and just stop.. It was a sunny day (the first one in God knows how long).. So we ran some errands and by the end of the day I wanted one of those small icecream cones from Burger king.. And the hubby decided he is going to be "funny" and said "Oh so you wont stop your eating before you have given all our kids diabetes"... He was of course refering to the gestational diabetes.. And it was a low blow.. I was in shock.. You guys know how hard the whole shit was for me.. I was feeling so bad.. he know how hard it had been for me.. The second it was out of his mouth he realized what he had said.. But it was too late then.. He kept saying that it wasn't what he ment.. And that he loved me - that he was trying to take care of me.. But it was just not OK.. I was crushed.. (I still am when I think of it)...
I know that menn are stupid.. That they say things without thinking.. So I decided to let it be after a couple of days.. I know he loves me and that he is very sorry.. But I have never been this hurt.... Say what ever the fuck you want about me.. But don't drag my kid into it... He is the one good thing about me that I know I can not ruin...
Anyways.. I am "ok" now.. My husband is away on the trip I told you guys about with his work.. And of course my bff couldn't come and stay with me as planned.. Both her kids got a really bad case of flu right before the trip so she had to cencel it.. He will be back on Monday.. So lets hope I can manage this and that we will be Ok...
Other than those things I am doing OK.. I started over this Monday and things are OK.. I am writing down everything I am eating - and I am starting to see where I go wrong.. I want to keep writing down things until the end of next week and then start counting calories properly.. The weight is thankfully already dropping again and I feel like I am understanding my mistakes and am making better choices each day..
I have been following the journey of the girls on Team Taralynn and I was thinking about going their cleanse but I have decided not to.. I am however going to take a note and I have a couple of changes I want to work on.. First goal is to stop using salt on my salads and veg.. The second is to make lunch the largest meal of the day.. I am starting to realize that I tend to eat too little during the day and I overeat at night.. So now I want to make sure to get a proper lunch in loaded with veg ect and to have a light dinner instead..
Anyways.. That is about it from me for now...
<3
Edit: Oh I forgot to say.. I finally got the rest of the money from the house they sold for me back in Iran and I have decided I am gonna put aside some of it and use to get me something good as a reward when I reach my first goal weight.. I am thinking about a Nike fuel band but I dunno yet :)
2013/01/22
It's not easy...
Being a mother is proving to be much harder than I thought it could be..
I have been been crying pretty much nonestop for the last two days.. I have been trying to cheer my self up - but it lasts for couple of hours before I'm crying again...
So apparently I do not produce enough milk to keep the kid full.. He has been sick, but even after he got better he has been screaming and crying sooo much.. He wanted to feed almost every hour and he never seemed full.. So yesterday we had his 2 months check-up and he weighs around couple of weeks under his age, this means he should weigh a pound more than what he does now..
I had thought about talking to the nurse about giving him some formula - but I never even got the chance to talk to her about it.. We are to give him formula now.. I have tried to breast feed him a little too, and I tried to pump abit today, but the amount of milk is way to little...
Who knew I would be crying over a lost pound. instead of a gained pound??
Anyways.. He doesn't like the bottle.. So feeding him is a huge argument.. He cries and screams for like 30 mins before he takes the bottle.. Which means I cry even more... I am feeling so bad and guilty ALL the time... I feel like a fail.. I feel like I am not what the kid needs...
I know I am being silly... I know this is something that happenes with a whole lot of people - and I know having fibromyalgia means I would probably would have this problem... But still I feel horrible...
I really need to see the good things in this..
I guess this means that he will not be hungry ..
He will sleep better..
I can eat or not eat what ever I want...
I can start working out not having to worry about the lactic acid...
Hubby can feed him on the nights where he doesn't have to go to work..
I can drink alcohol...
My boobs will hopefully shrink back (which means I'll lose atleast 2 pounds) and I can wear normal bras again..
*sigh*
I am so sorry about this messy post.. I just need to clear my head..
My husband has been wonderful though.. He stayed home today from work (I guess he didn't feel like going since I have pretty much been crying all night)... He has been up with the kid so I have gotten some sleep.. Not much.. But way more than before.. And he is with him now so I can have some alone time.. I am lucky to have his as my husband.. I don't think I could do any of this without his support..
My head is killing me.. I think I should eat something and drink more water.. Again.. sorry for the messy post..
I have been been crying pretty much nonestop for the last two days.. I have been trying to cheer my self up - but it lasts for couple of hours before I'm crying again...
So apparently I do not produce enough milk to keep the kid full.. He has been sick, but even after he got better he has been screaming and crying sooo much.. He wanted to feed almost every hour and he never seemed full.. So yesterday we had his 2 months check-up and he weighs around couple of weeks under his age, this means he should weigh a pound more than what he does now..
I had thought about talking to the nurse about giving him some formula - but I never even got the chance to talk to her about it.. We are to give him formula now.. I have tried to breast feed him a little too, and I tried to pump abit today, but the amount of milk is way to little...
Who knew I would be crying over a lost pound. instead of a gained pound??
Anyways.. He doesn't like the bottle.. So feeding him is a huge argument.. He cries and screams for like 30 mins before he takes the bottle.. Which means I cry even more... I am feeling so bad and guilty ALL the time... I feel like a fail.. I feel like I am not what the kid needs...
I know I am being silly... I know this is something that happenes with a whole lot of people - and I know having fibromyalgia means I would probably would have this problem... But still I feel horrible...
I really need to see the good things in this..
I guess this means that he will not be hungry ..
He will sleep better..
I can eat or not eat what ever I want...
I can start working out not having to worry about the lactic acid...
Hubby can feed him on the nights where he doesn't have to go to work..
I can drink alcohol...
My boobs will hopefully shrink back (which means I'll lose atleast 2 pounds) and I can wear normal bras again..
*sigh*
I am so sorry about this messy post.. I just need to clear my head..
My husband has been wonderful though.. He stayed home today from work (I guess he didn't feel like going since I have pretty much been crying all night)... He has been up with the kid so I have gotten some sleep.. Not much.. But way more than before.. And he is with him now so I can have some alone time.. I am lucky to have his as my husband.. I don't think I could do any of this without his support..
My head is killing me.. I think I should eat something and drink more water.. Again.. sorry for the messy post..
2012/08/01
Back :)
Our trip to Copenhagen was lovely. We didn't have much luck with the weather.. It was raining ALOT and we had several hours of thunderstorm. But we went out for couple of romantic dinners and we had time to just be.
It's so weird, we have been married for a year, and our wedding day was on our one year anniversary.. So we are still a "new" couple... But for me it feels like we have been together for years.
A whole lot of people have made comments about how things have been going too fast with us.. But who cares??? When it feels right - and you know that it is right.. You just know it. We have bad days, every couple does - but I am so lucky to say that I feel happy with my relationship at some point of the day every single day. On the days I feel horrible.. When I feel nothing is right - and that I feel like I can never ever be happy in my own skin, it is such a blessing to have this one thing in my life that makes me happy.
Anywho :)
Just wanted to drop by and say hi. And I am off to finish getting updated on your blogs.
<3
It's so weird, we have been married for a year, and our wedding day was on our one year anniversary.. So we are still a "new" couple... But for me it feels like we have been together for years.
A whole lot of people have made comments about how things have been going too fast with us.. But who cares??? When it feels right - and you know that it is right.. You just know it. We have bad days, every couple does - but I am so lucky to say that I feel happy with my relationship at some point of the day every single day. On the days I feel horrible.. When I feel nothing is right - and that I feel like I can never ever be happy in my own skin, it is such a blessing to have this one thing in my life that makes me happy.
Anywho :)
Just wanted to drop by and say hi. And I am off to finish getting updated on your blogs.
<3
2012/01/15
No internet!
What happens when you let a man be in charge of one thing in your home? Well - you come home Friday to no internet because he forgot to call the company..
Ah well - thank god to my cellphone i have been able to get online, and track - and so on..
Just wanted to get on to say! thank you so much for all your comments.. I am so so so glad I sticked to it - I have been eating a tad more today duo to the painkillers - but I am waaaay under my weekly calorie budget! AND the scale did move! So this weeks loss is almost 6 lbs :) And I couldn't be happier.. I doubt it is all water weight since it didn't just get off in one or two days..
Hope you all having a great weekend :)
<3
Ah well - thank god to my cellphone i have been able to get online, and track - and so on..
Just wanted to get on to say! thank you so much for all your comments.. I am so so so glad I sticked to it - I have been eating a tad more today duo to the painkillers - but I am waaaay under my weekly calorie budget! AND the scale did move! So this weeks loss is almost 6 lbs :) And I couldn't be happier.. I doubt it is all water weight since it didn't just get off in one or two days..
Hope you all having a great weekend :)
<3
2012/01/02
Day2..
I feel like I am going to pass out or something.. When will this fucking cold be done.. I have been sick for almost 3 weeks now :S - Today I am at work - and I am thanking God for it being a slow day.. I feel horrible... This week I am only supposed to work 2 days - but I am not sure if I will come to work tomorrow and on Wednesday..
Do you guys think I might feel better if I "sweat it out" at the gym.. I mean I can't really breath.. Is that even "healthy" ?
Anywho..
@Miranda: Ya my hubby need to gain weight.. A bunch of it.. He - his mom- his grandpa and so on - they all have really fast metabolism which means they have a really hard time to gain weight - until they are like 40 ish .. His highest weight was like 158 lbs (that was when he was training ALOT) - and now he is down to 143 ish - and he is like 6" tall so ya.. He is very very very skinny now.. His BMI is now like 19 ish and he looks like he is made of skin and bones... So he needs to gain some weight.. He says it tok him a year of hard training to get up to 158... So this will be intressting lol..
I beg to God that our kids get his skinny genes... and not my fatty ones lol
@Sammy: I <3 you missy ^^ Just sayin ^^
I'm gonna finish this post now.. Too :S to focus lol
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Do you guys think I might feel better if I "sweat it out" at the gym.. I mean I can't really breath.. Is that even "healthy" ?
Anywho..
@Miranda: Ya my hubby need to gain weight.. A bunch of it.. He - his mom- his grandpa and so on - they all have really fast metabolism which means they have a really hard time to gain weight - until they are like 40 ish .. His highest weight was like 158 lbs (that was when he was training ALOT) - and now he is down to 143 ish - and he is like 6" tall so ya.. He is very very very skinny now.. His BMI is now like 19 ish and he looks like he is made of skin and bones... So he needs to gain some weight.. He says it tok him a year of hard training to get up to 158... So this will be intressting lol..
I beg to God that our kids get his skinny genes... and not my fatty ones lol
@Sammy: I <3 you missy ^^ Just sayin ^^
I'm gonna finish this post now.. Too :S to focus lol
<3
2011/08/16
Lunch break post :)
Today has been sort of busy at work. The fact that I have been very tired is probably also a factor in why I haven't been on much hehe.
I didn't get up on time for the Wii this morning. We got to bed soo late.. My hubby was being a brat playing on the wii for hours lol.. He is sort of cute this way and his bratness (if that is a word but you know what I mean) is one of the reasons why I love him.. But he had today off-- and I didn't and around 4 hours of sleep is just a little too little for me. He is the type of person that falls sleep before his head hits the pillow.. While I have trouble getting sleep and I am a very light sleeper. Anyways.. I am going to do the program tonight.
Our gym hours are still very crappy until end of this month- I dunno if you remember me posting about their changed summer time hours.. By the time we are home and on our way barely 30 mins of their opening hours is left.. Hubby and I drive together to/from work since he works outside the city he can drive me to work- it is a 5 mins ish detour. But that means that I always have to wait for him after work- and that we get home late cause of the rush hours. We are going to change to a different one as soon our contract runs our. But that is still months away. Mine runs out around end of March I think and his close to end of this year.
We are also looking to buy a new bigger flat now. We saw this one close to the park where we got married, and I really loved it. We gonna try and see if we can get a viewing of the place today. Here are some pictures from the add. Some painting- and our own furniture would make it really nice. The balcony is HUGE!! its almost as big as my old flat in Oslo lol.. And the park being walking distance from it is very very nice. The area is also close to very nice school and so on for the future plans. So keep them crossed :)
Meh, lunch break was over 15 mins ago and I sort of got distracted.
Right.. So I got on the scale today. And I am 6.1 lbs down since we got back from the honeymoon. So far so good.. 124 to go lol :P I have changed my goal weight again.. I keep having trouble deciding
I keep losing track of my thought. It is really busy at work today. I guess I will just publish this post and see if I can make one later..
<3
I didn't get up on time for the Wii this morning. We got to bed soo late.. My hubby was being a brat playing on the wii for hours lol.. He is sort of cute this way and his bratness (if that is a word but you know what I mean) is one of the reasons why I love him.. But he had today off-- and I didn't and around 4 hours of sleep is just a little too little for me. He is the type of person that falls sleep before his head hits the pillow.. While I have trouble getting sleep and I am a very light sleeper. Anyways.. I am going to do the program tonight.
Our gym hours are still very crappy until end of this month- I dunno if you remember me posting about their changed summer time hours.. By the time we are home and on our way barely 30 mins of their opening hours is left.. Hubby and I drive together to/from work since he works outside the city he can drive me to work- it is a 5 mins ish detour. But that means that I always have to wait for him after work- and that we get home late cause of the rush hours. We are going to change to a different one as soon our contract runs our. But that is still months away. Mine runs out around end of March I think and his close to end of this year.
We are also looking to buy a new bigger flat now. We saw this one close to the park where we got married, and I really loved it. We gonna try and see if we can get a viewing of the place today. Here are some pictures from the add. Some painting- and our own furniture would make it really nice. The balcony is HUGE!! its almost as big as my old flat in Oslo lol.. And the park being walking distance from it is very very nice. The area is also close to very nice school and so on for the future plans. So keep them crossed :)
Meh, lunch break was over 15 mins ago and I sort of got distracted.
Right.. So I got on the scale today. And I am 6.1 lbs down since we got back from the honeymoon. So far so good.. 124 to go lol :P I have changed my goal weight again.. I keep having trouble deciding
I keep losing track of my thought. It is really busy at work today. I guess I will just publish this post and see if I can make one later..
<3
2011/08/14
The wedding, honeymoon and all that jazz....
The wedding went OK .. I say OK because a whole bunch of things went wrong hehehe 
I love my hubby, and I must say I will never ever ever do this again lol... I know many brides say they do.. But I don't.. I am taking it for what it was.. Gonna save the best of it and enjoy the rest of my life with my Mr. Blue Eyes (That's what I often call my hubby ^^).. I btw love to call him my husband ..
Lets start with the start.. One of my bridesmaids managed to be like 15 mins late even when she knew we were waiting for her in the limo.. (Don't ask me why.. *sigh*)... So we were late for church... When we got there, one of our friends came out with our flowers and my bouquet's flowers were kind of... Well lets just say they weren't fresh... And looked half brown... *sigh*
The musician .. Well I think he was "in the zone" cause he sort of kept playing :P He played for like 10 minutes after I was at the alter lol.. Kind of funny but ya.. After all that we went to the port to take some pictures.. I hope they got nice, cause we couldn't go where we had planned to go and had to hit another place and we sort of didn't have much room to take different pictures.. The wind was REALLY harsh so it kind of messed my hair lol
We went to the park where we were to meet the others. And it started raining lol... We got to the gazibo just to realise that the people that were taking care of it hadn't done their job. They were supposed to serve people drinks and fruit while they were waiting for us.. But they didn't start serving before we got there.. Anywhoo :P
The dinner was fine.. Good food.. But I had some issues with my dress.. The front kept gliding down (I had no bra since it has inner lining) so after a while I asked got helped by my bridesmaids and got a bra on.. It didn't helped much but ya... hehehe.. Mid dinner the sun came out.. So after the desert we went out and tok some more pictures.. Family pics and so on..
Then the DJ came.. And no one would dance lol .. I mean OMG.. This is the problem with nordic people.. They can not let lose unless they are drunk.. And we didn't serve alcohol with dinner..
The servers were I dunno... They didn't do much of what we had asked.. The bar that was supposed to be open after the dinner weren't.. If it wasn't for our toastmaster nothing would be in time... He did an amazing job... Anywhoo.. They were supposed to serve drinks all night.. But no.. Almost by end of the night.. Someone told me they were taking money to serve at the bar :S -- They were only to do that for the alcohol not anything else...
They also were late serving our cake.. And then the most horrid thing happened.. They put a fucking firework thing on top of my beautiful cake when they were taking it out.. I felt my tummy turn when I saw it... Who the fuck does that?? It was not fucking 4th of July.... My BFF saw my face and got rid of it as soon as they got the cake on the table.. But it is on film for the rest of our lives .. lol .. Look...
And those girls in the picture are the "smart" ones who put the freaking thing on top of my cake... *Sigh*.. Ah well.. Anyways.. Long story short.. I am glad I have an amazing husband hehe and yes I did have a good time and I am glad we are done hehe :)
The honeymoon was nice too. I was disappointed over Rome tbh.. The city was dirty, the people weren't what you would call friendly and everything was overpriced.. We saw everything that was to see but most of our time was spent being honeymooners . We were in Rome for 5 nights and then we tried to get to Barcelona.. And yes I say try cause that is what it was..
We got to the airport 2 hours early and when we wanted to check in we were told that the flight was overbooked and they couldn't get us on it...... The moron behind the desk couldn't say if we would get on the next flight either cause that too was overbooked.. Apparently the italian airline has a habit of overbooking all it's flights cause as they put it "it is legal" ... I mean WTF.... And then the moron managed to say "oh but we will make sure that you can stay here for the night" WTF.... We didn't spend that much money to stay at the airport.. And yes ladies.. You are right.. I flipped... I really flipped.. I was so pissed I could hit someone... Those tickets weren't exactly cheap either.. And they say " we will make sure that you have a place to stay" .. Fuck off.. lol Right.. After I screamed at a her.. and her manager. and her managers manager.. We got on the plane at the last minute... *Sigh*
I loved Barcelona... The city was clean.. And people much more friendly. The shopping scene rocked.. And we had loads of fun.. I bought a few things ... This really cute purse I love.. Which isn't something I would normally buy.. (I am more of a black purse kind of girl)... It is from the brand Desigual.. I also bought something else I have been wanting for ages.. It is an IPL thingi.. And it is sort of a bright light which makes the hairs on the body go on this sleep mode- so as long as you keep using it you will be hairfree.. We bought it for almost couple of hundred dollars less than what it costs here.
Anyways.. We had a whole lot of fun, ate mostly good food.. But no one of us is used to high carb food so we have gained a whole bunch. Well he hasn't gained but he has this pouch lol.. We are going back to the gym tomorrow.. I have already lost 4 lbs of the many gained pounds eating our normal diet since yesterday... Oh and girls I am sorry to say, but I don't think I can post that many pics.. I talked to my hubby and he agreed to the one I posted but he isn't really keen on me posting pics on this blog.. I will have to remove that one after a while too. I will see what to do :)
Anyways.. I have to be off now.. Tomorrow is a work day- working only 4 days this week since we are heading to Germany on Friday for the weekend. We are visiting my fathers sister and mum there.. I don't really have a relationship with them, but she is getting really old so it might be my last chance to see her. I will make a post tomorrow with the new gym/diet plan..
Oh and I want to say welcome to the new followers, if I am not following your blog and you want me to, leave me a comment with your blog link and I will :)
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