What do you do??

What do you do when the one you love looks you in the eyes.. With tears and says.. "Please eat.. For me.. "
You eat then..
Ofc it resulted in me purging what I had eaten.. But I feel horrid.. More fat than ever.. And I dont know if you understand it.. Dirty..

I hate this.. Why can't he just understand.. I can not..

Im so sorry for bein a huge fail and not being able to even go all way for a one day fast.. Im so sorry...