Keto, WL and rewards...

I started this post yesterday but I never got to actually finishing it up and publish it... So here it goes!

I have had a really rough night... Have been having horrible "dreams" and I am just.. Well.. I am begging God to give me this button where I could just turn off my brain..

I am staying off work today.. I just can not handle people.. Not right away anyways.. But if I can get a hold of my brain later today we are going to have a look at this place... It has 4 bedrooms - a nice open kitchen (I prefer them with a proper wall and door but this one looks nice).. A good size laundry room where I think it should be possible to get in a shower cabinet - a good bathroom, and just big enough outside area... Which is pretty private and looks nice :).. Oh and a walk-in closet with an actual window! How often do you see that? - Anyways the broker working on it is a proper asshole.. He is rude and unprofessional... Hopefully the place is as good as the pictures so it's worth the hassle and having to deal with the broker is worth it..

I have also had a bad day on keto.. And I have been thinking (specially after day 11 on the challenge) that a reward system should be good to have in-place.

It's Monday morning, and a great day to restart and have another chance of making it right.. So this is what I am putting up for now..

If I stay true to my diet, and don't give into anything else but keto until next Monday, I am going to order my self a new phone. Mine is starting to die after all the times my son has been "playing" with it, and lost it on the floor.. And I saw that if I order the new Iphone5s (I want it in gold) I will also get a Fitbit Flex since they have a campaign going on.
If I stick to the plan for another week, I am going to get a Scholl foot file. I have read a bunch of good review about it and I can not wait to try it, specially before summer.
After two weeks I am going to put up more rewards but I am going to set those up after weight goals.

Today things are a tad different.. The house I mentioned wasn't the one for us.. Lets just say it looked better on pictures than real life.. We looked at another today and we would have to spend around 1000000Sek on it to make it live-able... So we are not sure if we want to bother/risk it... So I guess we will see...

Other than that I am doing good on my diet. It is so much easier to stick to it when I am at work and busy.. So things are looking good so far :)

That's it for now ladies!

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She's alive!

I am the suckiest blogger! I just have been sucking in so many ways that I just haven't been wanting to admit it to my self...

Anyways, here is an update of how things have been since my last post..

The shrink I have been seeing has been on her holiday so I haven't seen her for a few weeks.. It has been a battle, and I am looking forward to have her back.. Unfortunately there is still a couple of weeks before I have my next appointment. So I am trying to stay as positive as possible and just wait for her to get back..

I also had a follow up with my doctor, and she had gotten the results of my blood-work back.. I had dangerously low levels of D- vitamin, and my iron levels were on the edge of also being dangerously low.. This explains why I have been so freaking tired.. I have been going to bed around 8 and never feeling fully rested regardless of the amount of sleep I have been getting.. I have also been more moody than usual (my mood has been pretty steady since I started the anti depression meds).. Anywho.. I started on the supplements today and she told I should be feeling much better in a couple of days.. She also prolonged my sick leave until end of July, which means I will keep working 50% until then. We also talked about reducing my anti depression pills to the lowest dose in June.. They don't seem to have that much of affect without the therapy, and we want to try to see if I can skip the pills all together when I get back on with my session again..

This probably doesn't make sense for those of you not living in Sweden, but this also means we can wait longer with trying to get pregnant, cause as long as I am on my sick-leave they can not reduce the amount of money I will get paid when I go on my mommy leave next time around.. If I wasn't on a sick-leave I would have to get pregnant by august to protect my mommy leave income - but now we don't have that pressure on us.. Well on me.. Cause even though I do want another kid, I am not ready for it yet. We have talked about it.. And we have decided to try for another baby somewhere around end of fall... Which would mean another baby by end of 2015..

I also got informed that I will be leaving a day earlier for our company trip in September. Me and some of my co-workers are supposed to be there and prep the tech stuff so we are ready when the rest of them arrive the day after.. Which means an extra evening in the sun! I am really looking forward to that.. It will be the first time I am away from my son since he was born, but the idea of the sun is just too tempting to pass!
I remade my chart, to wipe away the failed couple of weeks I have had behind me, and to extend it to last until around the time I am leaving for the company trip- which will be end of September..

My main goal is to lose weight (as always), but since numbers can sometimes not be what we want them to be, if I manage to shop at a "normal store" I will be happy with the results.. My plan is to follow LCHF diet, but to practice proper portion control. I keep failing with my portions and one way or another I have to get a grip and start learning how much to eat.. I will be using myfitnesspal more and if any of you has a account there and aren't my MFP friend, feel free to add me.. My username is Sheislosingit82.. Do leave me a msg saying who you are, cause there are a whole lot of weirdos who keep adding you and I really don't want a bunch of random friends there..

We are still looking after a new place, but we are taking our time until we find the perfect home. I will make sure to post a link if/when we find something :)

I guess that's it for now ladies!

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Been a while...

I have been wanting to make a post for a while but I have either been distracted having to do something, or too tired to post.. Buuuuut here it goes :)

Where to start...

I guess we can start with the therapy.. It is actually going better.. One week she wanted me to write down what I have been doing for a whole week and rate my actions 1 being me feeling horrid 10 being me feeling amazing.. The week after she asked me to think over what my week had looked like, and what I wish a perfect week would look like. And it actually made me sit down and think about how I wanted things to be. My husband and I talked about it, and we are trying to take small steps towards the "perfect week". Being able to think about it and agree that we would like our weeks look that way has been bringing us closer.

And last week, well last week we opened the "mother load" lol.. Aka we talked about my relationship with mother.. How she has been to me through the years.. We didn't really get to go into it expect from me talking about our background, but it felt soooo good to see the shrinks face when I was talking about her.. She was completely shocked, and she was nodding and shaking her head... That alone makes me really realize that our problems isn't only in my head.. We have couple of more sessions planned and then we are supposed to evaluate if I need to keep seeing her, and if I get my way we will keep at it.

My allover mood is much better.. I haven't had more than one or two episodes where I have felt really down the last weeks, and I can not remember the last time I felt this ok.. Things aren't normal, but things are OK, and it is easy to see how it is also affecting our family dynamic. We are all more relaxed, and generally happier.

As far as work and my sick leave, I have been working half days, and it is actually working fine. Today I was approached by the manager of another team in our company, about starting to do some project for her dep. and I have been wanting to work in that dep. ever since I started working for that company. So I am really looking forward to that. I am also going to have a talk to my manager on either Monday or Thursday about a raise. And this means I can push them a little further. And more money would really help right now..
I am supposed to meet this person about my leave (she works for place that pays out the money while you are on the leave). I am not looking forward to it.. I just don't want to talk to some random person about the reason why I am on the leave... Ugh...

Anywho... The reason why money would help is because we are looking into moving into a house. We are going to look at one this Sunday, and it is the first place I have seen in ages that would actually fit us, and which we could afford... I really hope the house is as good as it looks in the picture, and that there wont be a whole bunch of people bidding over what we can afford... So keep them crossed ladies.. !

As far as my weight goes, it has been going up and down, and I haven't been really watching my eats, until a week ago. I have started the low carb high fat diet again, and I am going to stay at it for now. I am down 5lbs and am looking forward to lose more.

I guess that is it for now :) Have a great weekend ladies.


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Update!

I want to first start off answering Tempest before I forget it (again :s)
- They say that when you eat too much protein the extra protein will up the insulin levels.. A LCHF diet wants you to stay around 25%.. So if you are aiming to eat around 1400-1500 calories as I do it is around 95 grams of protein. So everything over 100 grams of protein would be counted as too much protein.. (I still have a hard time wrapping my mind around that)..

Anyways as far as the diet goes I am going back on LCHF again tomorrow.. After 1,5 day on "normal" food I feel sick, bloated, out of energy and all around crappy.. There is however a couple of things I will do differently.. 1: I will not add a huge chunk of butter on each of my meals.. I mean come on.. I like butter sure, but I don't like to just have butter to have it.. It just is not normal to me.. I will try to up my fat intake as much as possible, but I am not eating butter just to eat butter!!! 2: I don't want to limit my veggies. The last week the only veggies I have had has been broccoli, mushroom, and leafy greens! Oh and I had zucchini once.. I don't mind limiting the amount of veggies I have but I really don't want to limit the kind of veggies I have.

And hay.. If I do go through another week of feeling crap then it is worth it cause I really felt good on LCHF..

Tonight however - there shall be some cake!

A day at the hospital and I sure have eaten my self out of ketosis.... The options of what you can have when you are there are very very very limited.

I don't know if I can handle another week of extreme headaches and horrible shape to go cold turkey with carbs again.. But I know for a fact that I will be limiting my carbs. Maybe I will just hop on the GI diet right away.. I dunno.. I guess I have until tomorrow to figure it out.. Right now I am kind of woozy, very very tired and just want to do nothing..

I'll update and let you know what I decided to do, and how it goes in a few days I think.

Planning ahead..

The more I learn about LCHF the more I get to understand that I am eating too much protein. The recommended amount of fat is a handful with each meal.. Even though I am loving a whole lot of things about LCHF but the amount of fat is also starting to bother me. And I know for a fact that this is not a lifestyle I want for the rest of my life. 

My goal is to stick to this diet until end of this year (I wont be as strict for Christmas dinner and such) - but after that I am need to make a change. As I have mentioned before I know for sure that I want another kid - and if everything goes well tomorrow and the doctors say that it is OK, we want to try for the next baby around next spring. This means that I can not live on a LCHF diet even if I wanted to. 

The perks of a low carb diet or lifestyle if you rather want to call it, are plenty - so after thinking a whole lot about it and talking to hubby I have decided that when 2014 is here I will start a GI diet. This diet isn't really that different from the LCHF, the main differences are that carbs are not banned.. You eat carbs, but you eat complex carbs. And you do not top everything with a handful of butter! I miss being able to eat fruit and a bunch of veggies that normal for me. I love beans, lentil based stews and soups, nuts and most of these food are too high carb for LCHF. And the GI diet is one you can actually be on while you are pregnant. This is the diet you are recommended if you have gestational diabetes. 

Anyways, I still have 1,5 months left with LCHF, but as you know I love planning ahead. 

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Recap week one!

I have had 7 full days on LCHF and let me tell you I LOVE it! After a couple of days in I did feel a whole lot of fatigue, and woke up with a horrid headache, but it seems to be easing off now. I read that it is actually a normal reaction for people like me who go pretty much cold turkey and lower their carb intake as much as I did! This week i have tried and learned. And I am understanding what works best for me.. 

So lets see how this week has gone.. 

I started this journey weighing a horrid 258lbs! This morning the scale showed 250lbs... That is a wonderful 8 lbs loss! 

Goals: Cals, 1500, Carbs 19, Fat 117, Protein 94! 

Day 1: Cals 1028, Carbs 28, Fat 66, Protein 90. Fiber 12 

Day 2: Cals 1044, Carbs 21, Fat 83, Protein 63, Fiber 3

Day 3: Cals 938, Carbs 25, Fat 63, Protein 73, Fiber 7

Day 4: Cals 1359, Carbs 18, Fat 107, Protein 93, Fiber 2

Day 5: Cals 1737, Carbs 16, Fat 131, Protein 124, Fiber 4 

Days 6: Cals 1428, Carbs 15, Fat 117, Protein 82, Fiber 6

Day 7: Cals 1466, Carbs 12, Fat 115, Protein 91, Fiber 3

And I drink around 16-20 cups of water and a bunch of tea/coffee! 

As you see I started the week eating too little (I just wasn't hungry)  - then even though I upped my cals I crashed and had too much of everything.. The last two days have been more under control. And the numbers are more where they are supposed to be. 

I still haven't started exercising.. And I probably wont be able to do it either since I have the whole hospital thing coming up this Monday. But the diet is something I can do so I am sticking to it and it will hopefully get me where I need to be. 

I hope you all have a great weekend :) 

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Too much protein!

Seems like I am eating too much protein to have the max effect from the LCHF diet. Going to try to up my fat intake and this is scaring the hell out of me cause I feel like I am already adding loads of fat to everything... 

I have also decided to start doing wiifit again - It was a very light exercise that I can easily do at home after my son goes to bed and even though it doesn't sound like much it used to up my heartbeat without being too hard on my knees and so on. I have a couple of other wii exercise games like boxing and Zumba too, so it won't be the same thing over and over. I figured if doing something fun and easy like wii will help me burn around 300+ calories in around 30 mins, I should just do it even though to many it is not proper exercise. Anyways - aiming to burn 1500 calories a week on home exercises a week. 

@tempest : they are huge low carb fans here in Sweden. They aren't for the extreme strict version but a whole lot of doctors and so on are recommending people to eat more and more GI foods. There are even really good GI frozen microwave meals with low sodium that are being sold cheaper than the normal ones for those who need easy options. 

Here the kids are fed at school ect and now they are even changing their old "plate method " aka 1/3 veggies meat carb to serving more GI food. Most kinder gardens also have their own chef and focus on locally produced, Eco friendly products - and the ones that do the best job with all it including teaching kids about recycling and proper food and so on get what is called a green flag .. :) which it's the ultimate seal of approval from a whole lot of parents! 

I follow lovehealthlifts blog on tumblr :) her blog is the one that inspired me to give LCHF a proper go!! She actually mentions my tumblr blog on her keto guide! 

It went fine!

Thanks for your support last night.. It went fine :)
I ate some roasted chicken and had some more water and went to bed. So that bump is over and I am so glad I remembered that I am on a LCHF diet and that means it is actually OK to eat something when I need something to munch on as long as it's not carby.

Today I woke up with a fever so my husband stayed home to take care of my son. They went out for a play date and I have had some alone time. Time alone means I can actually think without having to think about everyone else. Anyways I was thinking that one of the reasons why I was crashing yesterday is because I didn't plan my meals better. So I have decided to focus on having 3 proper meals a day. This way I will get full and it will also prevent all the random small snacking.

The other mistake I made was that I didn't drink enough water. Anyways - new day, and it will go better.

I think I have reached the crash part of week one on LCHF... I am so moody and everything is horrid :s
Need to stay focused... Need to stay strong..
I will stay focused.. I will stay strong...

Remember where you want to be, and not what you might want now.. 

I just need to stick to this and focus for few more days and it will all get good again..

LCHF update..

The diet is going really well.. I have had a tad of headache, and I need to use the bathroom OFTEN, but other than that it's been going well..

I didn't manage to stay off the scale as I plann-ed and stepped on it today. I have lost almost 4lbs since I started the diet, and mind you I just started my shark week last night.. I am very happy with the numbers! But the thing I am amazed about, and it is something that I noticed already after only one day is that I am not bloated! I have had a whole lot of issues with it, but when I woke up Saturday morning, I was shocked when I looked in the mirror...

Today has been a real trial.. We had the traditional Swedish goose dinner (although we had it for lunch) at my husbands grandparents. Normally you are to have it November 10th but we had it today since they are going on vacation in a couple of days and are away for a couple of weeks. My carbs were a tad higher than I would like them to be (25grams), but I did really good and I am actually proud of my self. I skipped starters (creamy mushroom soup), I skipped most of the sides (roasted apples, apple sauce, roasted prunes, roasted potatoes), and I skipped dessert (apple cake with vanilla sauce). I also removed all the skin and fat from the meat, and only had water instead of wine. So all in all I did good, even though the carbs are higher than I would like. Who knew that I could say no to dessert...

Another thing that I am surprised by is that my calories are not as high as I thought they would be.. I set a goal of not eating over 1500 calories, but it seems like I don't have to worry about it at all even though I am adding butter/oil/mayo to almost all of my meals. (Friday 1028 cals - Saturday 1044 cals - today will be 938 cals) , and I haven't been hungry.. I am hungry as we speak but that it because the lunch I had today didn't contain enough protein, but then again it's dinner time in hour or so.

All in all this has been good. And I really believe that this is a diet that I can stick to for a good while. Hopefully I will lose some proper weight by new years and can start working out without it killing my knee's ect. By then I will have my license as well, so getting to the gym will be easier.

My next big trial will be in 3 weeks when we are celebrating my sons first birthday. I will be baking a bunch and it will be a whole lot of cake and so on around for two days. My new mantra is "Remember where you want to be and not what you think you want right now".. I guess I just need to keep remembering it, and even those days will be OK.

I hope you ladies are having a good weekend.


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LCHF!

Starting tomorrow I am going to go on LCHF diet. I am planning on staying on it until end of this year, and then see where to go from there.  I have tried Atkins before but it didn't work well for me cause I just didn't know what to eat, and as we all know a not properly planed diet is a diet you will fail on..

I've changed my goals on MFP, and it is now set to 1500 calories, 5% carbs, 25% protein and 70% fat. I know for sure that I will have a hard time upping my fat intake - but I guess this means I need to start buying "real" food instead of all the low fat stuff I normally go for. They haven't worked for me so far - so how good can they be for me anyways?

I will now be posting more pictures on the "food" blog, but I think there will be a whole lot of eggs in my upcoming future!