The scale is moving again!!! 1.3 kg/ 2.8 lbs overnight! Woooohooo!!! Can't really complain now can I?? :D This means I have 0.7/ 1.5 lbs left to actually be able to reach my valentine goal! 3 days.. 1.5 lbs! Doable?? HELL YEAH!
Ladies... I must say.. I finally feel like I can do it.. And I really think I can.. As far as the gameplan goes - It might be too extreme - so I might add some fruit or more veg to it.. I think I should really watch it so I don't go into a binge mode..
Over to the phone update.. OMG! I LOVE IT!!!!! It is so much faster than my old phone and I have found some fun apps already.. I am so loving this new phone..
As you might have noticed - I am in a much better mood today. And it is not because I actually slept to like around 12 today and feel rested.. Last night I had a proper talk with hubby about the whole baby thing. I made it very clear that I really do want one with him, but that I am not mentally ready for it. I am not ready to give up our life as a couple.. And how our sex life (or the lack of it due to all the stress we have had) was effecting me.. I also had a good cry and I felt that I finally could relax about the whole thing.
And he really understood. He understands that it's not me not wanting it - just not now.. For all I know - maybe I will feel more ready for it later this year.. I just don't want to always be on the edge and feeling guilty about it..
I feel so much more relaxed about everything now. I feel really positiv about things and I think not having the stress, the guilt and the depression will make things much easier.
I wish you girls a great weekend <3
And there .. I knew this was too good to be true.. He has in a minute managed to make me feel like a huge worthless shit piece of fat fuck... I don't care that he doesn't mean the things he says in "that" way.. He fucking should watch the crap coming out of his mouth.. I cried all the way home in the car - and now I just feel numb.. I fucking hate him for making me feel like this when I finally felt a tiny little tad better.. FFS....