I was feeling all well this morning and then I got to work and our morning meeting.
We are going to have this after-work gathering with 2 other deps - and I had said that I could stay over after work for a little while.
So today we got this email where they had put a small picture of everyone that had said they will come - and made a "get your coworks to come" mail out of it.. So during the meeting the subject of the party was brought up - and then one of the guys says "there is a girl in the picture and I have no idea who that is" - so the phone with the mail and the pic was passed to couple more and they were all "oh I have no idea who that is" - so I was like "let me see" .. And guess what... The picture was me...
And then they are like "No it's not you- you don't look like that" ...
The picture is like 7 years old and someone took it from my facebook page- but still that is what I look like.. I am the same me - with darker hair and less make up..
But wtf.. No one could see that is was me??
And I know.. Boys will be boys.. Working in a team with 11 other guys means I have to deal with a whole lot of stupid manly comments- but I mostly just ignore it and put it in the "stupid boys file" ... But this really really hurt me.. And I am really upset cause I do not understand why I am letting this get to me so much..
Is is cause I weighted less there and now I don't? - or cause they think I looked much better there... I mean who gives a fuck about what they think right?? *sigh*
I feel really bad now..
Anywho.. I'm gonna be off for now.