This weekend has been such a mess..
I had the biggest fight I have had with hubby since we got married.. It was so bad girls.. It was to a "I hate you and I knew I shouldn't have married you *tossing the ring in his face*" sort of bad.. We are OK now.. And the worst part is.. It wasn't even his fault.. I have no idea what's up with my temper lately. It's been bad. I have been pretty much on the edge and so emo.. I started crying over nothing several times yesterday. And that is so not normal for me.
Ok so I have always had sort of a bad temper- but it take a whole lot to make me explode like I did on Saturday.. And crying over nothing.. Like.. I started crying over that bird not being able to fly on "Rio" .. Wth lol...
It might have something to do with my eats.. Too much or too little of it.. Ah well that's what I think.. Not sure.. But what else could it be??
Anyways.. I have minor changes to the plan- I'm upping my intake.. There are several reasons to why I am doing this.. First of all- I binge.. Almost every single night.. I do good during the day- and then I binge cause I am really hungry... I need to eat more during the day so I don't binge at night.. And since I have not been purging for ages - that means a gain.. I am not going back to the binge/purge circle- so I have to get a hold of the binges.. And I think upping the intake is a good solution.
The other reason for it is cause I have been so worried about what will happen when I get pregnant.. And how I will emotionally react to it. And how the "none dieting" will effect my body. Will it sett me up for a huge binge session? ... So ya.. I don't want that to happen, and I think having a higher intake- will ease the shock on the body and it will ease it all.
I am also going to change how I think of exercising. At the moment I just say "fuck it", if I don't get to exercise on my exercise nights.. Now my goal is 3 exercise sessions.. Don't care if they are tree days in a row- or what ever.. I just want to do it 3 sessions of it.
I remember this friend of mine going to the gym Monday to Tuesday to get her 3 days out of the day. Then she could relax and do other things. I never understood her "reason" but I am understanding that more and more now. I am not a hardcore gym person ,so I am in no desperate need of rest days.. As long as I exercise, I will be happy.
I also want to say this again.. (I probably have before) but ya.. I love you guys for being always there- and always supporting..
Gonna end this wall of text with this picture on saw on my tumblr dashboard..