Day 18..

Day eighteen: Do you have to eat any meals with your family? Are they for or against your diet?
Hubby and I almost always have dinner together and we have meals at the same time on the weekends, unless he is away for work. I think he is neither.

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I have been very tired the last couple of days. Work has been insane thanks to server crashes and issues. I have been very stressed out at work, which is really effecting the pain in my arms..
I have also been very frustrated.. It seems like I lose a few lbs, and then I just gain it right back eventhough I am not overeating. It is very very very frustrating. And today I have been tempted to binge all day. I haven't thought.. Todays intake so far is 956 calories, and I am not planning to eat anything else today and I wont do it either.

I just don't understand how it can be. I mean.. I dunno.. And today I was thinking all sort of thought.. About how I should just quit.. But I think that is where my problem lays--doesn't it? I give up as soon as something goes wrong. I should just keep going and see how it goes.. I should stop getting on the scale everyday and let the number dictate my mood... I guess eventhough I can not stay away from the scale.. I WILL keep going and keep trying.. With this sort of dificit I will lose the weight eventually.. Wont I ?

But I think.. If I am not losing weight more properly in a couple of weeks I will go back to carb counting.. I don't care if it makes me ill.. I need to get rid of this fat.

Anywho..

Today after work we went to the flat and it is starting to shape up very very nice :) I can not wait for it to be ready so I can show you guys what a huge difference we are talking about :)

The bathroom will be done on Monday- and the painters will be done tomorrow. We will still have to wait on the doors to be painted but that isn't really something to worry about. The floors are done, they just need to put the finishing touches to it and finish up the floors in the walk-in closet.

Decided on not having a door into the kitchen. It just made sense cause of the way the floor and the wall is shaped.. The kitchen cabinets were up, and tomorrow they will come and measure the bench and order it in. It will arrive on not the coming Monday - but the one after. And it will take a couple of days to get it in place - and when that is done, we just need to put the finishing touches to the kichen wall.

Hehe, I think I am gonna shut up about now.. I might even make a V-log when we are in place dunno.. Will see..

Anyways.. I should be off. Getting pretty late and I am dead tired..



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