Oh so very tired..

Week four!
Weekly challenge: Switch up your diet. Try one fruit and one vegetable you’ve never tried before, and learn how to cook a new healthy meal.


Well this weeks challenge wont really happen. I do try new fruit and veggies often - but we are moving this weekend, and wont have a kitchen for a week ish. And I am actually quite good at cooking - so I guess this weeks challenge isn't really applying to me..


Day twenty-two: Are you generally smaller or larger than your friends?
Larger I think.. Larger than most of them.. I think that I am larger than everyone ....

Day twenty-three: Do you feel that your weight holds you back socially?
Sometimes I feel horrid about going out and dread it.. I have several times just cancelled - cause it got too much.

Day twenty-four: Is losing weight one of your top priorities in life?
This question really makes me sad.. But it is..
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Yet another Wednesday where I am skipping the weigh-in. I haven't really been eating much the last few days, but I dunno..

I'm just so tired .. We are moving this weekend, and we haven't started packing even. So I asked for Friday and next Monday off. .. Hopefully the floor guy will fix his shit today or tomorrow. This guy is chewing on my last nerve. Hubby had a "Dude you better get your act together soon, or we wont be that nice anymore" talk with him the other day. So ya..

On the bright side- the bathroom is finished! Yaay for that :) Our bathroom is small, but it is enough for now .. We are probably going to move again in 4-5 years ish.. So ya..


Anyway.. Got ttly out of focus here.. So I am going to just finish the post :)

Moving this weekend btw - Might not have internet access for few days.


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Weekend update..

Day nineteen: Have you ever lied to avoid eating something?
Yes..

Day twenty: Do you binge? How often and what triggers it?
Yes.. I dunno :S Emotions.. failing...


Day twenty-one: Do you listen to music when you work out?
Yes, I can't really focus on working out unless I have music..


This weekend has been pretty busy.. And I will be away on seminars with the next two days. I will be working some time from there - but wont be that much on.. And we are moving next weekend...

Visited the flat today. The place is starting to look amazing.. But we found some issues with part of the florr that the guy has put down. I've sent him an email about it.. So hopefully that guy will fix it soon. I have been very disappointed over the stupid carpenter.. I just hope he fixes the last things that he is supposed to and we can get rid of him..

Anywho.. I bought some diet pills - they are supposed to reduce appetite- and I am getting on them from tomorrow..

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Anywho, we had dinner with hubby's family today. And his uncles wife has gotten scary skinny. I mean.. She is ana skinny.. I hadn't seen her since our wedding, but she is now even smaller. She is very tall and she has alawys been thin, but now it's insane.. I don't think she has an ED though.. Gah.. I have no idea..

Gotta go now...

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Day 18..

Day eighteen: Do you have to eat any meals with your family? Are they for or against your diet?
Hubby and I almost always have dinner together and we have meals at the same time on the weekends, unless he is away for work. I think he is neither.

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I have been very tired the last couple of days. Work has been insane thanks to server crashes and issues. I have been very stressed out at work, which is really effecting the pain in my arms..
I have also been very frustrated.. It seems like I lose a few lbs, and then I just gain it right back eventhough I am not overeating. It is very very very frustrating. And today I have been tempted to binge all day. I haven't thought.. Todays intake so far is 956 calories, and I am not planning to eat anything else today and I wont do it either.

I just don't understand how it can be. I mean.. I dunno.. And today I was thinking all sort of thought.. About how I should just quit.. But I think that is where my problem lays--doesn't it? I give up as soon as something goes wrong. I should just keep going and see how it goes.. I should stop getting on the scale everyday and let the number dictate my mood... I guess eventhough I can not stay away from the scale.. I WILL keep going and keep trying.. With this sort of dificit I will lose the weight eventually.. Wont I ?

But I think.. If I am not losing weight more properly in a couple of weeks I will go back to carb counting.. I don't care if it makes me ill.. I need to get rid of this fat.

Anywho..

Today after work we went to the flat and it is starting to shape up very very nice :) I can not wait for it to be ready so I can show you guys what a huge difference we are talking about :)

The bathroom will be done on Monday- and the painters will be done tomorrow. We will still have to wait on the doors to be painted but that isn't really something to worry about. The floors are done, they just need to put the finishing touches to it and finish up the floors in the walk-in closet.

Decided on not having a door into the kitchen. It just made sense cause of the way the floor and the wall is shaped.. The kitchen cabinets were up, and tomorrow they will come and measure the bench and order it in. It will arrive on not the coming Monday - but the one after. And it will take a couple of days to get it in place - and when that is done, we just need to put the finishing touches to the kichen wall.

Hehe, I think I am gonna shut up about now.. I might even make a V-log when we are in place dunno.. Will see..

Anyways.. I should be off. Getting pretty late and I am dead tired..



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Day 17...

Day seventeen: Have you ever been called fat? Or skinny?
Yup.. Been called for both.. When I was at my lowest weight (which was still couple of kg's over my normal BMI range) - everyone used to say how skinny I look. I guess I have a small frame that made me look smaller?? And yes I have been called for fat way too many times.. It started with my mom calling me for it when I was pretty young.. And it happened again over the years..


I am pretty tired today.. I woke up with a very unsettles tummy. Dunno why it is acting up.. Hopefully it will be over soon. Yesterdays calories inn were 1143 - out 204 = net 939. Gym yesterday was Ok.. I pushed my self past my "omg I can not move my legs level" .. And I realized yet again how bad my shape is heh.. I guess it will get better soon.

Anywho.. Don't have much to say today..


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Day 16...

Day sixteen: Have you ever missed a work out just because you couldn’t be bothered?
Yup.. Way too many time.. Not going to try to explain even - I would only have excuses and I don't want to keep making excuses..


We had to get up way too early today too.. We had to meet the handyman at the other flat again.. Things are going way too slow in my opinion. We were planning on moving some of the stuff over this weekend. But I doubt it can happen. So it will be one big move next weekend. Bathroom seems to be shaping out pretty nice though :) So that is good.

But today we got to know that we have to change our el - central. It seems to be too old and not good enough to hold everything in the kitchen- so yet another cost.. And we couldn't change the doors - something about having to change everything.. So we are having the painters to paint those too - which is yet another cost _(costs more to paint them than to buy new ones.. WTF... ) . Not to forget about the floors in the kitchen and hallway.. Those had to be redone - cause they weren't put down properly.. So they had to put some sand - and some other plates under and then the wood-floors.. So the sand and the plates were extra cost too.. So far is this renovation is costing us around 60k US dollars and I really hope it stops there - cause we still need to fix the wardrobe in the hallway - and the walk-in closet.. *sigh*

I haven't had money worries the last year or so .. And it has been a blessing.. But I must say I am sort of worried about it now.. I am sure it will be fine - but ya.. I hate this feeling..

Anywho.. Yesterdays eats were so so so much better than the weekend. I am feeling really good about the plan. Yesterdays net was 1032 calories. I did have one mindless munching episode and I started thinking about why I was eating what I was eating.. So today my focus is to have the "talk" with my self BEFORE I start eating and not during :)

Uhm :) I guess that's it for now :)



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Day 15...

Week three!
Weekly challenge: Add an extra 30 minutes to each work out this week, or if you weren’t going to work out at all one day, work out for 30 minutes!


Day fifteen: What is your favourite kind of exercise?
Hum.. I actually like the elliptical (does it count as an exercise? ).. Easy on my joints and I guess a good overall machine..

New week- new day.. New plan:


Step one :

I am going to stop eating stupidly little for days, for then to end up in a binge mode.. I am going to keep my eats to 1200 calories and stop forcing my self to go around hungry... And then binge.. And so on..

Step two: 

I am starting an emotion journal. I am going to write down when I eat - and when I get hungry. And I want to write down WHY I feel hungry. This way I hope to learn to tell the emotional hunger apart from actual hunger.

Step three: 

I will exercise. I am not aiming for much- I want exercise 3-4 times a week - no less than 30 mins.

Step four: 

I will plan my eats- and will practise portion control. No more mindless munching..

That's it for now..


@ Nasimiyu :
The post started with a moron talking about how sick she was of MFP letting ppl with Ana on the site- and that they should be removed.
Then another moron agreed and said "I hope they learn to enjoy small part of the life and stop being vain"
That's where I flipped and said she needed a reality check.. And the ball started rolling..
Most of the comments were on how stupid that comment was - and that if MFP was to ignore people with one ED - it should ignore all of them - AKA overeating and so on..
And how fucked up it was to say something like this.. Cause if someone wants the count their intake they do it  no matter of the fact that they can use MFP.
And it rolled over to how stupid it was to not judge the ones who cheer each others bad habits on.. Saying it is ok to eat if it's off your kids plate and so on..

So ya.. It was ttly fucked up...


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Sunday update..

So I am not going to post all my eats here. And the reason is cause it takes a tad too much time :S and I am sort of lazy and don't want to spend the time on it :S Sowwy.. But I am still on MFP.. So do add me if you wanna :)

Day twelve: What are your friend’s eating habits like?
- My friends are either eat what you want sort of ppl or always on a diet sort of ppl..

Day thirteen: Is your diet ever negatively influenced by your friends? Do they pressure/tempt you to eat unhealthy food?
- YES! not as much now since I barely have any friends here lol .. But ya.. The "oh one cookie/drink wont hurt you" comment - is something that I have gotten over and over..

Day fourteen: Do you ever allow yourself a “rest day” from exercise or a “cheat day” from your diet?
- OMFG lol.. My whole life is a fucking rest/cheat day lol.. If it wasn't I would be a fatty now- would I ?? So ya.. If I get to the stage I want with my eats and exercise. I might .. But for now.. Nope..

This weekend hasn't been that great.. Well not with food.. We had the office party on Friday after work (which I had forgotten about :S ).. anywho... We had beers and Tapas, burgers... The greens that were there were either fried.. Or oiled down.. Yesterday we went out to dinner with my American co-worker. She hadn't had proper sushi here yet so that was the plan.. I had a glass of white wine and veggie/mix sushi..

anywho..

I really need to get this "plan your meals" thing - and do it properly.. :S

Gotta get off now.. Need to clean around the house for a while.. pack a bit.. And hit the gym if I can fetch it in time..


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Day 11...

Day eleven: What are your family’s eating habits like?
Depends on what you define as family.. Being Persian, EVERYTHING revolved around food. While I grew up.. Food was my safety.. My friend..
Now.. My husband and I.. I guess I can't really define our habits.. He eats enough for 2( and still weighs in no more than 140 lbs lol) and I guess.. I have my good and bad days..

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I finally bought a new HRM yesterday. a Polar FT7.. and I love it.. It is SO much easier to use than the old one.. And I just start it and when I stop it - I get my beats and my calorie burned numbers right up.. I don't have to use a freaking book to see where to click for everything I want it to do..

And since you guys think it is a good idea for me to post my eats. I am going to do it.. :) Probably a good idea to help me keep my limits. There is no easy way to do it using MFP.. even the reports suck lol :P And since most of the products I eat are nordic brands - it would be hard for you guys to see what it is anyhow. So I can just write it down here. My eats can be very very boring.. And I tend to pretty much almost eat the same stuff over and over again... So ya hehe

This week so far :

Monday

• Breakfast: Nespresson coffee (10 cal) - Actimel pro bio drink 0.1% fat (28 cal) - Green tea (0 cal)
• Lunch: medium banana (105 cal) - Coffee made from grounds (2 cal) - Green tea (0 cal)
• Dinner: Weight-watchers frozen meal, Vegetarian moussaka (274 cal)
• Snacks: Eat natural macadamia bar (156 cal), Wasa - Crisp'n Light 7 Grain, 2 slices (40 cal), Polar extreme whole wheat bun (184 cal), Philadelphia cream cheese light (56 cal), Half tomato (14 cal), 10 salt pretzel (10 cal) 

Total inn: 908 Calories - 133 gr carbs - 25 gr fat - 28 gr protein

Exercise: 90 calories burned 

Net: 818 

Tuesday: 

• Breakfast: Nespresso coffee x2 (20 cal) - medium banana (105 cal) - Green tea (0 cal)
• Lunch: Low fat butter 10 gr (28 cal) - 3% fat turkey ham 25 gr (25 cal) - Paprika 30gr (8 cal) - Pågen wholewheat bread 2 slices (144 cal)
• Dinner: Weight-watchers frozen meal, green pepper chicken (342 cal) - Rice and chicken sag (378 cal)
• Snacks: Coffee 2 cups made from grounds (4 cal) - medium banana (105 cal) - Ica - Melonmix, 180 gr (180 gr)

Total inn: 1226 calories - carbs 197 gr - fat 20 gr - Protein 66 gr

Exercise: 260 calories burned

Net: 962 

Wednesday:

• Breakfast: Actimel pro bio drink 0.1% fat (28 cal) - Fruit - Apple, Gala, Medium (72 cal)
• Lunch: Low fat butter 10 gr (28 cal) - 3% fat turkey ham 30 gr (30 cal) - Paprika 30gr (8 cal) - Pågen wholewheat bread 2 slices (144 cal) - Green tea (0 cal)
• Dinner: Subway - 6 Inch Double Turkey,Honey Oat Bread, No Cheese & honeymustard, lettuce, paprika, cucumber (379 cal)
• Snacks: 10 salt pretzel (10 cal) - medium banana (105 cal) - Coffee made from grounds (2 cal) 

Total inn: 835 calories, 156 gr carbs, 12 gr fat, 56 gr protein

Exercise: 0 (we walked around ALOT doing errands but I don't think it counts)

Net: 835

There :) I have planned my todays eats - but since it might change, I am going to post it the day after. I also drink between 2 to 3 L water a day. I chug down one liter during work days and the rest at home. 

I am finally starting to get back to the weight I was before the "week" and the TGIF episode.. So that's good..  Aiming to be under that by the end of this week. 

Anyway.. Off for now :) 

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Day 10..

Day ten: Do you eat breakfast? What do you usually have?
Yes I do now :) I normally have half a sandwich with turkey ham OR fruit (apple/banana/melon) with a small pro- bio drink. And a cup of green tea. In the weekends I like to have something different- the last couple weeks I have made scrambled eggs from 1 whole egg and 2-3 egg-whites with green bell peppers/mushrooms - something I have in the fridge. And I have a dry toast with it.

Sort of tired today... We went to the gym around 20:30 and when we got there I realised I had forgotten my shoes :S So went back home.. Picked up the shoes.. Went back to the gym.. And I REALLY didn't want to.. Got in 20 mins of exercise.. Not much to brag about.. But having been there twice this week already, is better than the 0 I have had before.. So ya.. I have NOT lost any weight this week.. I know it's only been two days.. but ya.. :( ... I guess I have to suck it up.. Stop being naggy about it, only cause I have been getting my act together for few days. And wait for the results to show.

@ Seeking Something Else : I love that you are in on the 60 day challenge :) I found it on Samzi's blog and it seemed like a blast.. I am not sure if I should post every thing I have done/plan to do after the instructions from the challenge though.. I guess as long as I actually do it, is what matters?

And Persian food is actually very yummy. It is normally stews made of chicken/meat- veggies/lentils - in a herb/tomato based sauce. We also have a bunch of good soups - and kebobs, and even lentils, vegs cooked in the rice - sort of like an Indian biryani . It is sad that now a days people seem to be adding more fat and butter to the stews and such, cause back in the days Persian food very balanced. Our food is spiced but not hot (unless you are from the south part of the country) ..

I have tried to make some of the stews meat free and they have been very very yummy :) I also tend to just bake the veg's in the oven - or add them raw in the stew, instead of frying it first (many many many ppl fry them first :S ).. Here are some pages where you can find recipes and so on, if you want to try to make some Here and here are the links..  One of my most fav dishes is this one  , it is a chicken stew on a walnut and pomegranate sauce.. It has every flavour you would want in a dish hehe... (I think atleast :P )

Didn't you live in the UK? There are some amazing Persian restaurants in London, mostly placed around Kensington..

Erm ya hehe :)

Oh and I agree with what everyone said about the gastro dude.. We all saw it coming.. I don't really feel sorry for him.. But his little girl.. She is so pretty and smart.. And I would hate to see something happen to her.. The chances of her growing up to be very overweight.. Or having an eating disorder are very very very big with a dad like that... I did ask him about his treatment before.. He did get a bunch of info and such BEFORE his surgery. And now I heard something about going to weigh-in session once a month or so.. But nothing else. As far as I know, he has been given a nutrition plan.. Following it is another story...

@ Miranda.. Sorry for being woozy.. I forgot to reply back on your comment :S
It is going to be fun with a new kitchen :) Maybe you get some fun ideas from ours when it's done ^^ (IF we ever get done :P )


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Day 9!

Day nine: What is your favourite food, healthy or unhealthy.
Oh that's a hard one.. I love food.. Cooking it .. Eating it (duuh) .. I have fav's in each food group.. But if we are going to go general.. I guess I would say "Persian food" .. if that is even a valid option :)


Anywho..

Went to the gym last night.. I think the HRM I got from my hubby is fucked.. I know it was an outdated model but it should have worked.. It said that I only burned 40 cals on the elliptical .. while the machine said 134.. So erm ya.. I think I will buy a new one.. It really made me frustrated.. And then on our way home from gym we had to do some small grocery shopping.. (bread - yoghrt- apples) .. And I wanted to try this new low fat brand of yogurt.. I looked up the cals and it was on.. The label didn't give much info. So I thought I would go on the producers site when I get home and punch the info in MFP..

Got home- got online.. And they didn't have any more details on their webpage either.. And guess who ended up having a meltdown over yogurt.. Yup you guessed right.. My poor hubby.. He was all "omg what's wrong" and there I am sobbing over how the freaking yogurt label/site didn't say how much sugar and fiber it was in the shit.. He ended up calculating it all for me (the site gave % and no number)..

Does this happen to you guys.. I tend to have meltdown while grocery shopping - if the stuff I normally have are not there.. Or if something like this happens.. And I am not sure if it's "normal" lol...

PS: @ Miranda.. They never put calories on the menus here.. I have found nutrition info on some web pages.. But that is something that rarely happens. I didn't even find the info from the TGIFridays on their Swedish site.. I got the numbers from MFP..

Anywho... This will be a LOOONNGGG day.. Gonna have a meeting from 1 - 5 :S Freaking 4 hours.. I get tired just thinking about it....


Oh and I want to say thanks for the comments yesterday.. I ttly agree.. The surgery was such a waste of tax money on this dude.. I just can not believe how fast it is backfiring.. I mean he had the surgery done mid august. and it's only been 3 months.. I don't understand how it is even possible...

Sorry for the messy post btw.. I don't seem to be able to focus on it long enough... heh,,


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Renovation madness and all that Jazz!

Day seven: Do your friends and family know you are trying to lose weight?

Well duuuhh yaa lol - they have seen me yoyo up and down for years.. Some know more than others but ya.. They do.. 

Week Two!

If you broke your unhealthy habit for one week, congratulations! Why not try two weeks?

I actually have - until today ( I will eat something as we speak) - and yup  Iwill.. 

Weekly challenge: Get organised! This week try to plan tomorrow’s meal the night before.

I am going to do that. I should really get organised. I love planning so ya I guess I will add that to the list. 

Day eight: Name 5 things you like about your body (you can do it) and the one body part you’d like to change the most.

- I love my eyes and my eye lashes.. I have big brown eyes and long lashes :) 

- I love the shape of my lips and my smile. I have pretty full lips so ya :) 

- My cheekbones.. Eventhough I am overweight now, they are still pretty much easy to notice and see. 

- My hands/nails - I dunno why.. Just do hehe :) 

- My waist - being hour glass shapes - my waist is always so much smaller than the rest of me.. 

Ooohh.. Only one part I want to change most.. Hmmm... I guess my upper arms.. I HATE how huge they are no matter how much I lose weight.. So ya.. I guess that would be one of the part I would like to change most.. 

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This weekend has been OK.. Yesterday was the first day in ages - hubby and I had time to relax together. We had to go out and do laundry and blabla.. But we had a few small hours where we got to just be and hang. 

But today is Monday and everything is on again.. We met the painters early this morning... We had to give him the last key we have to the apartment. We have 3 keys.. We gave one to the people fixing the bathroom (they say they will be done by the end of this week.. Doesn't seem so yet - but we will see) - Second one is with the guy that is fixing the floors and that is going to put up the kitchen. He is from the Co we bought the kitchen from so ya. And today we had to give the last one to the painters. The guy is going to be working late and so on - so we didn't have a choice ... 

They are really strict with how many keys you can have .. And our main key (the one to the main door of the building and so on) is just a tag.. And we can not copy that.. So ya.. I guess we just have to plan around with the guys working there when we need to get into the flat lol... 

But ya.. If everything goes as planned- The bathroom will be done by the end of this week. The flooring will also be done by then. The painters will be done by the end of next week. 

The kitchen cabinets are being delivered Friday. And they have two weeks to assemble and hang them up. The kitchen wont be done before mid December though - since they have to order the stone bench AFTER the kitchen is up.. So ya.. It will be a bless to live off microwave food for like 3 weeks hehe.. Thank God for the weight-watcher options lol.. 

And we still haven't started packing.. I guess I will have to get on with that this weekend. And pack as much as possible. 

Anywho.. Time to try to focus on work... 

I was late this morning cause of the painters.. And probably will have to work over - or during lunch.. So ya... 

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Day 6 and TGIF....

Day six: Have you ever been overweight or underweight?

Overweight.. Still am.... 

OMG.. I did so good today .. All day.. And then I met my American coworker and we went out and we had dinner at TGIFriday's... and OMFG.. I just punched in my dinner on MFP.. and the dinner was over 3k calories.. UGG... WTF..... I feel sick to my guts now... That's it.. From now on.. Dinners out = sides only.. 

Day 5!

Day five: Is there any specific event you want to lose the weight for?


Yup... I call that event life..

Short post today.. Got a bunch to do at work... and I am really tired..


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*sigh*

I have gained like 300 grams ish since my last weigh in. I guess it could be worse- but ya... I am not taking it too harsh since it was the first weigh in after my period, and I tend to gain during those days.. Next weigh in will be much better.. 

Day 3: Do you count calories? What is your daily calorie goal/allowance?

According to MFP it should be 1260. I have been eating around/under that on my good days.. (Unless you wanna have a look at the "that time of the month" days)

Anywho.. Sort of sore and cranky today.. So I'm gonna be off for now. 

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Day 2!

Day two: What is your MAIN reason for wanting to lose weight? (Be honest.)


I want to feel good in my cloths.. Be able to shop where I want and wear what I want. I want to spend my money on fashion items instead of overpriced cloths in bigger sizes. And I think losing the weight will help my fibro pain pangs..

So ya.. Yesterday after work while we were running around taking care of errands, I got a call.. The call came from the union our new flat is a part of.. And the guy was like "How is going with the accident you had in the bathroom today- we have had to close down the water for the radiators and we wonder if we can turn it on again" .. And I was like "wwoooooootttttt are you talking about" ..

So apparently the guy that was taking out the floors in the bathroom had hit a pipe.. The pipe leading to the whole buildings radiator system.. So they had to shut down the water to it - and then have the plumber come and patch it right away.. BUT apparently there had been water all over the bathroom for around an hour..

Lucky:  it was in the bathroom and they could drain it.. Unlucky: it happened AFTER they had removed the floors the the people living in the floor under us might have a leak...

So today we have been up since like 6... And been over at the other place since 7.. Talked to the plumber and the contractor... And so on.. And we met the guy that is going to do the painting of the walls and floors for us.

Work started at 8 and I am soo soo tired .. hehe

Buuuutt! not to worry.. I has coffee!! I has tea.. And I shall survive.. hehehe

I am already half way with the intuitive eating book. And it makes so much sense. I am going to finish it up and do my research on it and most likely give it a shot from the new year.

I don't want to start yet another project at the moment with everything that is going on.. So ya.. I think it is smart to wait..

@ Miranda & Tempest: Thanks ^^ Can't wait for the renovation to be over.. It is such a mess there now hehe .. But I think it will turn out amazing by the time we are done with everything!


Going to end this post with couple of songs that I have been listening to over and over today.. Enjoy :)

Busy bee!

This weekend has been insane..
We got the flat on Friday and the work started on Saturday. They have stripped the kitchen cabinets and floor and the hallway floor and closet along with the walk-in closet. The bathroom renovation starts today.
We have bought new wooden floors.. It is black oak to put on the hallway floors, in the walk-in closet and the kitchen. It is very very pretty.

When we got the flat on Friday - I got this panicky feeling. It felt like it was too much. And the horrid smell.. Ugg.. But it is looking better already and the smell is almost gone after we removed the kitchen and the closet and so on. So that is a good sign. And I think it will get very pretty by the time we are done.

I couldn't find my camera so the before pictures are taken on my cell- hope they turn out OK.

Over to something else. I finished reading Unbearable Lightness last night and I loved it.. It was so easy and comfy to read.. And I could relate to her feelings and thought in so many levels. And the ending was just so nice. I also loved the ending and her thoughts around intuitive eating. How we should learn to listen to our body. Eat when it asks for it- stop when we are full. And I have never managed that. I never eat cause I am hungry, and stop cause I full. I either binge - or under eat cause of my counts. I have DL'ed this book on my kindle and I hope to get a how to plan.

It would be such a bliss to stop the counting- and the binging- and the "cravings".. The hunger.. The good/bad food lists.. So ya we will see how it goes.

On the other note I have "stolen" the 60 day challenge from Samzi and I want to start on it cause I think it sounds like such a fun plan. I have made a page for it. and going on it from today.

The weekly challenge is: 
Pick one unhealthy food or habit you have (eg. Artificial sweetener, chocolate, eating after 8pm, skipping breakfast) and aim to go 7 days without eating/doing it.



Mine will be skipping breakfast. I tend to skip it or not have anything more than tea/coffee. And then have a half of a sandwich around lunch time and count it as breakfast. So if there is one thing I have always wanted to change and think can do - is this.

Day 1: 

How tall are you, what do you currently weigh, and what do you hope to weigh after the 60 days? (Be realistic).


I am 163 cm tall (it's around 5'3.5 I think) - and I haven't been on the scale since Thursday cause I had my monthly visit. But my weight then was 108.7 kg aka 239.6 lbs. (Yup horrid but that's what it is). I hope to be under 100 kg after the 60 days. So I hope to lose 10 kg - aka 20 lbs. I think it a doable number.

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I have been off MFP the last 3 days- and I haven't counted at all. We have been out all day almost, and my cell app is acting up. I have not been on the scale either cause I have had my period. It was over yesterday, and I will get on the scale on Wednesday for the planned weekly weigh- in. Really hope I have lost some weight. Can't really tell at the moment since I have been really bloated..

@ Sasha: Great, I am following the new blog as we speak :)
@ Star: Thanks for the follow hon- I had a look at your blog and it seemed to be in Spanish, hence why I am not following back. Let me know if you have a blog in English :)
@Mia, Miranda, Run: Ya I had a talk to my leader today and explained the situation. He understands and hopefully there will be no more stinky situations like that.
@Nasimiyu: I loved it.. Enjoy the read :)


Anywho.. Off for now


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