Yesterday was bad.. Well the dinner part and everything after was bad. I haven't been "sick" since my bff was here and well my body had a "bad" reaction to it I guess.. That combined with the mental part of it.. The part where I feel ashamed over my self for actually doing it.. Lets just say it felt horrid.
But that was yesterday.. I am trying to not stay in what has happened and keep moving on. C'est la vie.. Today I am giving my self a fruit day, so I am going to try to eat as much as fruit as possible. I think the fibre and the vitamins will do me good. I am also going to try to stay off coffee today. I have been cutting down on my coffee intake, and been replacing it with tea and it's been kinder on my tummy.
I have also been playing with the idea of becoming a flexitarian. And I don't really see a reason why I shouldn't. Anyhow, I am going to read more about it first.
I couldn't wait until Friday to get on the scale. I'm 230 today, and I guess that's OK- I am looking forward to get out of the 200's and never get up to that again. The other day we were out and I saw this skirt I really loved, but the largest size they had in it was a EU size 44. That is around 4-6 sizes smaller than what I use today.. Lately I hate shopping.. Nothing I like looks good on me.. Nothing I like is there in the "right" size.. So I was really sad again. And my bf said "I think you should get the skirt anyways, I see that your body is changing and you should have it as a goal, when you fit the skirt you know whatever you are doing is working for you".. So I got the skirt. I tried it on when I got home.. And its really really really too small for me.. So now I have another goal.. And that is to get in that skirt.
Lately he has been asking me a lot of questions about my diet, and what I want and my goals and so on. I haven't always been honest on every details ( I always "forget" to tell him about the B/P part).. But ya we have been talking. I told him that I wanted to go on a huge shopping trip to London when I hit my GW, and that I wanted to shop for 1k GBP and that I was saving up for that. So now he wants to pay for that shopping trip.. First I was a tad .. I should be doing this by my self.. By now I don't really see a reason why I should be doing it alone. He has also joined my gym, so now we are going to hit the gym together, which makes it so much easier to get going. So ya.. I might let him.