I didn't have any great numbers this morning, but I didn't get on the scale until after my shower and my hair was wet and so on. So I am not too worried about that. I haven't really been hungry. Well I was some yesterday, but that was probably cause we were out most of the day and I didn't get to eat properly. So this is great.. I am glad I am not counting calories, cause the food I have been eating contains load and loads of it.. Eggs, bacon, ham, cheese, red meat and the list goes on and on. Anyways I don't care.. I am losing weight. And I feel great about it.
It is now officially 4 weeks to the wedding.. I must admit my tummy is already filled with butterflies.. And I am really looking forward to everything.. There are still a bunch of details we need to take care of. But ya :) I am making a list hehe
I am so disappointed over my fiance's best man. And I am so glad that he has two of them cause the "main" one has not done shit. He hasn't once called to hear if we needed any help or offered a thought. I asked him if he was going to give a toast, since I have to tell the toast master who is giving the toasts. And guess what he said..
He said " No I wasn't thinking about saying anything".. And trust me.. I have told him that is sort of a part of his "job" being a bestman... *sigh*.. I don't even know why we are having him there.. He doesn't act like he cares or gives a shit.. I hate it when people take things for granted.. I mean.. He took his time to decide if he wanted to be my fiance's bestman. And then he goes and acts like he doesn't give a f...
My maid of honor and my bridesmaid.. One living in Oslo- the other living in London.. Have been more involved in the whole thing.. And have actually been a great help planning. This guy lives 5 mins walking distance from us.. And he hasn't bothered to call and ask to see if there is anything he can do..
I am not counting on other to do what we can do ourselves but come on..
Anyways.. I really do wonder if we will even bother to talk to this guy ever again after the wedding. You get what you give ya?? And you treat people the way you want to be treated back..
We have had him over for dinner so many times and not once he has invited us over.. Oh ya he did once, when he had his bday.. And we had to bring the cake lol..
Anyways fuck it.. We can live without a person like that..
Ugg.. I really miss my friends in Oslo.. What to do?? I am so confused.. Should we move back?? Start over?? Atleast we know we would have people who would be there for us no matter what...
I don't know what to do anymore.. :(
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I feel so down.. I have moved a whole lot in my life.. And now I don't feel like I belong. I don't feel like I can stay here.. Moving back to Oslo seems like to commit suicide.. Our finances would fall a part, and we would have to start on nothing.. Rent a flat instead of buying a house. Get new jobs.. And then it is no way to say if they will be jobs we would even enjoy.. For the first time in my life I have a good job that I like.. I have no financial problems.. But I have no friends.. I feel lonely.. We went and saw "something borrowed" this weekend. And there was a scene where the girls are having a slumber party and it really brought me to tears.. I miss my bff so much.. So much :(
I feel so down.. I have moved a whole lot in my life.. And now I don't feel like I belong. I don't feel like I can stay here.. Moving back to Oslo seems like to commit suicide.. Our finances would fall a part, and we would have to start on nothing.. Rent a flat instead of buying a house. Get new jobs.. And then it is no way to say if they will be jobs we would even enjoy.. For the first time in my life I have a good job that I like.. I have no financial problems.. But I have no friends.. I feel lonely.. We went and saw "something borrowed" this weekend. And there was a scene where the girls are having a slumber party and it really brought me to tears.. I miss my bff so much.. So much :(
Thank you so much for your comment on my post regarding loneliness the other day, and this post seems to continue the theme. I totally relate to what you are saying, so don't ever feel you are alone in your feelings. We both need to be strong and just somehow get out there and meet new people. I can't imagine how hard it must be with all the wedding stuff as well, but we have to believe that things will get better.
ReplyDeleteTake care of yourself, and very well done for the weight loss, I'm glad your new plan is working for you!
Always here if you need to talk (type!)
Love AJ xx
I've moved around a lot too especially when i was little. It awlays seemed like when i'd settled and found friends i had to move all over again. And mow my best friends live 200km away from where i live now and its either i have no money to visit or when i do have money im in school and cant go. I totally understand the feeling of isolation. Plus im mgoing to have to move again in 2 years when uni is over. It sucks.
ReplyDeleteIf hes not very useful as a best man cant you demote him? And then your fiance can have one best man whos actually commited to the task :)
Congrats on the weightloss by the way you're doing great. Hope you're where you want to be by your wedding day. Everythings always better when you feel great xx
I actually did the GI about 2 years ago. Lost 10 kg in 4 monthes. The thing is my boyfriend is a vegetarian and I dont want to cook 2 dishes (and only quorn isn't that exiting).. It's a great idea though, maybe I'll give it a shot :)
ReplyDeleteI cant imagine how hard it would be to move away from everything.. My boyfriends brothers girlfriend is from Australia, and she lived here for 1,5 years and just moved back home (he's waiting for his visa). At least norway isn't so far away!